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I learnt a lot time kat spital aritu. One best thingla was a group of psakit n penjaga pesakit yg kejenye hanya bergossip.. Dah ko, nk wat aper lg kat spital kan.. org sakit kejenye hanya tdo. Penjaga pesakit tu ada keje kalo pesakit nk makan, nk minum, berak, makan ubat etc etc.. waktu lain pesakit akan tdo. Ada gak pesakit yg katanya sakit tp tak macam org sakit.. Hahaa..

Sbelah kanan katil nnk, ada Ah So ni. Penjaga dia bibik dari Solo. Belah kiri Kak Fiza dari Shah Alam. Kak fiza ni tak berenti bercakap so takdela bosan sangat. Si bibik peneman aku g bekfes, lunch n dinner. Giler ko.. tak lalu aku nk makan kat ward blh muntah kahak aku.. haha...

Mula2 nenek was placed at sub-acute ward. Time tu, cuma ada 2 org je kat situ. Granny and one indian granny. Since, the indian granny tu sorang so ada gakla ai tlg bla2 perlu. She's very kind n kesian takde org jaga dia. Opposite granny nye tpt tu, is acute ward. The room ada it's own door, while granny nye open one. Kata pun tpt acute so basically org2 kat dlm tu adalah mereka yg agak2 parah n blh dikatakan tunggu waktu jela. Malam pertama ok lg. 2nd nite2 org passed away, 3rd nite ada sorang, 4th nite 2 org lagi.. then on the 5th nite, granny da masuk ward biasa.

Ada gak org passed away time tuh. Tp at least takdela the mayat lalu tepi katil nenek b4 dibawa keluar. Mau tak scary mcm tu. Dahla sumer tu mati tgh2 malam.. adoiyaii..

Bila ada patient baru masuk, nnt adala bibik sorang tuh g busybody amik tau sbb 'baby' bibik tu mmg da tak bgn lgsg so blh je dia tinggal2. Nnt dia blk kat ward ktorg n bgtau apa kes. hahaa..
Ai pun da terikut ngan gaya derang.. ehehee..

Macam2 hal. Ada yg takde relatives, terabai. Ada yg nk bunuh diri sebab cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan. Ada yg tak sakit apa2 selama ni, tiba masuk spital kata ada kanser otak just sbb asik sakit kepala je.

Yg ai suka, ada dr yg cute2. Especially time pagi, sumer muka comey2.. lol..

Actually, byk menda nk share tp hati sedang serabot.. tatau nk tulis camne.

Granny

Granny da 6 days dok spital. First she keep saying she has this heart problem. Then, bla Dr ask.. I simply say, she has this heart problem la Dr. After thorough check up, symptoms didn't show much on heart or anything to do with heart. Weak heart is normal due to aging. So basically, it's all okay.

Turn out, all the symptoms lead to pneumonia. Lung infection, paru2 berair. I was busy..really busy for the past one week. Terpaksa bergilir with MOm to take care granny. Me at night n Mom during day time. Honestly, It was tiring.. BUt then she's my granny. If only she has the courage to stay strong.

Staying in hospital @night is scary. For the past 3 days, everynight ada death. Lagi2 when granny was placed at the sub-acute ward and opposite to acute ward. So basically, bla ada death in acute ward, they will passed granny's bed. Wooo.. sangat scarry. Granny's bed is next to balcony and the sliding door is kept open most of the time (unless raining). Me, being me.. sangat penakut.. I would wait blk rumah baru buang segala mak nenek air.. hehe. takut sehh..

I've a lot to talk about but, sgt tired.. nk rest as tomorow nk kene take turn stay at hospital lagi.
Please pray for my granny's health. Thank you.

Bila 4LLI I tunjukkan balasan time di dunia lagi...

biasa.. byk cerita dari seberang..
Grandma seems to regaining her health..
So Alhamdulillah..

Those persons who once hurts her all the way of her aging time..
Got their punishment already.. berkat kesabaran all of us..
Not that we are happy but we realized that once Allah said, KUN FAYAKUN..
Nothing you can do to change anything..
The son in law is having second wife, the daugther is having affair..
Not only 1.. but 2 SIL and 2 daugthers..

