Live your life to the fullest..

I miss my ma.. Love ya Ma..

1. Happy Mother's Day

Selamat Hari Ibu to all mom out there.. termasuk yg bakal2 menjadi ibu.. It was yesterday tapi since aku baru dapat nk update today.. tu pun kira okla yer..
Called Mom early in the morning.. tried both home n hp but nobody pick up the phone. The second trial was around 10 0'clock in the morning when again left me dissapointed. Around 11.. then I remembered Mom n Dad went for Kursus haji.. they got the call for their second Hajj this year.. So I called mom again @ 1pm. Wish Mom Happy Mother's Day.. U'r the greatest Mom in the world Mama..
It's pissed me off to know Im the last child to wish Mom.. yet I'm her first child.. but nvm.. i said I called since early morning.. I LOVE YOU MOM!!

Hard to do..

2. It's hard to turn ppl down

I used to like some1 and that sum1 turned me down.. it seems so easy for him to do so. So I think, it should be easy for me to reject some1. :D
But to be honest with.. I think to handle rejection is the hardest part. N to reject is another story.. I tot, it would be easy for me to handle rejection n to reject but now I realized.. its not that easy.. its so fuckin difficult.. its hard to live knowing that u hurt ppl..its hard to understand u broke som1's heart.. its hurt me so damn much!!
I'm sorry that I hurt you.. If only I can turn back time.. If only that never happen.. If only and only if.. I wish this is all dream.. I wanna wake up tomorrow n this is all a nightmare..

I wanna be by ur side as ur best buddy ever..

I miss my spongy so much.. huwaaaa

3. Complicated

I wanna go home!! Huwaaaa... Bosan kat sini taktau nk wat per.. plus rasa cam nk blk umah.. Rindu ngan spongy yg tertinggal kat DJC. Minta2la takde bau2 yg tak diingini nanti kat spongy aku.. Last nite teringin kueteow mali..
Things happened yesterday yg buat aku agak down giler.. damn!!

LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST SUCI!!

Njoying life k!!

4. List to do..

Hopefully aku dapat setelkan segala perkara yg aku nk buat b4 I turn 30.. hehee
-Scuba diving license
-Naik g puncak Mount Kinabalu sampai dapat sijil berwarna (bak kata Ros)
-G backpackers yg betul2 nyer.. yg giler budget.. :D
-water rafting
-sailing
- n the list go on..

Biggest decision in life...

....::::: STILL IN THE CONFUSION STATE:::::....

Masters or working??
Still unsure myself.. To be honest with I'm stucked btw both. Stucked btw dreams, goals n life pressure. Few frens gv their opinion, of course from different view n angle. Appreciate that n thanks very much. I'm giving up.. im really am.. I tot I can hv a thought after come back from Bandung. After the holiday but still up till this moment I still can't make up mind. Demm!!

Bro Rizal,
Ermm.. I dunno.. know its hard for you to help me out.. but its harder for me to decide.
I really out of my mind rite now.. What should I do??

I'm doing ELISA n again RNA works over here in Engineering lab. Ohya n tissue culture of course. Seeing all the masters students getting tired with their job, wanted to stop their research n all the problems they r facing.. it frightened me to death on how am i going to survive in this so called research life.. especially in newly established department. Im so farkin scared at the moment.. MoM...how m i goin to tell ya??

As for the working life.. yea.. if we look at certain perspectve.. this job will expose me to the real life.. to the real working environment.. to the real pressure.. but I don't know where the road will lead me.. I know nothing about this new thing.. What my future will be? Sure, my life is all about job n getting pay everymonth n thats it.. Well, the good thing is I'm gonna hv lotz of new fren out there.. gotta be more socialize..hehee.. wuteverla..

So wut do u say guys?? I've wasted my precious time... should I waste even more? After masters what?? Lecturer?? Farkin neraka.. That would be in d dream.. especially when I've to work under lessbrainedm0reheartdperson. Evrything gotta be in d sense of emotional.. like a child.. my situation??nobody understand..well its not for your understanding pun.. those who knows will understand.. :(

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Whatever decision I'm goin to make.. will affect my future.. So??

