Monday, December 31, 2007

Brokeback Mountain

Well, yea.. I know patutnya I write kat review nye section but malas la.. This computer kinda lembab sbb tgh stream like few epi of taiwanese drama, and also tgh dl 'I am Lagend' the movie.. Hehee... *since aku rajin mendonlot movie ni.. semakin jarang sudah ke cinema.. xcept kalo takat nk lepas gian je..*

Dah lama looking for this movie but since its about gay, I dont bother to seriously cari this movie. Untilla, I get involve with few gay couples.. they said... the misunderstanding about gay.. it doesnt matterla.. aper pun gay is melanggar fitrah manusia but who am I to judge ppl. perhaps they hv their own reason above all... I dun wanna gv comment coz I really dont know n really dont understand.. but to be honest.. Im a bit upset coz those couples tu are very hot guys.. super hot ok!! *the same stetment again.. here we go* 'Dahla lelaki kat sini sikit, yg skit tu ramai kat pusat serenti, yg len2 dah kawin.. yg bujang2 ni tinggalla brapa kerat je.. yg beberapa kerat tu plak....Yg stret da ada awek.. ramai yg gay.. .. huhuu..so who's left?? NONE'

So get my point??Hahaa.. matila kalo derang baca entry ni.. dats y I put it just for contacts.. hehe .

Tp my hope.. kembalilah ke pangkal jalan.. u can if u really working hard for it.. Jgn diubah fitrah manusia.. Ingat jela kaum Nabi Luth.. :D

back to the movie.. I got the nonsensored version punye.. N it was sucksssss..
Aku takleh nk terima lgsg.. seyes takleh nk terima.. tolongla..
Sian kat wife depa... but their love is somewhat complicated.. dah.. kata pun sejenis..sahsahla complicated kan??


# No offense k.. just a piece of crap from my insane mind.. :D
nway... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVRYBODY!!!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

2008

Bila ketiadaan kerja.. hehe.. comey gak kan? :D


Pejam Celik Pejam Celik...
Dah nak masuk 2008 da.. in less 24 hours..
Yet, I have no resolution in mind.. I mean, the new one..
Today, I spent like almost 500 to buy unnecessary accessories.. *girl thingy, just hard to understand.. me myself pun tak paham gak*
I must hv lost my mind.. its kinda kene pukau pun ada gak.. Damn!!
Rite now, feel like I was throwing away money.. Somehow, I promised to buy a 2.5k stuff.
I was really out of my mind. I was so tired, then trying to catch a friend wedding which at the end tak sempat gak nk g.. So sorry.. My fault.. My bad.. afterall, the wedding went smooth without my presence kan.. :D
Got my 2 sisters ring as their presents.. afterall, since aku keje, kakak derang ni become so kedekut to buy the sisters hadiah. A big NO NO for teddy bear.. So since td da alang2 I was looking for something to pamper myself.. aku belikan gakla derang cincin yg kecik2 n comey n murah meriah.. kira termampula di poket aku yg tak seberapa ni kan..*sibbaikla rege emas tak mahal sangat dah cam b4 raya aritu*.. ahakss..
Where am I gonna find 2.5k in a day.. Darn!! A big DARN!!!

What I've in mind is a very big goal to achieve.. well at least for me.. Maybe for others it was like nothing but it is big for me.. N i wanted to achieve it by next year... At least, that is my resolution for next year towards family..
I wanna bring my family for holiday.. to..ermm.. Bali or Korea perhaps.. hehe *ni byk sangat addicted with korean movie ni.. duhh..*
Aku da check for family trip (6-7 org) it gonna cost me around 8-10k gak.. ermm.. am I able to get that much of money by next year?? Though I aku buat few consultation which for sure gonna make me works like 48hours a day 8 days a week.. I won't be able to get that much money!! Fees gonna be like 4-5k, then trip to KK which already on schedule for sure need at least 2k.. Deposit for my dream erkk.. what should I get first, house or car?? Ihikss.. (no no.. that will only happen in few years time from now.. ne de aku nyak duit camtu.. ingat aku cop duit ke??huhuu)

Sometimes, aku risau gak i wont get cuti for the trip.. Risoo bebenor nih.. This coming january another presentation.. dah lama tak present, I'm a bit uneasy with this presentation (kejadsnya, aku da lama tak study ni.. asik wat lab work je.. huhuu).. to be honest, pala hotak aku skrg ni kosong gamaknya.. lama tak polish.. seyes tak hingat byk benda.. huhuu.. malasnya nk study.. the big malas tu mmg tabiat buruk sungguhla.. huhu.. boleh ke ubah? Dari tahun ke tahun, tu jela resolution aku.. tp sama jek..

Hmm.. kalo rajin t aku update sal some new year thingy.. but for this moment.. thats all..

# My update, Im falling in love with a piano.. so pasni I'm looking for some1 yg bleh men piano well.. huhuu..


Saturday, December 29, 2007

Nilai Kasih Sayang...

Bro. Khairi sent me this article. Biasanya I don't bother to fwd or copypaste fwded email. Sbb I don't hv time la buat benda2 tu sumer.. Orang hantar, I'll read.. if good, I'll keep, otherwise I just delete. But this one really touch my heart.. after all, bila difikirkan semula.. sekarang ppl nilai semua benda with wang ringgit, harta n so on so forth..

Tak semua benda kita boleh dapat dgn wang ringgit, masa, perhatian dan kasih sayang bukan boleh kita dapati dari wang ringgit.. so fikirkanla....

"Kenapa anda mahu jadi doktor?", saya melemparkan soalan ini, selepas mempertontonkan kepada pelajar di IMU tadi video dari koleksi Stephen R. Covey.

Pelajar yang hadir tersenyum-senyum.

"Sebab minat biologi?", saya bertanya.

Ramai yang ketawa. Itu mungkin alasan semasa di Tingkatan 4 dahulu.

"Sebab suka tolong orang?", saya terus bertanya.

Ramai yang mengangguk.

"Well, come on. Ramai yang hantar anak buat perubatan supaya boleh rawat ibu bapa sendiri nanti. Tetapi realitinya, kamu bukan manusia pertama boleh muncul memberikan rawatan jika berlaku apa-apa kepada ibu bapa. Malah ketika di bilik pembedahan dan wad kecemasan, ahli keluarga bukanlah calon terbaik untuk merawat ahli keluarga sendiri. Namanya, profesionalisma", saya menyambung provokasi.

"Kamu nak tolong suami, isteri dan anak-anak? Rasa saya, suami doktor, isteri doktor dan anak-anak doktorlah yang paling banyak kena berdikari", saya terus mencucuk jarum.

"Saya selalu beritahu isteri, bahawa apabila awak berjaya jadi specialist nanti, jangan lupa bahawa orang yang paling banyak berkorban ialah tiga orang ini. Anak-anak kita. Merekalah yang berkorban, melepaskan masa yang sepatutnya kita beri kepada mereka, agar kita berjaya", saya berkongsi cerita.

Saya sengaja mengacah pelajar-pelajar di IMU supaya berfikir bersungguh-sungguh, mengapa mereka memilih bidang perubatan.

Jika anda seorang perempuan yang bakal menjadi doktor, anda perlu tahu bahawa walaupun negara amat terdesak kepada adanya ramai tenaga pakar, anda tidak akan diberikan 'kemudahan' untuk menjadi pakar. Anda tidak ada cuti bersalin, seandainya anda 'termengandung' semasa sedang membuat program pakar. Anda tidak menerima sebarang elaun untuk membeli buku. Semua kena guna duit sendiri. Kursus dan seminar yang anda hadir, anda mesti membayarnya sendiri. Mungkin anda terpaksa menawarkan diri menjadi AJK agar dapat dikecualikan dari yuran, walaupun anda tahu akibat menjadi AJK itu. Semua orang mahu anda bekerja seperti orang lain, ketika anda terdesak menghadapi peperiksaan. Tiada belas, tiada insentif.