So, remember.. kalo buat salah probably Allah will give you CASH punishment!
SO minta maafla sblm terlambat!

A humble request...

Dear friends,
Do spare a little of your precious time for a very humble request from me. Please pray for my Mom's and Grandma's wellness.
Mom just recovered from her illnesses, though not fully recover but getting better and hopefully everything will be back to normal soon. How I wish..
Please..

Thank you very much for your do'a. My family & I really appreciate it.

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It has been 3 weeks since I spent a night in my very own room. Yet to be back here again seems like everything that I would trade with. I just miss my time having a rest in my very own room. Not that, I didn't have my own room in Kristal but somehow, I don't feel Kristal as a home. Just something wrong somewhere as I can recall.

Mom cleaned up the spare room at the back and my youngest sister moved to that room. Well, all this while she wants to hve her own room and now she got it. Nurul is happy to have the room as her wish. So now everyone has their own room. Nobody shares except of course, Mom n Dad.

I never had a chance to share my bedroom with any of my sisters. In fact, they know how much I loath sharing my room. Hehe.. Unless it is emergency.

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Had a very long night on the day before so I woke up a little late on Sunday morning. Nurul already prepared the breakfast. Since Mom not really well, Nurul take over the kitchen. She prepared breakfast n lunch before went to college. She really some1 now.

I couldn't believe myself in this situation. May Allah gives me some strength to face things sanely.

Thanks Dad...

I came home a little early today coz I went out from UiTM early than usual so I don't hv to face heavy traffic n I got my way smooth all the way home. Mama asks me to get fishcake n fishball for mee goreng. Today is our turn to send foods to surau as 'moreh' (is this how its spelled?). Take sometimes at 'pasar malam' and buy some stuffs. It's been a while I didn't cook at home. So today I've had my self-cooked kailan and cendawan goreng tiram. Not very tasty coz tak reti nk agak garam.. hehee

While we were having our food during break fast, mama told me about the letter. What letter? I asked Ika to get it for me. Owh, its the offer letter for the master thingy. N what the HELL for? I dun think I'm gonna need it anymore. I wash my feet already. UIA.. its just a uni where I spent to get my degree n get my time wasted. Poor me...

I've been so messed up lately. With the personal problems, this study problems, the family thingy. I even gave up my life though I never tell ppl. Yea, I GAVE UP MY LIFE. Sound stupid huh? But hell sure, u mite did worst that I ever done if u were in my shoes. Alhamdulillah, Allah gv me chance to repent n hv the strength to regain my will n strength to fight whatever bad feeling I'm having at that moment. And Thank Allah, that HE doesn't let me walk alone. HE gives someone to walk with me along the way. Someone who really understand me, someone who always there for me thru my good and bad times.

That's my DAD. My lovely Dad. The best Dad in the world. Though sometimes, as teenager I found Dad is too much but deep inside I know, there's nobody perfect. So do my Dad. But he always my hero.

Mom was like kinda pushy about me enroll to UIA's master program. But then, I insist not to go. I've got enof of wasting so much time overthere. Furthermore, I know who I am. I wanna be a better person n I wanna change. So it's better for me to get back with the family who can observe me all the times. I've done so much wrongdoings n now I'm begging for HIS forgiveness.
So I've decided not to accept the offer n not to reject. As time passing by, the offer will be revoked. So nothing to worry. Nway, I even got my matric no. already.. hohohooo...

Above all, the most important person in leading me making such decision is Papa. Yea my Dad. At one time, he says something that touch my heart.. it really make me cry.. Papa said, 'I would prefer u stay here with me. At least I know whether u've money or not. You hide so much things from me, never tell me if u've problems. To know u don't hv money make me feel as I'm a failed father.' Of course in Malay. Lately, since I'm at home.. we've spent so much time chatting about me n my life. He misses to spent time with me when I was in Kuantan.

So after all, what I'm gonna do?? I don't think I'm ready for the business thingy. So I gotta find things to do. As to fill my free time.

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As for now, I manage not to get in touch with Nuar. Though if he calls, or sms, still aku layan cam biasa. But I'll try my best not to c him. Though I hv to sacrify all friends.. I would. I'm sorry. I'm just too tired with the game. I wanna quit as I'm too old to play. I wish him good life. How much I wish for syaril n app, that much I wish for him. There's no difference btw all of them. And, I'll b a good fren with him later when I'm cool. When I manage to forgive him dgn ikhlas. For time being, its still hurt.. n its still bleeding... Bare with me..