Confusionsss..

Baru sehari kat rumah.. dah start rasa cam mama getting over concern pasal sesuatu.. Aku jemur kain pun salah, cara sapu rumah pun salah, senduk nasi pun slah.. Aihh.. sabar jela. tu blom bab2 lain2 lagi tu.. But she's my mom.. Love her with all my heart.. Apa2 la ma...

She was nagging about men's ego. Obviously la complaining about my dad yg tercinta.. Haihh macam2 citer org dah kawen ni.. Aku layankan je.. dengarkan je.. hehee...

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G KLCC td, ditemani DJC'rian. Ermm actually aku nk jumpa Bro Rizal, nk discuss pasal d job he's talkin about tu.. since aku ni kan tak pernah g memana sensorang.. :p, so aku ajak la bebudak tu temankan.. hehee.. sibbaik derang nak.. kalo tak aku sekeh pala sorang2... hahaa.. takdela gurau je ehh.. :p

Jumpa n bincang, which I see another world outside the box.. hahaa.. all this while aku cam live in the box so future yg aku nmpk tu pun is yg ada dlm box tu jela.. which is ermm ntahla..

Ermm, job prospec. kinda interesting.. Pay pun not bad.. working environment nice.. so wat am i waiting for? Guys, kalo aku keje kat company ni.. tpt keje aku dekat ngan KLCC :D maknanya VINCCI will be harian nyer kedai yg dikunjungi.. ahakss.. ermm aku kene betul2 kayala maknanya ehh.. Ermm.. Eg, t ko takde da rumate yg best cam aku ni.. hehee.. perhaps ko kene cari rumate baru.. :D Gonna miss ya...

Yo yo ooo je aku ni kan.. ntahla.. aku still in d confusion state..

Ros, aku dah start blk perangai buruk tu.. lepas makan muntah.. lepas makan muntah.. huhu.. camne ni?? Kalo camnila gaya mau aku kurus dulu dari hang.. td g *BURGER KING (baca yer BURGER KING), aku mkn fries n tomato WHOPPER BLACKPAPER.. then rasa cam nk muntah.. huhuu.. pastu ada plak pengganti EG yg dok ajuk2 aku muntah n muka ijo.. lg la loya semacam tekak.. On d way nk g car park, aku buang dulu apa2 yg rasa nk terkuar kat anak tekak tu.. demm perit..

Orang ingat seronok kot muntah tu.. ingat kita suka2 je nk muntah.. tau tak sakit tekak pastu pala pun pening.. blom bau lagi.. behtu lepas ni.. nk di ingatkan jgnla buat muka or sound cam nk muntah tu lg ehh.. cam hampehss tau tak..

Tetiba rindu layan jijoi nyanyi kat karaoke jamban.. hehee.. Jom karaoke!!

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Sepanjang jalan otw blk rumah td, tepon tak berenti berbunyi.. smsla.. call la.. Dahla aku takde handsfree set.. dahla tepon tu mengong.. takleh nak tekan keypad dia.. sudahnya aku buat bodo je sms2 tu sumer.. mana2 call aku layan.. Layan tak layan sangatla.. gitu2 ajerla.. Hangin la ni.. mau tak hangin, esok due date tuk mini thesis tu.. arini la nk tepon.. arini la nk discuss pasal result.. aritu time aku bising2 explain.. takmo tanya..

Bebudak AMG ni satu.. aritu aku dah suh amik result takmo g amik.. bila aku da blk KL baru sibuk nk jumpa.. Kim salam jerla yer.. jumpala ngan machine Alpha Imager tu.. Cuber rasa camne kalo tibe2 cikgu hilang..

P/s: EG, kalo student cari aku.. ckp aku no longer keje kat uia k. Sampai kul 12 pun kene layan call lg.. Pastu, sesapa yg blk KL minggu ni suh tlg bawakan minithesis student2 aku tu. Make sure ada 64 copy semuanya k.. thanks..