Misalnya isteri saya, kerana 2 minggu cuti yang diperuntukkan untuk kecemasan dan lain-lain, sudah pun digunakan bersalin, lupakanlah kenduri kendara di kampung, lupakanlah ibu bapa, 6 bulan tiada cuti.

Bukan calang-calang kerja.

Anda mahu menjadi pelajar perubatan kerana mahu menolong orang? Tolonglah diri sendiri kerana anda yang amat memerlukan pelbagai pertolongan itu nanti.

"Maka, apa tujuan anda mahu menjadi doktor?", soalan yang sama saya ulang sekali lagi.

Pelajar-pelajar itu termenung. Sesi soal jawab tiada soalan, kerana semua soalan adalah untuk ditanya kepada diri sendiri, dan diri sendirilah yang perlu menjawabnya.

PERSOALAN NILAI

Kuliah kali ini adalah tentang nilai. APA NILAI YANG DIBAWA DALAM SEBUAH PEKERJAAN? Dalam sebuah kehidupan.

Jika seorang isteri mengungkit di hadapan suami, bahawa kerja rumahnya, kerjanya 'melayan suami', tidak mungkin mampu dibalas walaupun dengan bayaran RM2000 sebulan, maka nilai apakah yang ada pada dirinya? Saya tidak bermaksud membela lelaki yang tidak tahu menghargai isterinya, tetapi dalam kes ini, si perempuan itu sudah menjatuhkan dirinya. - I strongly agreed with this one..

Hanya 'bibik' sahaja yang buat kerja rumah untuk duit. Maafkan saya, hanya pelacur sahaja yang meletakkan harga pada layanannya terhadap seorang lelaki.

Seorang ibu membuat kerja rumah kerana Nilai Kasih Sayang. Seorang isteri juga melakukan apa yang ia lakukan atas NILAI KASIH SAYANG. Maka tanpa kasih sayang, perkahwinan adalah beban. Malah sumber kebencian.

Menentukan nilai, sebagai pendorong kita melakukan sesuatu adalah sangat penting. Nilai itu akan mencorakkan tingkah laku kita terhadap pekerjaan yang kita lakukan.

NILAI DUIT

Kalau pekerjaan diukur dengan nilai wang, maka kita akan berhadapan dengan banyak masalah, walaupun wang berjaya diperolehi.

Sekarang ni sudah menjadi satu trend kepada dua industri, kalau boleh saya katakan industri. Yang pertamanya adalah industri perubatan, dan yang keduanya, industri berkaitan petroleum. Trend yang saya maksudkan di sini, adalah perpisahan di antara seorang suami atau isteri dengan pasangannya, serta anak-anak, kerana prospek kerjaya dan desakan nilai wang itu tadi.

Sudah menjadi kebiasaan, pasangan yang sudah berumahtangga, berpisah sementara (bukan calang-calang sementara) demi melepaskan isteri yang bekerja sebagai jururawat di luar negara, khususnya di negara Teluk. Begitu juga dengan mereka yang terbabit dengan industri petroleum, bekerja di negara Teluk dan Afrika, menyahut saranan majikan untuk meningkatkan kerjaya dan pendapatan dengan berhijrah ke negara yang menagih kepakaran kita. Ia hebat, menggiurkan... tetapi output daripadanya merunsingkan saya.

Itu, belum lagi dikorek kisah suami di Johor, isteri di Pulau Pinang atau Kuala Lumpur .

Trend ini berlaku dan merebak di dalam masyarakat, dan saya ditakdirkan Allah bertemu dengan outputnya. Saya bertemu dengan anak-anak remaja, yang ayah mereka pulang ke Malaysia 4 kali setahun. Saya bertemu dengan kes, suami main kayu tiga ketika isteri meninggalkannya gersang setahun di tanah air. Saya juga bertemu dengan kes isteri yang mem'poligami' kan suaminya dengan bersuamikan orang lain semasa di perantauan. Dan kes-kes ini membiak dari semasa ke semasa. Tidak pernah menjadi tajuk berita. Nauzubillah

Tentu sahaja, hasil kewangan dari kenaikan pangkat dengan bekerja jauh dari pasangan dan anak-anak, boleh mengubah nasib keluarga. Tetapi perubahan itu apakah ke arah positif atau negatif? Maka yang dikejar dalam sebuah rumah tangga dan perkahwinan, apakah boleh disandarkan pada nilai material?

NILAI - HARGA - KORBAN

Nilai berkadar terus dengan harga. Tinggi nilai, tinggilah harga. Tinggi harga, banyaklah korban dan pengorbanan yang diperlukan bagi mendapatkannya. Untuk bekerja dengan gaji RM10,000 sebulan, apakah harga yang perlu dibayar untuk nilai material RM10K itu? Kehancuran rumah tangga, kepincangan emosi dan identiti anak-anak, dosa... itulah harga yang mungkin perlu dibayar untuk nilai material yang dijadikan asas bekerja.

Anak-anak yang mewah dengan nilai material ini, gersang dan menderita pada nilai kasih sayang dan perhatian ibu bapanya. Sering saya ulang, 'mereka adalah generasi yang kesunyian'.

Jangan terkejut, dengan hanya 3 hari perkenalan, seorang remaja boleh menjadi mangsa lelaki yang berniat jahat. Mengapa begitu mudah? Lelaki itu memberi sesuatu yang tiada diperolehi remaja tersebut di dalam keluarganya iaitu KASIH SAYANG dan PERHATIAN.

Malam ini saya mahu pelajar-pelajar yang hadir ke kuliah ini, melatih diri mereka dengan tabiat "Begin With the End in Mind". Lihatlah apa yang menanti di hujung perjalanan mereka sebagai seorang doktor perubatan, jurutera dsb

TENTUKAN NILAI SEAWAL PERJALANAN

Maka, semenjak mereka di bangku pengajian, soal nilai yang ingin dibawa pada kerjaya di masa hadapan, mesti ditentukan.

Anda boleh mengambil sikap tidak mengendahkan hal ini, bekerjalah selagi mampu, kejarlah habuan material yang dikejar selama ini, tetapi anda perlu meneliti harga yang perlu dibayar. Perhatikan di mana korbannya? Harga dan korban itu mungkin rumah tangga, mungkin pesakit, dan yang paling besar, mungkin sistem itu sendiri.

Hati saya amat terhiris, mendengar kawan-kawan saya dan isteri, mengeluh tentang satu demi satu penceraian yang menimpa pasangan doktor. Sama ada kedua-dua suami dan isteri itu doktor, atau salah seorang daripada mereka.

PROVOKASI DEMI MASA DEPAN

Atas provokasi inilah, saya mengajak sahabat - sahabat, untuk menyemak hubung kait bidang pekerjaan dengan Tujuan Hidup mereka. Kenang kembali siapa mereka di alam ini? Kenal diri, dan kenallah Ilahi.

Kita sebagai hamba Allah, menjaga tali kita dengan Dia yang disembah. Yang diabdikan diri kepada-Nya. Ia hablun minaLlah.

Kita sebagai khalifah, menjaga tali kita dengan manusia ciptaan-Nya, kerana kita ditugaskan menjadi saluran kebaikan-Nya ke alam ini. Ia hablun minannaas.

Buat baik kepada sesama manusia, boleh dengan sedekah, boleh dengan memimpin tangan si buta di pinggir jalan. Namun sedekah hanya sekali sekala, orang buta bukan setiap hari kita jumpa. Jalan kebaikan yang paling utama, adalah pada menjadikan kerja sebagai ibadah. Memberi kebaikan kepada manusia, melalui pekerjaan yang dikurniakan Allah kepada kita.