# Esok aku ada break fast date with Dayang.. Believe it or not.. haha.. plus, awek syaril yg janda tu da delete aku dr fs syaril, del phone aku dr phone syaril, delete YM id aku.. ermm anything yg bleh buat syaril in contact ngan aku blk la kiranya. Huh.. amikla.. aku tak heran..

Shopping spree.. yihaaa...

Letih beb shopping (but still sempat posing n senyum).. Sibbaik redup kalo panas.. for sure jamil da minta buka pose all the way.. hehe

Nice tak? Well, it's nice. Me likey. I'm gonna use it tomorrow for work. (aritu da minta org blanja.. tp takde rezki, aku beli sendri jela...)

This one is value buy.. Very the cheaper one.. Me likey too

This is also value buy.. This one is for Mom. Tp still aku mcm selalu akan pinjam je.. hehe

Guess brapa these 3 pair of shoes cost me?? Only RM 50.. The Marie Claire one is 29.00, then the Bata (White) is RM9 (aku pun cam tak caya) and the other to RM 19. Total RM58. Tp dapat voucher RM 8. So altogether just RM50. Aku tak perlu byr mahal tuk brg banyak.. AGAIN.. ME LIKEY...

Beg keje aku da jahanam.. especially beg buluh dari Langkawi. Pemberian orang, aku da buang coz da putus talinya.. so aku beli beg murah2 tuk g keje esok.. yippeee...

This one is for my sis yg agak boyish tu. She starting ti hv gurly behavior.. so as kakak aku kene support. Dia minat beg ni.. so aku belikan.. coz nnt aku bleh pjm gak.. hohooo

I had a very long day. Woke up early in the morning n help mom to clean up the house and packing the stuffs for business. Then around 12, got myself ready n drove out to the town. The original plan was to go Ikea and OU but then Mom wanted to buy 'Jubah' n sort of muslimah thingy, perhaps preparation for her hajj after raya. My parents will be going for their second pilgrimage exactly 3-4 weeks after raya. So the plan was cancel n we headed to Masjid Jamek, KL. I dun dare to drive there so we took LRT and get ourselves there without worrying about where r we going to park the car and how bad is traffic jammed. Hohohoo..

My aunt and her 3 childs were following us. So there were like 9 of us went for shopping. hehee.. just imagine how would it looks like. I do enjoy todays shopping coz I spent money like giving away money. Even mama pun marah me. Well, I was so excited shopping2 ni kan... like u dunno me.

Rasanya, we pusing the whole masjid india area, sogo n the nearby shops. Especially the one yg sells jubah. After 2 hours, my mom n aunt got dizzy n tired. Siap minta blk nek teksi ko. Dah I park my car @KJ. Nek taxi to KJ, bek aku drive je td. I ask them to rehat at Masjid India yg sangatla sempit tpt semayang ppuan tu.. then my sis n me continue the shopping. Of coursela looking for tudung n kerongsang which at the end of the day, we brought something else. Not even one tudung we buy. Huhuu..

Penat sudah pusing2, went back tu Masjid India, fetch Mom n the rest and went back home. Sampai je kat KJ, everyone were like so relieve.. mcm aper je.. Aku rileks je..

So penyudahnya, I bought 1 shirt and 1 belt for papa and both cost me like RM130. Then baju for both my sis which cost me RM50 for 2. Ermm, kasut for Jamil, mom n myself cost me RM149. 2 bags for Nurul n Me (kinda petaling street onela.. for fun what.ehehe) cost me 50 bucks. Then expenses, LRT tix for 9 cost me another 50 bucks. Buka puasa at KJ cost me another 200 bucks. N I've spent almost or around RM650. Whatever it is, aku hutang kasut lg sama ika n nurul n also mom.. i owe mom a pair of bag. Hmm.. It will cost me another 200 for sure.

I'm so happy that I could spend money for my family. Perhaps my nawaitu to be a better person is accepted and I'm trying hard to be one..