Lepas ni bz tanda mini thesis la plak jawabnya.. huhuuuu

# Minggu ni kene tgk wayang.. let see movie apa yg bertuah untuk aku tontoni...
* Aku buat tanda sebab kat Kontan takde BURGER KING.. hahaaa.. :p (saja ja nk bg hangpa jeles.. :D)

Givin Up - Part 2

Should I do this??

My last day here in Kuantan.. till God knows when aku blk sini lagi.. huhuuu
Esok (sibbaik ada 'bodyguard'), blk kl ngan 'bodyguard' huhuu..
SO aku takyah drive.. yuhuuu... suke sangat!!!

Hari ni mmg farkin bz tak hingat dunia. Lari sana sini macam org giler.. Luckily dah setel cek MCQ for both SBM 1023 n SBT 1231. So keje aku da setel. Hutang piutang n account rumah, malam ni nk serah tugas kat Ros. Ermm barang nk dibawa blk ke KL.. malam ni nk kemas.. Kit2 yg nk digunakan nk kene cari ni. HUhuu.. memang bukan kerja aku.. tapi org yg da mcm mak aku.. takkan aku nk berkira ngan dia.. waktu2 aku susah.. waktu2 poket tgh kering tak hingat dunia.. mmg mak aku ni la yg tak berkira ngan aku.. perlu ke aku nk berkira kerah tenaga yg tak seberapa tuk dia. What she did to me.. I just can't pay it with my life..

Yea.. I'm giving up evrything..
Now its all up to u...
I've been hurt before, it doesnt mean I dun mind to be hurt again...
I'm leaving.. wish I will forget about evrything..
Plus, we r not that close :p

Bila kita merasa diri adalah yg paling malang..
Ingatla ada org yg mengalami nasib yg lebih malang..

When Papa was trying to cheer me up..
He said about giving money to shop @ Kota Kembang..
About how he knows I love to shop to cheer myself up..
He said "kita masih cukup makan pakai, jgn jadikan perkara macam tu sebagai penghalang. Kalo ada rezki, ada jodoh.. dapatla.. jgn pk negative..bergembira je. Kami sayangkan ci dan sentiasa doakan ci."

Well, yess aku anak manja.. In fact sangat manja.. kalo aku merajuk aku blh tak blk umah sampai papa call n ask me blk.. aku kinda anak yg jahat n selalu menyakitkan hati org tua.. tapi they r always there for me. Again, airmata tumpah kerna rindukan my parents!

My fren kat KL,
Can't wait to c ya.. erkk.. tetiba plak blh tercontact blk ngan ikmal, nazim, haikal, loloq, pian.. wakakakaa... aku takmo join korang da.. korang sumer merosakkan aku yg baik ni.. hahaa :p

C u guys.. t aku inform Lata bila nk lepak DH..

p/s: Bila setan menguasai pikiran.. "Ermm aku tgk tine yg rampas xbf aku ok je.. rasa tak bersalah je.. tak salah kot kalo amik bf orang ni.. Bleh ke nak try?? Kdg2 mmg rasa nk buat.. jd biatch kan.. Bleh ke EG?? Wut u say guys??"

Aku kene cepat2 buang pikiran giler ni dari otak!!

What a relief...

I know some ppl said I'm lucky..
But that some person mite not know how I crave to be a lucky person :p
Nway.. doesnt matter...
Alhamdulillah dah dipermudahkan jalan2 kehidupan...
Perhaps, this time I'll make wise decision...
Apalah guna mengharap pada yg tak pasti...

As I said b4, being able tu be rational is the best gift nowadays...
I'm thankful for that...
Thankful to Allah, to my frens, to my family...

Mite be not lucky enoff in certain aspects..
But choose to be happy or to be success...
I go over success n be happy once succeeded..
Perghh.. cita2 tinggi menggunung.. :p
Wutever..
The offer is such a relief..
Money..
Happy..
Future..
Marriage?? errr.. Nah.. (this one.. lama lagi :p)

#Wish me luck!!

If I fall along the way
Pick me up and dust me off
And if I get too tired to make it
Be my breath so I can walk