JIKA KERJA JADI IBADAH

Jika kerja jadi ibadah, Allah adalah 'CEO' kita. The unsung hero beroleh quwwah, untuk terus membuat kebaikan, biar sekecil mana pun di mata insan.

Jika kerja jadi ibadah, ia jalan Taqarrub kepada Allah. Tidak tergamak menghambur dosa, kerja dibuat sebaik yang upaya.

Jika kerja jadi ibadah, biar sempit jalan KEPERLUAN, asalkan luas perjalanan mencapai TUJUAN.

Ubah paradigma, betulkan nilai pada kerja.

Teruskan cita-cita kalian menjalani kerjaya masing-masing. Ia cara terbesar, kamu zahirkan syukur kepada-Nya.

Kita hamba-Nya, kita Khalifah-Nya.


Thursday, December 27, 2007

My Sis

She got her PMR result today... I called her when I had my lunch.. She can't challenge her sister.. afterall, Nurul got 8As last 2 years, but this time Eika got 5As. Well, its ok coz she didn't really serious in study.. Okla.. so she gonna stay at that school as I don't think I'll let her go for Sek. Teknik or anything related..

So, whatever it is.. Congratulation to my sis.. though u can't beat Nurul but still I'm proud of u..(cheh cover ni :p). Pasni, study smart.. N wish u all the best!

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Girls day out...

It's Christmas today but I got nothing from Mr. Santa..huhuuu
Went to visit my bro at Aunty's. Then lepak2 fer a while before decided to hv fun on the Christmas Eve..
At first, planned to go to KLCC since our maid tak pernah g sana lg.. so saja nk bawa dia berjalan sekali. Tp memikirkan betapa ramainya umat manusia kat sana time2 cuti2 ni.. aku ajak dia jalan tgk nite@KL je.. ehhee.. memula bawa dia nek LRT.. then pusing2 nek kete plak..

Didn't plan nk beli paper pun... then g MidValley, The Garden (first time aku g ni.. hehe)..
G Jln Tar plak, looking for organza nye kain.. looking for good nice looking one tuk buat kebaya.. but laterla.. takde mood td..

Punyala plan takmo shopping aper2.. tp g Sogo.. mimpi tinggal mimpi jela takmo shopping.. Huhuuu... sale giler babas k.. so very the rugi one if u don't get those on sale tu.. huhu.. sengkek aku pasni.. gaji ntah bila2 nak masuk ntah,, yg pasti td shopping abis gakla 250 included eika nye skul stuffs..

Dah terbayang kerabakan purse aku.. hujung2 bulan nih.. huhuu...

My new year resolution... to be able to go shopping every weekend.. (hehe.. skrg ni shopping brg2 murah je bleh.. )
to be able buy as much as possible branded n expensive stuffs... (macam shopping kat The Garden yer... very not my level.. 1/3 of the level pun blom tentu lg.. hehe :p)
to hv my own TypeR.. hehe (at least in a dream :D )
Well, those tu sumer the mengarut nyer resolution.. in fact aku takde resolution lg pun for next year.. hehe..

Kla.. too tired.. I wann sleeppppppp

#The beauty is having a beauty sleep..hehehe
Have a nice day everyone!!

Monday, December 24, 2007

Tomorrow is Christmas

Yea rite..
I was working today but its ok.. I've got tons and tons of things to do. In fact today, I only managed to finish 1/10 of my tasks. I forgot to hand over the task to my subordinate & at the end or the day I'm the one who terkontang kanting nk nyiapkannya.. Dah my assistants masing2 took long holiday since b4 Eid Adha lagi. Nevermindla, afterall theyols tu pharmacy studs, pe kelas jd subordinates aku kan.. ihikss.. merasala ada subordinates bakal2 pharmacists..

So since everyone still at their kg, so the campus was like very sunyi sepi one.. Takut gak la at first tp ada nampak student masters Dr Wong, aku layankan naik atas. Bukak pintu lab tu yg ada 2 mangga besar, ngan segala mak nenek kunci da amik masa 5 minit. hehee

Slowly started my job.. as usual I won't be in my office so tak kira camne ppl call, dah sah2la aku tak jawab kan.. so straight call my hp ok (next time.. I'm telling you for next time). I was at Pharmatech the whole day.. sampai sakit pinggang dok kat sana.. huhuu.. pun tak siap2 gak keje aku.. Sibbaik Azizi was around.. without him.. I'm a dead meatla..

Tgh2 aku sibuk td bleh plak timbul tanduk to mendajal orang.. It's not like mendajal la.. but more like testing ppl for fun. hehee... (sorry.. sorry.. sorry.. Sdangkan Nabi pun ampunkan umatnya.. ;) hehee )

Since I sent a friend of mine to KLIA, seems like he never bother to call me.. had a fight n bla bla bla... Hey.. I dun care.. I dun gv a damn care ok!.. (hmm I'm get into my irrational emotional mode again)

I was a bit tense td so saja sms a friend ( my used to be bestfren..ehehe). Ajak him tgk Christmast Deco @MidValley.. Aku tak dan lagi nk curi masa g sana.. I'm a very busy person kan.. hohohooo.. I was joking je pun.. ngan keje melambak camtu bleh lak nk lari g MidValley, that very the crazy idea, out of mind sungguh k. Tp aku pujuk2 gak.. tolak tarik tolak tarik.. strong at both side.. hehe.. punyala pakcik tu takmo kuar bila aku ajak kan.. well understood, well understood.. hehe..

The pakcik asks me to go to fetch him all the way to Melawati from Shah Alam, then go all the way to PJ just bcoz he is such a lazy ass :p. Dia punyalah malasnya nk kuar.. unless sum1 fetch him. Even if I was so free td, idakla aku nk melayan feel dia tuh.. g amik dia.. Sorry ya.. I dun mind kalo he took cab n put the charge on me.. but nk drive all the way g sana.. very the penat one.. plus aku tatau the shortest route to get there..

Lepas calling2 him like being so pathetic, aku duduk depan pc gelak sorang2 cam org giler.. n I even think, I started to be one with all the workload.. huhuu...

How I wish I'll hv time to check out on all the Christmas deco kat mall2.. Esok I've to be at KJ since Jamil is there..So kene la visit the adik bongsu tu. Kat umah ni pun aku tak larat nk jaga.. better ngan my aunty..

Nway, since esok is Christmas.. so I wanna wish all of you all the happiness in this world n Merry Christmas.. Enjoy your holiday.. Safe drive ok.. & last but not least.. Don't drink and drive..

Sunday, December 23, 2007

I really don't understand

Hmm.. how to start?
Aku pun tak paham nk start camne, so bantaila ngan bahasa kelangkelibutku ini kan.. Lama rasanya tak write in broken malay... asik broken omputih je..
Dah 2 hari ni, mlm aku asik terganggu je. Dahla tdo lambat melayan japanese series kat mysoju.. pastu ada lak mamat tak reti bahasa dok sms tgh2 pagi2 buta tu.. orang tak reply pun, tak reti2 orang dah tdo dok hantar sms manjang.. giler agaknya.. huh

This evening the same person sms lg, bgtau dia injuredla aper la.. always like that.. well, being me as a concern friend, aku tanya gakla asal leh injured bagai, takkan nk buat bodoh je kan..
Walah terus jdkan aku tpt dia ngadu kali injuredla, kalo ada masalah keje la.. I'm trapped. Its so annoying. Aku pun pernah minat orang gak.. tapi takdela sampai annoying sangat.. of coursela, kadang2 kita tak sedar yg kita ni annoys ppl tp bleh control kan?