# I manage to stay calm when talking to the person I hate the most.. I'm getting better

Rindu

Ni time blk dari Sungai Gabai..

Perangai giler2 awik.. ni gune hp baru Zul.. nice pic what...sharp

Tak sangka bleh jumpa time Konsert PMI nih ehh.. Layan habis.. Haih.. kenangan..kenangan..

Time ni ktorg melarikan diri dari pemiutang.. hehe.. adventure giler...

I was talking to Nahar when suddenly he tells me that he misses Awik, suddenly thinking about him. Yea.. I miss him too. Lately he never neither return my call nor my sms. He mite be busy. Does he think n miss us?? Hehee.. I don't know. He calls me sometimes. Chatting through YM when he's ol. But thats it.. he mite be busy.

I was looking for older pictures in CDs when I found the above pics. (tu yg tetibe teringat kat awik). Last year, I spent most of my buka posa time with him, jijoi n nahar. As far as I concern, I had iftar at home (melati) once, and at meru like 4-5times. The rest was filled with the appointment iftar at Hotel, Resto or with frens.

So Awik, how r u ehh?? Dari aku mula2 g kuantan sampai la ni, da blk Klang blk... ko tak gak sampai2 kuantan lg. Lepas raya ni kalo ko tak turun KL gak or tak cari aku gak, I'll hunt u to JB.. hehe.. ;)

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Td time sahur, Jamil asked nurul, why kak ika tak pose.
Well, aku da agak, the Q&A session will be panjang..
Nurul : Sbb kak ika uzur
Amin : Sakit aper?
Nurul: Bukan sakit, orang ppuan tiap bulan dia cam uzur, takleh posa takleh semayang.
Amin : Oo amin taula, tp kenapa tak boleh
Aku : Sbb time tu dia kotor.
Amin : Mandila..
Aku : Kalo mandi pun tak bersih gak. Tp yg special camni ppuan je.. lelaki takde tau. Lelaki tak bleh ponteng posa n tak bleh tinggal semayang.
Amin : yerla amin taula. Tp kenapa kak ika tak bleh makan sama ngan kita?
Nurul: Sbb dia tak posa. Kalo tak pose, tak bleh berbuka ngan org pose.

And the conversation keeps on till ktorg sumer semayang..
Huhuu.. adik aku makin bijak..

Anak bongsu Papa.. hehe.. da besar skrg. So far dah 2 hari pose.. tp byk merengek.. hehe

Happy Father's Day

While 'lepakking' after almost 60% of the proposal finished, I realized that I haven't call Papa to wish Happy Father's Day. The most important person in my life that the important reason that I am what I am rite now. Thanks Papa for everything. I love u so much..

Reload another 10bucks to call Papa. Asking how Papa n Mama. He told me that Mama still @Kampung.. taking care of grandma. N now the truth revealed. My fucking aunty who stole grandma money is the person responsible on grandma condition. That fucking bitch even prepare a fake wills so that she will inherit evrything that grandma own. The thing is how on earth that bitch know about grandma's inheritance coz the bitch is mom's cozin. Not mom's sista. Papa was the one who pissed off over this matter coz he's the one who gv grandma money.

Here the story begin, she took out all money grandma had in the bank with the help of one bank officer who happened to be d daughter of the bitch's fren. N claim that grandma took it all out. Then she prepare the fake will, which said that all inheritance will b given to her. Once grandma sign the will, she told grandma that her money no longer hers so she left broke now. Since that fucking bitch knows that grandma not very well, n such news will gv her heart attack, she told her that even the house (my family house) will be taken by bank. Grandma got her heart attack. She really hope that grandma will die, so she'll get evrything that grandma own. Luckily my mom's sis knows this earlier n took grandma, bring her to her house n take care of her. Plus mama wire the money for grandma medicine.

The best thing is, Papa no longer wanna trust mama's family side n now things are getting hard when Papa report this thing to mama's cozin who happen to be the Director of the Bank. Now, I wish all ppl who actually involve in this matter will be fired n thrown to the jail. Especially the bitch n her fuckin siblings n her mom. Go to hell all of u.

If anything happened to my grandma, I'll make sure Om Datuk will throw all of u in the jail. Now askin forgiveness like hell n evryone stand to say its their fault. Who fucking care?? These ppl should be shot to death so they will never appear in any birth.