Seriouslyla, behave la.. we r not kids anymore.. dah tua2 bangka da masing2.. toksahla nk buat perangai cam budak2 tu.. malu la. Skrg aku btl2 rasa cam annoyed gilerbabas.. I hate it especially its interrelated with my past..Gosh.. asal complicated sangat.. can u just dissappear from my life..

# Annoyed gilerbabas today..

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Streamyx bengong


Salam Eiduladha everyone...

Actually for the past few days, I cuma update my blog @opis bcoz kat umah can't get thru.. Dah 2x buat report still no feedback. As usualla.. get used to it already.. malas nk kecoh2.. last time I kecoh2, nothing happened pun. So senyap jela.. This evening, suh my sis on n off kan modem.. Sekalinya bleh get thru.. Alhamdulillah..

Rasa mcm tak best plak raya without parents. Mmg tak best pun. Tak rasa cam raya. I cuma masak laksa coz my sis teringin sangat nk makan laksa.. so bantaila masak laksa.. Sedih tak? Raya makan laksa.. huhuuu.. whateverla..
K la.. nk melayan korean series jap..


Salam EidulAdha...

It's my second time celebrate Aidiladha without parents but this time I've all my siblings with me. Last time, just me n my bro. Afterall, I can't promise I can do as Mom usually does during raya but I'll give all out for my siblings. No cooking whatsoever. Tomorrow morning, we'll visit the uncle n then spend the rest of day watching TV. As usual..

Hmm thinking of making cinnamon roll this evening.. AGAINNN???!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Eidul Adha Everyone..
May u hv all the happiness around the world with you..
Take care..

#Trust me, I'm still at the office @this moment.. SInce boss is not around, I'm thinking of lari awal.. :D
Happy Holiday!!

Monday, December 17, 2007

Lenglong...

Yet, I'm still in the 'lenglong' mode. huhuuu..
We just finished 'slaugther' 20 mice to get some of the organs. I tell u.. it's sucks..
Siap muntahbelilah siap..

The best thing is that, we can't let the mice die b4 taking the blood n some organ.. so seeing such pathetic mice struggle.. not give me a good mood. Anyway, this is my first time get directly involve. Usually, I'll excuse myself.. but today we don''t hv enof staff so I need to lend a hand..

I'm not goin to continue my work today.. fening.. fening.. fening..
I need to go shopping soon...
Soon.. very soon..

Many things to do on behalf of Papa. All the bills, car loan, insurans should be done b4 cuti raya.. Hmm.. I'm really not in da mood..

#Shopping.. Shopping.. Shopping.. Bonus bulan ni should be spent wisely.. Yeay!!

* Oh ya, Congratulation to Suariff n the newly wed wife.. Slack arr I miss the performance from TLDM part. But ur frens do look great, just that sume muda2.. ehehe.. otherwise sure I got their no already.. acheche che.. hehe...

Monday blues... Have a nice day everyone...

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Life

How fast time flies. We’ve already been in the 50th week of year 2007 now. Soon, the new year will start and the new chapter of life is about to begin.

Looking back, this year has been such a tough one for me. Each and every day left a different note and color in my life. Some were bright and cheerful, most were dark and gloomy. There were days for laugh, but most of the time were days for tears. Like it or not, I had to brave each and every day on my own. I felt the pain, I tasted the bitterness and yet, I’m still surviving. Alhamdulillah.

Not wanting to place on the floor everything that I went through, but what happened really taught me to be more careful and alert. It taught me not to take certain things too serious as it would not go far in reality. It also taught me not to really trust someone even though he or she is the one you really adore. Words are just the spoken alphabets which have no clear meaning. Promises are mostly made and meant to be broken. When it’s bright and sunny out there, always prepare for the rainy day to come.

Despite the losses and sufferings I had to bear, many lessons gained. But how well I would apply those lessons when the need arises is subject to wait-and-see case. But insya’allah, a good lesson always has a positive impact on us, right?

But again, I do believe there's always the light at the end of the tunnel. And I hope this is what I will find soon in this life.


It's not easy...

It's not easy to be parents..
It's not easy to be guardian..
U need to be prepared..

Today, early in the morning.. I got a call..
Telling me about what she saw..
About my youngest sista...
She's 15... still underage..
I can't accept if she went out with guy..
I may sound conservative but yea.. I'm..
I used to be teenager..
I've gone thru all the shit n farkap life..
I've been there..
I don't want my sis step into such life yet..
She still young, still not able to decide what rite n what is wrong..

I almost had heart attack..
It's my fault to let her stay at my aunt's house..
It's my fault I didn't gv much attention to her..
It's my fault if something happened to her..

Where should I go?
Who should I talk to?
Hell yes.. I've uncles.. I've aunties but do they care?
They don't fucking care..
Since mom n dad away not once they call or ask if we r ok..
I'm not asking much.. I dun gv a damn bout them.. Let them be..
Afterall, not a single day.. I let my siblings hungry.. as I still hv my money.. I'll make sure they get what they want..

I tell you..
I feel burden with such responsibilities.. but I've to..
And it's hard to control a teenager.. especially girl..
Luckily, my bro didn't get his max anger n find the boy..
It was almost up to that point..
I still had my heart ache..
It's not easy to be parents..
Especially when U've grown up children..
ur children will always in ur mind..

Can't concentrate on my job..
Thinking to much bout my sis..
I gotta bring her back home..
She'll be grounded for 2 weeks..
No internet.. no phone.. a big NO NO for every aid of communication..
I wish I'm strong enof to be strict!!

#Sometimes, it is great to hv nobody rather than having somebody who doesn't care.. It's better not to hv relatives rather than having those who'll be by urside when u r some1.. Hell..I hate to hv this feeling.. but I wish they are not my relatives... WTF!!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Happy Birthday Mama

Today is Mom's birthday. Ni kali kedua Mom celebrate her b'day @Mekah. Sekali time buat umrah few years back.

Just now Papa call.. As usual, check up on how the children doing.. Mom wasn't around so tak dapat nk wish B'day kat Mom..

Hope Mom will call later. I've tried call Papa using the number he gave but tak dapat through.. anyone can help me on this? What to do ehh? I've put in the rite code already tp my dad tak dpt.. even sms I sent pun tak sampai.. Telefon settingkah??

Mom, I love u so muchhh.. Happy 46th Birthday.. Semoga dikurniakan haji yg mabrur, disihatkan tubuh badan, diberkati umur yg semakin bertambah n may u live happy life ever.. I love you Mom..

Just now Mom called.. Yeay.. somehow one call bright up my day.. hehee..

#Takziah pada keluarga mangsa kemalangan rombongan UMNO

CRV.. Mati..

Since aku bw blk Jamil ke rumah, he never want to be left at home so bile2 aku g keje.. aku akan hangkut dia sekali. Mulanya nk bawa maid tlg2 jagakan dia time aku keje.. tp since Nurul tak jd keje aku hangkut nurul je. Luckily my cozin bawa anak dia g opis so I left them main2 kat opis while I'm doing my work. Terpaksala pakai PC opis yg lembab nk mam ni.. memandangkan derang nk men game kat lpc. NVM..

In the morning, while on the way to work.. we pass by a blue CRV and then si Jamil bleh lak ingat CRV tu. The conversation sounds like this:

Jamil: Akak, kete yg biru tu mcm kete.. (diam jap) sapa nama kawan akak tu?

Me: Sapa?

Jamil: Ala yg selalu datang rumah kita tu. Dulu kalau raya dia selalu datang rumah kita...