I'm pissed off coz of this news i heard from papa n also coz I spend the whole 10 bucks for this unhappy news. Damn!! I wish I can kick their ass. Arghhhhh tension!!!!!

Lawakla kamu ni...

Real story with some 'edit'ing...

SMS

"Wah, no more call for me lately. Other guys keep calling but none from u. Good Luck anyway. Lets call it a day. :p"
"I'm dating with Izzie"
"Fine. Now we r through. O.V.E.R! Thanks 4 evrything"
"I'm going home. Dun rush on doing such a stupid decision like this."

Few minutes later...

"Hye. What's wrong babe?"
"Well, u hvn't call me. What? Askin me what's wrong?"
"So just bcoz I didn't call u wanna call it a day? It is all over? What is this?"
"Hurmm..."
"It is just bcoz I didn't call rite?"
Bla.. bla.. bla.. bla...
Bla.. bla.. bla.. bla...

"Think properly dear.."
"Hurm.."
"It's not over yet rite?"

After quite a long silent..

"Hahahhaaaa... how could u believe that its over? We haven't start it yet? How could it over?"
"Ha.. ha.."
"How do u feel?"
"Like eating rice!Why? what do u expect? Expecting me to say it's hurt? It's painful like hell?"
"Haha.. just wanna make u feel what others feel.."
"Let bygone be bygone.. dun bring it up.. forget it ok. Hv I ever bring up anything about ur past?"
"Hurmm..."


Just b4 went for a deep sleep.. an SMS coming..
" Don't do it again!"

Hahaaa.. lawakla kamu ni..

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Grandma getting worse. N that stupid bitch who claimed to be my aunty (this fuckin bitch should be killed long time ago) took all the money my grandma has. Now Mama gotta go back to bring the grandma to hospital n take care of her for quite sometimes..

Arghh.. again Mama left Papa.. it's gonna be a big topic in papa's family side. Sometimes I just wonder, can we just get married n get rid of these other family claimed like members.. Damn.. like they ever help if we needs help n now they r trying to create another stupid fucking problem.. can u just stay ur ass away from my family.. I'm starting to hate this so called big family thingy.. go to hell all of u bitches!! May all members of grandma's younger sista go to helllllllllll..........


# I'm pissed off... Sorry of my language..

Wuteva

Cinta akan hadir....
Bila sesuatu telah hilang...


# I got this from a movie I just watched.

Sumtime, siblings pun kt tak blh percaya. My parents da byk kali tertipu ngan my aunty n sorang ni n yet still nk trust her with hope.. she'll change!. This morning, with the news nenek sakit, then money yg mom wire 4 her, was taken by sedara mara dia.. my mom sakit jiwa ngan berita she was like kene tipu for almost 20juta. Which is around 7ribu duit malaysia la. Its quite a lot la..

The money was wire to tine kaki tipu tu tuk setelkan hal rumah sewa. Nk renovate rumah sewa kat sana.. alih2 kene tipu lak.. my dad da bengang giler. Now kat rumah ni rasa cam evryone moody je. Aku plak asik kene keja ngan Dr Raj n im running away.. dem!!

Won't be around.. aku lari dari diri sendiri...

Home Sweet Home..

Scene 1

Mama was nagging about my bro. Then papa came in n mama stop nagging. We were kinda laughing.. Oo rupa2nya mama takut nk nagging depan papa.. ahakss..

Scene 2

Mama ask me, if I da jumpa my bro ke blom. So I said, not yet. Then mama suh g jumpa my bro kat umah dia. Even till now tak sempat jumpa lg budak gemuk tu. Aku nampak ada motor hitam Yamaha Lagenda 110 depan umah my bro. Hmm ada tetamu kot. Since kes motor my bro ilang kene curi, dia cam patah kaki.. takleh nk kuar.. hehe.. maybe kawan my bro kot. Pehtu, bibik suh aku makan kueh yg dia prepare tuk brekfes.. Aku tanya bibik sapa ada kat umah my bro, bibik kata takde sesapa.. ada adik akula tgh tdo.. then aku tunjuk kat motor hitam tu. Bibik suh tanya mama..

Mama ckp, my dad belikan my bro motor tu. My dad pening pala tiap kali dia nk bawa WNK kuar rumah. So belikan motor, senang gak dia nk antar jemput jamil dr skul. Hmm.. my bro got new bike.. Me?? Can I get new VIVA papa?? Papa ckp, papa da tgk dah..tapi tak berkenan.. hahaa.. takperla.. nanti I get money I get my own Jazz.. hahaa :p

Scene 3

"Jamil, nak ikut tak? Akak nk g Klang ngan mama ni. Kalo nk ikut cepat makan nasi." Kata aku sambil kupas buah mempelam.
"Nak..amin nk makanla ni.. Ma, nak makan nasi ngan udang."
"Ok" kata mama
"Cepatla kupas buah tu..amin nk makan buah."
"Mana boleh makan buah sebelum makan nasi." -kata aku lagi..
"Tapi.. nabi Muhammad dia makan buah sebelum makan nasi.."
"Erk.. tu buah kurma.."
"Buahla tu.."

Aku kene gelak ngan papa... Hahahaa.. Lupa lak.. adik aku da semakin besar..

Scene 4

"Mom, for the Mother's Day, mama nk duit ke mama nk hadiah?"
"Kalo hadiah, ci nk bg aper?"
"Ci ingat nk bagi phone, aritu da survey. Adala dalam rege 200."
"Mama nk phone, kalo duit, tak nampak je nanti."
"Ok, mama nk ci belikan ke..mama nk pilih sendri?"
"Jom kita tgk sesama.."

So we went to Klang Centrepoint. Since mama nk tukar rupiah, aku pun bawa g sana. Jumpa my aunty kat sana. Pilih punya pilih hp.. aku cam sense sumthing. Dah sah sah budget ciput, aku pun pilih yg sesuai ngan budget aku.. tapi mama cam ada selera tinggi gak.. ahaks.. mama nk phone with camera.. so okla.. pilih nyer pilih.. tawar nyer tawar.. dapatla phone yg sesuai ngan selera mama n agak kureng sesuai ngan budget n poket aku.. hahaa.. Moto SLVR L7i with 512MB memory.. okla..

Sebijik camni la phone baru mama.. okla..nama pun aku tak keje kan..:D

Lepas beli phone, aunty aku ajak plak g masuk The Store, which sah sah akan ada benda terbeli. Since aku baru lepas belanja besar ni.. takut over budget so aku pun cam cover skit.. feel hantu shoppin aku tu.. tapi.. mama lak macam dok tunjuk2 kasut kat aku.. taula mama nk g bandung ni.. kene beli kasut senang nk berjalan.. tak sampai hati tgk mama dok try2 kasut tu.. so aku pun suhla mama amik je kasut tu. Sebelum sempat mama g tgk beg aku ajak derang g makan.. huhu.. rabak gakla.. Habis budget tuk g scuba.. Ada hikmah kot tak g scuba.. dapat senangkan hati mama.. Love u mom. Happy Mother's Day!!

Scene 5

Eika n Nurul dalam usaha pujuk mama nk dapatkan hp baru mama. Aku da kuarkan titah- tak sesapa bleh guna phone mama. Hanya mama bleh guna. Kalo papa nk tukar phone ngan mama pun tak bleh! Sudahnya mlm ni.. sumer mogok takmo dinner.. hahaa.. aku baru cadang nk blanja derang sumer makan luar... :p

Scene 6

"Akak, byk ke habis duit kuar ngan mama td? Kalo dah takde duit, biarla adik sponsor skit byr duit tepon tu." My bro concern sal aku.. maklumla penganggur terhormat cam aku nk dapat duit dari mana.. Ni la dia duit terpijak aku tu.. dah tinggal ckp2 tuk hidup jela.. haha
"Ko nk tlg sponsor brapa?" Aku berharap dia nk bayar half2..bleh gak aku bershoppin..
"Ermm dalam 2 ke 3 ke.."
"2 ke 3 aper? ratus?? biar benar.. ko seyes ke?"
"Takla.. doploh or tigaploh je.."
"Hampehss nye adik.."

Aper pun aku blk umah kali ni.. Aku sangat HAPPY.. Thanks

Live your life to the fullest..

I miss my ma.. Love ya Ma..