Aku blur.. sapa lak member aku yg pakai CRV biru. Selalu datang rumah.. Adekah kawanku yg selalu dtg umah ngan CRV birunya?? Nehi Nehi rasanya.. Pastu tiba2..

Jamil: Ala kawan kak uci yg dah mati tu.. Sapa nama dia. Amin lupala. Yang dia pernah bawah amin g KLCC kita naik kat jambatan atas tu.

Me: Owh... abang s****l..

Gosh.. he still remember..Aku ingat aku da bitau mamat tu da mati.. he will never ask.. but still anything yg pernah berkaitan ngan mamat tu will remind him of that mamat. Whateverla.. I wonder apsa jamil still bleh ingat the CRV biru. Padahal CRV tu da dijual 2-3 tahun lepas. Just can't believe it.. he still remember while I'm not. huhuu..

The rest of conversation was all about him mati muda.. Dah terlanjur aku menipu maka panjangla cerita penipuan aku nih.. huhuu.. takper one dia bila Jamil da besar, I'll explain.. for time being..till he understand let he believe that guy da mati.. Somehow dia mmg da mati pun for me.. for my family..

Monday, December 10, 2007

Adess...

I read an entry yg memang kelako la.. Aku membaca sambil tersenyum. I like his entries coz selalu buat aku tersenyum. Yg this particular entry ni mengingatkan aku kat orang2 penting yg pernah singgah dalam idup aku. Ihiks..

Tp in that entry rasa cam d guy is so notsoclever la. Biasanya lelaki if they r not sure about something n they know how mengada2 feel d gurl they will make a call tanya what actually the gurl wants. Actually, some ppl find it ermm (what should I put it here??) whateverla, bila aweks minta balaks2 mereka belikan pad. Tp kdg2 its emergency, n nothing u can do. So no choice :D

I remember one incident.. hehe.. its so clear in mind.. it mite bring something for me... at least tonite after reading that entry

Nevermind, its a story for myself.. not to be shared..

Ok guys, hv a nice day..
Esok cuti but I've got a lot of works to do..

Weekend

First weekend without Mom n Dad around was the busiest weekend ever. Not for my own but its for my siblings to be exact for the little boy, Jamil. When we reached KJ, he was so excited to see us. Afterall, we haven't meet for like a week so he must hv been missing us.. hehe..

Since, I was so tired so I took a nap at KJ. When I woke up, Jamil was rite beside me.. sleeping, hungging me. He must misses mom very bad. He started to buat perangai when his sisters were all around.. there came the merajuk2 part, the menangis part.. Aunty said, he nvr cry all these while. Hmm saja nk marajukla tu..

In the evening, bring him to taman. He wanted to swim but I dun feel like swimming. So after dinner, uncle suggested to go hot spring @Selayang. Went there.. the water was so hot.. larat nk rendam2 kaki je.. but the kids did berenang2 there.. Erkk, I dun favor to swim @ a crowded place like that. huhuu..

Today is aunty's b'day so we had makan2. So meriah. Then brought the kids to swim. After swim, we had b'day celebration. We had pizza. Again Jamil buat drama swasta dia. I'm too tired to layan kerenah dia. Dah kul 9pm pun still takmo blk. I'm working esok.. so of coursela nk blk awal.. Duh..

Kul 9.30 baru gerak blk rumah. I tot Jamil will sleep with me but he didnt want to. He's sleeping with Nurul. I'm goin to bring them to work today. Afterall, the maid wasnt around so do nenek. So better bring them to work n ask them to lepak at cafe if they bosan later on.

# I'm sorry, I couldn't make it for this tuesday lunch. I promised my bro to take him for picnic. Another sacrifice :) Thanks for the understanding..

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Invi

Since, so many complaints received about me being sombong, berlagak, tak ingat kawan.. n so n so.. so I decided to stay invi.
Sorry guys, sometimes when Im downloading something, I left my YM on but I wasn't around. I mite can be seen ol all nite long but I've gone into deep sleep. So sorry for the misunderstanding.. So I'd prefer to stay Invi, therefore.. perhaps there will be no more misunderstanding.

I'm going to KJ in short while to visit my youngest bro. Thinking of going to somewhere but I've to forget it. Nway priority is for family.

I'm sorry. I couldn't make it..

Friday, December 07, 2007

UPLC

What the ***** is the UPLC kan?
Nway, it's another version.. ermm.. better version of the HPLC. - Amer, I'm one of the UPLC otai dah ni.. hahahaa... Seems like, I'm gonna crack my brain up to really understand this thingy but heyy.. I'm enjoying it. (Sorta phrase to conforting myself.. Fighting!)

Well, the whole thing arrived last week n they already show a little thing yesterday. Today we had a whole day training n the best thing, its more like personal training. N me, being the 'brightest', the 'smartest', the 'quickest' learner ended up having problem understanding what the heck is actually I've been learning the whole day. - Serius, aku semakin lembab. Darnn!!

Well, it should be a very simple things la.. (bolehla) compared to HPLC. But, still my mind still floating around.. Hv no idea about it yet. See next week, if I manage to recollect everything I've wasted today. Duhh..

Ohya.. what the heck is this UPLC kan?? It is Ultra Performance Liquid Chromatography. Nak tau detail please ask Mr Google k.

I've been busy lately with so many projects to handle n family to look after. After all, I'm the leader of the family, the accountant, the father n mother of my siblings, the trustee n holding so much responsibilities toward family. My brother, the other hand, only concern about business. Even the money flow, I got to do it myself. It's tiring to handle everything but there's nothing I can complaint about. Afterall, I'm the eldest so I hv to shoulder the responsibilities.

It has been 4 days my parent fly off to Mekah but seems like almost a month already. I miss them. huhuuu.. My youngest bro still at Aunty's house. It's better for him to be there rather than being left alone at home when I gotta go to work.This weekend, I'll bring the rest to visit him. He mite want to get some KFC or McD.

So many things to do. My bro went for camping so everything will be in my charge. Shopping for school's items. Bajunye, kasutnya, seluarnya, stokinnyer, bukunya.. I still hv some more energy left. No more weekend resting day for me for the next 6 weeks. So many promises to be fulfilled. I gotta be strong again as I'm no longer a child. Fighting.

N for YOU...
Thanks for being there for me at this very moment. I truely appreciate it. I hope we'll remain as we are coz at the moment, I feel, though I don't have any1 to talk to.. You always there for me, no matter what. I'm sorry that I don't love You enough but I'll try my best into it.
Thanks so much.. for the strength given to endure such hard times I got to go thru all these while..

# I miss my mom's cooks.. Lapar..
* Pehal ngan gambar tu kan.. Way to go... :)

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

News from Saudi

Dad called twice today. First, time baru landed @Jeddah. They had flight delayed for about 2 hours.. so kul 5am td baru fly off. Reached Jeddah @2pm (malaysia time). Then, naik bas to Mekah. Reached mekah @6.30pm.

Since Jamil is with my aunty, Dad called the bongsu boy.. He missed him very much. Lama gile talk to Jamil. Let Jamil stay with aunty coz kalo kat rumah, I won't be around n so do my bro n other sis. So takut dia lonely.. no friends. At aunty's at least ada cozin yg sebaya ngan dia. Later in the weekend I'll pick him up.

Mom & Dad sihat je. Alhamdulillah..

Miss them.. :(

Bon Voyage

Mom n Dad dah fly to Mekah last nite around 2.30am. Ktorg sent g Kompleks Tabung Haji KJ dlm kul 9, then they check in dlm kul 10.30pm.They haven't call yet.. so still dunno they dah sampai ke blom..should be da sampai kot eh??