1. Happy Mother's Day

Selamat Hari Ibu to all mom out there.. termasuk yg bakal2 menjadi ibu.. It was yesterday tapi since aku baru dapat nk update today.. tu pun kira okla yer..
Called Mom early in the morning.. tried both home n hp but nobody pick up the phone. The second trial was around 10 0'clock in the morning when again left me dissapointed. Around 11.. then I remembered Mom n Dad went for Kursus haji.. they got the call for their second Hajj this year.. So I called mom again @ 1pm. Wish Mom Happy Mother's Day.. U'r the greatest Mom in the world Mama..
It's pissed me off to know Im the last child to wish Mom.. yet I'm her first child.. but nvm.. i said I called since early morning.. I LOVE YOU MOM!!

Hard to do..

2. It's hard to turn ppl down

I used to like some1 and that sum1 turned me down.. it seems so easy for him to do so. So I think, it should be easy for me to reject some1. :D
But to be honest with.. I think to handle rejection is the hardest part. N to reject is another story.. I tot, it would be easy for me to handle rejection n to reject but now I realized.. its not that easy.. its so fuckin difficult.. its hard to live knowing that u hurt ppl..its hard to understand u broke som1's heart.. its hurt me so damn much!!
I'm sorry that I hurt you.. If only I can turn back time.. If only that never happen.. If only and only if.. I wish this is all dream.. I wanna wake up tomorrow n this is all a nightmare..

I wanna be by ur side as ur best buddy ever..

I miss my spongy so much.. huwaaaa

3. Complicated

I wanna go home!! Huwaaaa... Bosan kat sini taktau nk wat per.. plus rasa cam nk blk umah.. Rindu ngan spongy yg tertinggal kat DJC. Minta2la takde bau2 yg tak diingini nanti kat spongy aku.. Last nite teringin kueteow mali..
Things happened yesterday yg buat aku agak down giler.. damn!!

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST SUCI!!

Njoying life k!!

4. List to do..

Hopefully aku dapat setelkan segala perkara yg aku nk buat b4 I turn 30.. hehee
-Scuba diving license
-Naik g puncak Mount Kinabalu sampai dapat sijil berwarna (bak kata Ros)
-G backpackers yg betul2 nyer.. yg giler budget.. :D
-water rafting
-sailing
- n the list go on..

Penipuan yg terbongkar..

Ahaks.. entry ke 3 untuk hari ni..
Suka la.. aku nk tulis brapa byk entry pun.. da bosan tahap dewa ni..
Esok ada sesapa nk temankan aku tgk Jgn Pdg Belakang?? Sila sms saya secepat mungkin k!!
Ahakss...

Td blk dari umah aunty aku mama panggil ktorg adik beradik kat ruang tamu.. pastu cakap bisik2.
"Semalam tu papa bukan tak jd blk sebab flite delay tapi sebab kene tinggal flite."
Ahakss.. aku gelak je.. Mama sambung lg..
"Dah pesan byk kali, adik dia tu mmg sukala kalo dia stay lama.. bykla boleh minta. Geramnya ngan kita tak mau dia ngaku.. ngan orang lain dia cerita plak."
Aku gelak lagi.. ermm tau da perangai pakcik aku tu. maleh nak komen..

Ala.. leks arr ma, kalo bukan sebab papa tinggal flite mesti mama tak sempat g buat facial kan?? kan?? kan ma kan?? ahakss.. yo yo oo je mama g buat facial semalam, cuci mukala.. aper la.. konon suami blk mama dalam keadaan tercantikla kot.. ahakss.. Muka mama skrg ni much better than mine.. huhuu.. camni aku pun kene buat facial lak nampak gayanya.. tapi.. nak tunggu sapa blk umah?? hahahaaa...

# Asal kesengalan aku makin menjadi2 ni.. huhuuuu

Astrology

Miss him.. tetibe jek.. Demm.. (Apa kabarmu disana??)

Waktu2 camni macam best je layan.. EG!!! Tulunkkkkkk...!!!!!!!!

Jom wayang.. Cineleisure ke cineplex yg kat sblh The Curve tu?? (Haih!!)