Ramai yg hantar last nite, Thanks to those yg hantar.. Really appreciate it.. though da tau mesti sesak giler still sanggup mengharung jammed n rushing dari tempat keje to send my parents for their Hajj.. Thank you so much. Hanya Allah yg balas jasa baik korang sumer.. :)

Semoga my parents dikurniakan haji yg mabrur n dipermudahkan dalam segala urusan, sihat tubuh badan n selamat kembali ke tanah air..

I miss them already.. :(

Sunday, December 02, 2007

Wedding A'an N Fiza

Melaram with the present.. hehe


The classmates

Nothing much to tell.. just that aku sesat on the way to Taman Maluri. Luckily Hatta called me n gv me the rite direction. Tensi giler bila lost dlm keadaan heavy traffic ni.. huhuu.tersiksa jiwa n raga gw.
Aper pun, its a nice thing that I met most of my classmates. Till me meet again at another wedding friends of us..



Friday, November 30, 2007

Countdown..

Tomorrow I've to attend A'an's wedding at Taman Maluri. Since, for sure I'll be going alone.. I need somebody to accompany me all the way.. Maybe my sis nurul or eika will come along. Just now, went out with mom n sis to buy presents for the 3 weddings I'll be attending next month.. huhuu..
SInce Mom is very good in bargaining so I get 3 nice n good stuffs for 100 bucks. Fuh..

Smjk aku start thinking of taking scuba license @KK n getting myself a new camera with underwater casing... aku mmg menjadi seorang yg sgt kedekut.. huhuu.. Yela.. I need to control my spending nway.. tp this one is a must la kan.. no choice.. :D

The day after lak, some1 ajak g 'The Busines of Batik' event @ KLCC. Terlanjur agreed. Skrg ni dah wondering what should I wear, what m i gonna do overthere.. huhuu.. tensi sungguh ngan orang2 business ni.. really not suit me.. :p (camne aku nk jd businesswomen ni??)

So... till then.. tgkla how things esok2.. skrg ni I can't think of anything yet.. huhuu

# Serabut palaku.. huhuu

Thursday, November 29, 2007

Alhamdulillah...

Today is not so good day fer me..
No.. No.. No..

Boss wasn't around so I went out for work a bit late.. my habit kan??
Then, sampai2 my assistant, da start doing their tasks yg aku brief semalam. Thank God, both of my asst. bijak so aku takyah ulang2 byk kali explain to them. Then, aku menyibukkan diri with report (again) I dun like jd leader.. I hate preparing report.. I would prefer do all the jobs.. coz though its tiring tp kepala hotak tak penat.. Dang!!

Yesterday, I've prepared one part yg da dipersetujui bersama.. but again, the previous research done by my x-colleague was all no longer compatible with mine.. so I need to redo n it was like a half year work. What the hell...

Today, we were like having a nice day la.. coz spent more time on 'gossiping' as one of my asst said, tambah dosa kering.. hehe.. and also lepak at cafe for breakfast n lunch lelama.. Biasanya we don't go 4 breakfast, lunch pun just for 30 mins je.. Giler xpress kan.. ahakss :p

Ok, thats d story but its not end yet.. the main thing comes later :D
Td on the way back home.. hujan lebat giler tak hengat la..
Then, when I was about to make a U-turn near the Jusco Bukit Raja, there was a wira yg jalan melintang, across the 3 lanes right in front of my car.. so aku pun slow down a bit n then there was another wira, punyalah laju nak mampos (mmg nk mampos gamaknya, bawa kete lelaju time hujan lebat..bodoh!!) on the right lane ( I was in the middle lane, and kat situ ada 4 lanes all together.. kete wira yg first tu from 4th lane, cross to the 1st lane..). Bila the 2nd wira was right on my side (dlm keadaan yg sgt laju) dia langgar lopak air all the way n covered my sight so sibbaik aku tekan break emergency coz aku da dpt agak mesti accident nyer.. Time tu my heartbeat was so rapid..

Elok je aku da leh tgk blk...aku jalan slow2 but the 2nd wira tu da langgar divider while trying to avoid hitting the 1st wira. Tp da jalan licin.. collide la.. right in front of me.. sibbaik aku break n kat blkg there's no car yg rapat.. so I didn't hit that stupid wira. I regret I didn't gv a long honk. Budushhh sungguh.. Alhamdulillah, nyawa masih panjang.. masih selamat.. N the thing is.. I hate the fact that both Wira were driven by lady..2nd Darnn!!

Reached home by 7.40pm. So tired, ingat nk tdo.. but my aunty was around coz nk hantar si Adib. Sembang2 dah kul 12... huhuuu.. I wanna sleep..

So later k..
Wish me all the best for tomorrow presentation.. I'm gonna kick him for real if this time still not satisfied..(Buatla sendri.. hampehss)

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Ngantuksss

Its been a while I didn't attend any party.. hehe..

So yesterday, when my aunty called me up n ask me to bring my sis to Adib's birthday party, I simply say ok. Not realizing, its working nite n the party mite end after midnite. Dang!!

Reached home around 7pm yesterday.. get ready n went to Sg Long after magrib. N I hate the fact that I gotta face heavy traffic along the way. Got there around 9pm. Since they had the BBQ so eat is the main agenda.. huhuuu.. all kind of fish..jenahak, terubuk, keli, etc etc.. ayam of course but no lamb..:D but me still likey all the fish combination.. they also hd the kerang bakar.. yummy (but I'm allergic to it.. so I just gv a glance when ppl eat it.. hehe)

Adib's frens were like so many of them.. take turns to help on the BBQ, while me not really enjoying the pary (coz I'm so tiredddd) just sit in the house watching horror chinese movie.. ahaks.. Then around 11 they started the karaoke session.. Adib turned 17 yesterday.. so its kinda funny when the parents held party for the boy..ahakss..

Get back at 2.30am n reached home @3.30am. Drove like pelesit coz can't wait to rest my head on the pillow... huhuuu..

This morning, I missed my Subuh n woke up at 9am. Ihikss.. Im gonna get my warning letter soon... Luckily the boss is not around.. he's attending conference so I'm lucky.. yeayyy..

#Still dizzy n not in d mood of doing anything.. Me ngantukss!!!

Nway.. wanna wish a very Happy Birthday to Liza.. Happy Birthday dear.. She's turning 25 today n she already hv a year old baby boy.. huhuu..

Saturday, November 24, 2007

COngrats

A BIG CONGRATULATION to my dear friend, Ridzhan and the wife for their officially bcoming husband n wife just after the Isya' prayer. Well, he did invited me to attend the nikah ceremony but since my parents kinda hv ermm sort of gathering so I gotta b their driver. Lets they b the Dato' n Datin fer a while.. hehee..

After all, life wasn't good as expected but I Thank God for all the mercy HE had on me.. Alhamdulillah, having Mom to share all this complicated heart thingy makes me feel less burden. At least Mom would understand y do I hv to take such drastic action. Lets just Tawakal.. I told Mom that. Mom insists that I've to work for it.. not just tawakal.. tawakal should come last.

How m I going to work for it when nothing left.. I dun hv the feel n I'm too old for that kot..
When I'm getting bored or tired with somethig, I just lurveee to take drastic action. but I really hope that this one is really worth it.

It hurts to realize that I hurt ppl..
Terlalu banyak yg terluka..
N aku adalah pendosa..
I'm sorry n I'm truely sorry..
Adakalanya hati adalah sesuatu perkara yg sukar di jangka

# Cinta tak harus memiliki...

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Its hurt..

Its hurt..
Its so hurt..
I can't bear it anymore...
I have no tears left..
I had enough of everything..

I wanna live in peace...
Leave me alone!! u bitch..

So many things in one day..
I'm really losing my mind at the moment..
I wish I can just fly away..
Run away n fly freely..

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Losing another kg..

Tgk jerawat aku besar gedabak tuh?? Kuar plak time nk kenduri hari tu.. Potong stim tul

I should be happy when losing so much weight at a very short time. Within 2 months, I've lost almost 10 kg. N within a week I lost another kg. My eating habit, as bad as usual. I take 3 course meals everyday. I eat at nite n go to sleep afterwards.

I went to c Dr but he said, nothing wrong about it. Hopefully its normal.Its nice to slim down a bit coz I can wear all the kebaya I couldn't wear b4 due to mu plumpy bodysize.. :p
But I wonder what makes me hd this drastically weight lost. I'm not dieting.. During ramadhan, perhaps I can loose few kg but I don't think it will be this much. Usually, I'll gain weight afta raya. But this year, it keeps dropping.

Talk to my fren, they said.. maybe due to work stress or personal matters. Well, work stress? It has been that way since I was with U*A. Now moving to U**M doesn't bring so much changes.. the stress is always there.. Just here in new working environment, I'm always so damn busy. But the thing is, I've 2 male assistants.. so y do I've to be stress out??

Personal matter may be the cause. Too much thinking use too much energy (perhaps) hehe..
SO do I hv to keep it up this way? or find solution? Having a long distance r'ship is not as easy as I had b4. If b4 I think. the long distance r'ship is the best r'ship I ever had... turn out for this time being I'm totally wrong. Deciding to hv such r'ship was the worst mistake ever made. I'm not young.. I'm old enof.. I'm old enof to be serious with life.. Even my bestfriend had her 3rd child already while me... still hang on this stupid r'ship.

Whatever it takes, I would prefer not to be skinny. At my ideal weight at the moment should be ok kot. Tp losing weight drastically should be something I should scared of.. huhuu

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Lawak dari ganu..

Satu keluarga yang berasal dari Terengganu nak balik beraya di kampung, tapi cuma ada sebuah Kancil je untuk tujuh orang ahli keluarga tersebut. Maka si ibu kepada keluaga tersebut pun berkata,

Ibu: Guane nih..penuh kete. Dok muak ayoh mu wey!

Ayah: Betul jugok. Guane nok buak nih? Lamo dok sapa kampong.

Ibu: Tujuh oghang dokleh sumbak masuk kete kancil nih. kecik do'oh.

Mereka pun memerah otak memikirkan macam mana nak menyelesaikan masalah tersebut. Ruang terlalu sempit untuk tujuh orang, tiba-tiba anak mereka yang paling kecil berkata...

Anak: Abah, umi... Awang tau doh guane nok buak. Kite skarang ade tujuh oghang. Tamboh la soghang lagi. baru jadik 'LAPANG'...!!!

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I love you Ma..

Mama pengsan lagi this evening. I didn't go to work as aku not feeling well. Pewot still buat hal lg. Maybe bcoz eat too much.

Since, I'm off from working today so I spent time for rest as I've been so busy n tired for the fast few days. While Mom, not having enof rest bcoz of the kenduri thingy fainted again in the afternoon and evening. She's too weak. I kinda worried. Dad sent her to clinic, got her medicine n all the supplements.Tp still Mom tak larat nk bangun from bed. N me need to be by her side... urut2 her hand b4 they bcome cramp. It's always like that, if Mom pengsan or not very well or get shocked with notsogood news, nanti kejang belilang satu badan. At that moment, all of us will burst into tears. So usually, bila jd camni.. each one of us will amik sblh tangan or kaki n urut2 to make sure tak kejang. Otherwise, it will takes hours b4 Mom gain her conscious.

Me pun not feeling very good today so once Mom getting better as her body response well bla dipanggil n she started to open her eyes.. Dad take over the taking care thingy. N me get my rest n tdo. I'm really tired ok. Dad woke me up afta Asar n ask me to make some porridge for mom as she keeps vomiting. Whatever she ate, will be out after a while. She's too weak. N I'm so fucking worry. Plus, my bro didn't call or answer call. She must be worried bout that. My bro went to get his motorcycle from police station sbb my cozin nye case arituh. Mom taknak makan bubur, she teringin nk mkn yong taufu. N where on earth aku nk cari benda tuh.. Today no night market around.. so after calling2 few friends (thanks guys... really appreciate it) yg aku baru kenal2 ol nih.. ada yg offer to get it for me. So aku p amik kat Meru. Sometimes, orang yg kita tak kenal pun can be so good.. Especially, bila aku da takde phone ni.. so net frens jela yg bleh nk harap pun.

Lepas Mom makan (sgt sikit ye), we all ajak lepak baring kat living hall n sumer start urut2 tangan n kaki. Bila time2 camni, I can't tell how I feel. I'm so scared.. I'm afraid of losing her. It's hurt.. I can't stop the flow of my tears. She's my mom.. My only mom. I love her so much.. Try to call the bro again.. tp still tak dapat. Mom getting worry.. hard to breath..we hv to keep her awake.. otherwise she'll pengsan n kejang2 lagi. Then, dad call n pretend as my bro answer the call. Kalau tak something bad mite happen to MOm. N where on earth tah budak bertuah tu g. Hantu sungguh!!

After magrib td, Kak Ida (our helper) ajak bw g urut.. perhaps lepas urut bleh longgar whatever urat2 ke aper ke.. So Dad sent MOm n Kak Ida kat umah sorang makcik tu. Mom da bleh jalan on her own.. Alhamdulillah..

Plz pray for my Mom's wellness.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Bad Day

I didn't realize I left my phone somewhere. Arghhh..
Tense hit me all nite long..
Apsal la bleh very the clumsy aku ni.. I must be out of my mind already. Demmmm!!!

So frens (for those yg ada no aku la kan..) I'm officially announcing to u guys I lost my phone n I'm not going to use the digi number anymore. I'm currently using my dad's second number. Mail or YM me ur number please.. thankss

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Adib called mama this evening. He said he don't wanna stay with his parents. Wanna stay with us. Having him here with us can be fun but can be tiring. Nak jaga dia all the time. Its not that dia handicap or what just dia remaja yg perlukan perhatian.. We need to check on him everytime. Having a very busy family make him to be 'anak kurang kasih sayang' who always seeking an attention from his parents. mmgla he got all the money but parents tak pernah nk amik peduli his life. While the father busy with his affair.. the mother plak busy with hers. So left the son alone with lotz of money n spoiled frens.. so anak pun spoiled sekali.

Thank God, wlaupun my parents are busy couple but still they always hv time for the children.At least, still hv time to check homework n etc.

Bengangnyeeeee!!!

Tp aku bengang sebab no yg penting2 dlm hp tu sumer da hilang... damn!!!

Pesanan penaja: To all frens plz drop ur phone number thru email or YM ok.. plz plz plz..

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Not a good start..

Mama pengsan early this morning due to not so good news from a police officer. I was afraid the kenduri kesyukuran will turn out to be kenduri arwah. Thank God, tak sampai tahap tu lagi... Tapi mama da ta larat nk buat apa2.. When she got the call... n the caller tu tell her, he's police officer.. mama tak dgr apa dah.. yg mama dgr, my cozin da jd arwah n at the hospital. Everyone was shocked when mama suddenly collapse.. Its early in the morning.. baru 7am.. n ppl are busy with the cooking for kenduri n all...

My cozin 17yrs old boy who is goin to sit for his SPM tomorrow went out at 1am with my bro. Then blk at around 3am.. my bro temankan dad to pasar borong beli barang tuk masak2.. while that boy went out to KL using my bro's motorcycle. Sekalinya kene roadblock or watsoever...then kene tahan police.. tak pasal2 lak this day semua org not in d good mood. So the mood today is not very ceria one...