This morning kinda mencabar kesabaran aku.. huhu..
I couldn't send papa to LCCT due to mengantuk n penat tak hingat dunia.. wut the heck I did yesterday?? So Mama n my bro sent him this morning. Aku sambung tdo blk, then bibik kejut ckp Jamil dun wanna go to school, so I was like hanginla.. dala tdo kene kacau.. pujuk punya pujuk.. last2 menangis2 tu gak aku heret g skul. Bg duit blanja 5 hinggit arini. (Giler punyer pujuk ehh :p )

Then, as usual.. b4 gosok gigi n cuci muka.. hehee.. aku check email dulu pepagi.. mana tau ada yg ptg2.. ahakss :D

Percaya tak if I say aku subscribe daily Romantic Horoscope?? Hehee.. giler desperate ehh?? No la.. cuma kekadang aku cuma nk tau betul ke ape yg derang ckp tu.. but to be honest with you guys.. most of the time dia cam betul.. Tapi arini cam menarik skit.. heheheee tu yg nk buat aku bercerita kat blog.. hahahaa..

Read this:

Dear Melia,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Friday, April 20:

Buh-bye, caution -- have fun on the wind. You're in a mood to do what you want, say what you mean, be who you are -- possibly in outrageous ways. Bonus: You're hot as heck while you're at it.

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Well, to start with.. thats wut I've in mind rite now.. hahaha...
Havin a good day wif an ol fren.. tot he lost his mind already.. rupa2nya tak.. :p
Then hv a minor fight wif another ol fren.. Im d one who losing my mind.. demm!! (do what you want, say wut u mean n be who u r..)


# Bukan tak memberi peluang.. cuma waktu belum tiba..

Happy Birthday Eika...

Here special 4 u my lovely sista...

Sucks.. My day was kinda ermm should I say not very the good one la. I forgot my own sista b'day. I did mistakes again.. over n over like I've no idea y i bcome so kinda 'jahat' sangat sekarang. Hmm.. sorry again 2 those yg terkene kejahatan i tu.. :D

Mini thesis ada lg separuh tuk ditanda.. n luckily aku cuma ada 2day to finish marking all of it coz esok kene turun kontan suda.. hantar those 2 masters student tu.. plus aku da rindu with my tilam.. hahaa.. no..no.. I'm not goin to stay overnite coz I gotta catch my flight on friday morning n aku tak prepare paper lg 4 d trip.. (hmm do i need to prepare anything?? Naa..)

Aku tak paham asal such simple matter mesti nk jdkan complicated.. come on la.. aku letihla.. kalo macam ni.. I'll see this organization collapse in few years time.. sucks like hell!!.. Ingat travelling from kontan to KL is like from Gombak to Meru kah?? Lainla aku pun blh gunakan LA to be my driver.. ptuihh.. sakit tekak!!

Anyway.. wut bos say is always rite.. (demm hell yea rite).. aper2 la.. gotta go.. nk blk umah sudah.. esok nk jalan jauh.. huhuu.. fenat beb!!

Anak bongsu yg manja...

My little bro.. the bongsu Jamil..

The 3 siblings..

Pagi ni sangat susah aku nk kejut anak bongsu aka jamil tuh. Siap menangis2 lagi bila aku kejut suh mandi nk g skul. Dia kata, last nite dia takleh tdo so dia ngantuk sangat n taknak g skul pagi ni. Kalo ikut aku.. ok je.. pastu papa plak da 5 kali call dari td.. suh gak anak bongsu tu g skul. Kesian gak tgk dia nangis2 takmo g skul.

Alahai.. manjanya.. maklumla anak bongsu.. mmgla boleh manja2.. mmgla boleh mengada2... :p

Well, aku takde masalah ngan anak bongsu k. Tho aku anak sulung.. im cool.. :p

Kesian gak kat jamil to hv kakak yg tak reti pujuk.. last2 aku dukung mamat yg da besar panjang tu.. berat woo.. bawa g blk air...menangis2 la time mandi tu.. dah lepas mandi da segar bugar ok je.. huhuu..

Sebagai upah g skul.. arini duit blanja aku tambah lg singgit.. so 2 hinggit.. meleret panjang je senyum all the way g skul. Haihh.. budak2.. hehee

Hopefully, my loving bro ni tak jd spoiled brat la bila besar nanti.. Wish him all the best..