I wasn't expected any fren to come xcept uitm staff yg keje with me.. apart than that.. as the invitation has been sent.. nk dtg ke tak.. its all up to them.. Till tonite.. until aku hapdet lg..

Friday, November 09, 2007

Saya merajuk...

I was very busy today.. well as usual but today its like double busy. With all the Hong Kong preparation n all the reports. So I barely hv time for myself xcept for nice lunch at mamak stall @Sect. 3. When I was about to start the car's engine, then I heard n incoming sms. Kinda shocked to see 17 missed calls n 7 sms. Nice combination of 7. ehehee.. I didn't check my phone since morning.. sorry ya..

A missed call from hiM. So just sms n he called me back. He can't make it. Dah agak da.. Suddenly, he got to fly to Aussy.. meeting or mating.. or whatsoever.. pergila.. Somehow, it just a kenduri je pun. Lgpun, its my parents.. got nothing to do with hiM. He just a stranger. My parents won't bother if he's not around.. Bukan majlis tak blh berjalan without hiM.

But the truth is.. me.. I do bother..
I've been waiting for so long.. well, yea its supposed my turn to go there but how on earth I nk pergi when i was so sakit n then.. we're having kenduri.. takkan just leave it n go berfoya2 ?
Biarla, but I'm sulking.. im not talking to hiM. Who else my parents will expecting to come?? He's not coming anyway.. He'll be going tomorrow kot.. So, my pray that u'll hv safe n nice journey.. but still I'm mad at u..

#Td buat cinnamon roll tu lagi.. rasa cam best plak the bread. me likey!!!

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Dia dah mati..

I was busy preparing my report when suddenly my bro wanted to see picture of my cozin. Being a very good sista.. I let him use my lpc for a while. After browsing some pic, then he asked me..
"Gambar abang syaril takde ke?"
"No. Dah takde."
"Kenapa takde?"
"Sebab dia da mati da..". My bro was kinda terkejutla..
"Betul ke dia dah mati? Dia mati kenapa?"
"La, amin tk tau ke? Dia mati accident."
"Accident aper? Accident motor ke kereta? Kak uci pergi kubur dia? kak uci tak sedih ke? kak uci bla bla bla bla......" n the questions keep go on..
"Amin, tak baik ckp pasal org yg da mati k. Sedekah je Fatihah kat dia.."
Pastu, aku takleh nk sambung keje blk.. Damn!! Talking about the dumberer membantotkan mood aku.. hampless


Wednesday, November 07, 2007

My Marrying Age...

TAKE THIS QUIZ TO FIND OUT WHATS YOUR MARRYING AGE IS:

[/] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[/] I keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] I own more than one credit card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in my dads car.
[/] I do my own laundry.
[ ] I vote every election.
[/] I can cook for myself.
[ ] I think politics are irritating.
[/] I balance my checkbook.
[/] My parents have better things to say than my friends.


Tota l: 6


[ ] I show up for school/college/work very early everyday
[/] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[ ] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[ ] i have never gotten completely trashed.
[ ] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[ ] I like to take walks by myself.
[/] I've watched talk shows.
[/] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a week.


Total: 3


[/] I know how to do the dishes
[ ] I can count 1 to 10 in another language.
[/] When I say I'm going to do something I do it
[/] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[ ] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[/] I study when I have to.
[/] I pay attention at school/college.
[/] I remember to feed my pets.


Total: 6


[/] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[/] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at coffee cafe's know me by name.
[/] my favorite kind of food is take out.
[/] I have gained weight after middle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[/] I cant go out of the store without getting something I don't need.
[ ] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[/] I can type quickly.


Tota l: 6


[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[/] I have been to a tupperware party
[/] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[/] I have more bills that I can pay.
[/] Most of my friends are older than I am.
[/] I can say no to staying out all night.
[/] I use the internet every day.
[ ] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[/] I can read a book and actually finish it.

Total: 7

Add up all the number and..MY MARRYING AGE IS.. 6+3+6+6+7 = 28 years old.

I got another 2years what.. lek arr.. :p

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

TEST!

Your Score: Joe Normal

43 % Nerd, 34% Geek, 26% Dork

For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored less than half in all three, earning you the title of: Joe Normal.

This is not to say that you don't have some Nerd, Geek or Dork inside of you--we all do, and you can see the percentages you have right above. This is just to say that none of those qualities stand out so much as to define you. Sure, you enjoy an episode of Star Trek now and again, and yeah, you kinda enjoyed a few classes back in the day. And, once in a while, you stumble while walking down the street even though there was nothing there to cause you to trip. But, for the most part, you look and act fairly typically, and aren't much of an outcast.

I'd say there's a fair chance someone asked you to take this test. In any event, fairly normal.

Congratulations!

If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback!

Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST



Monday, November 05, 2007

Sick Part II

My proposal - DONE
Report - Almost DONE

So, I wanna stop writing the report. Tired da.
Td, mom ask me if I wanna eat anything coz I can barely eat. I'll vomit what I ate. So, drpd I hurt my tekak so better off aku pose n drink lotz of water. Time tu, takde mende pun yg aku teringin nk makan. Sume was like takkan lalu ditekakku ini. Then, while smyg magrib, aku teringin nk mkn mashed potatoes CHILLI'S. huhuu.. I'll make sure to hv it by this weak.. hopefully.. (menunjukkan aku tak khusyu' semayang ehh?? plus.. setan mmg tak hbs2 ganggu aku.. dahla saket nih )

Td time tgh baring2 depan TV sambil ngadap LPC untuk siapkan report ke 4 (note that aku kene siapkan 10 reports.. hehe), tetiba rasa cam dejavu. Seems like I've experienced the sickness before, lepak depan TV while playing around with the LPC. But I can't remember where.. Kuantan kah, Rumah kah or dimanakah..

Time tgh mem'bongkar' then, aku teringat.. yea aku pernah sakit teruk camni gak time kat DJC. Time tu, it was like 5 days kot. N I blamed the water for the sickness.. now.. aku nk blame aper lak..ahaks.. Sampaikan, tuan rumah beli mineral water tuk minum n activity masak2 yg lain.. hehe.. Well, the same pain, the same condition, different situation.

Lgpun yg tau about this since friday nite cuma HIM, my family n hiM. Pastu on Sat, Irwan ajak g open hse so gotta tell him that I'm not well. Td Wan, kawan sekampung yaab call. then he knows.. huhuu.. esok plak nk ponteng keje lagi kah?? :D

Oh ya, talking about Wan, yg I'm not very sure his name. He got married this year.. erm on Jun or July if I'm not mistaken. First met him during futsal match btw Kuantan n Gombak team. Time to time, he keeps calling me at midnite. After got married, he stopped... fer a while.. hehe.. then he starts again.. such a good fren (guess so). I wonder what his dream last nite, that make he called me.hehee.. I should say.. orang pantai timur.. mmg mulut masing2 manis.. luckily I've tied my heart. Otherwise, mesti cair gak.. huhuu..


Sick

Arini sy MC. Tak larat nk g keje dlam keadaan sekarang ni. In fact Mom pun tak bg drive. So Mom call the boss n boss kata.. hv a rest.. hehee.. tp rest kebendanya byk keje nk disiapkan..plus pembetulan proposal bertuah tu aku tak taip satu benda lg pun. Memandangkan malas nk taip.. so aku just tulis kat kertas n suh ika taipkan. So da siap.. yeay!!

Pasni nk siapkan report plak.. adala dlm 10 report nk kene siapkan untuk di filing. Aihh.. dahla sakit, MC bukan tuk berehat tp bykla keje kene buat.. huhuu..
dapat plak dlm keadaan sakit cam skrg ni.. arkhhh.. rasa cam nk terkeluar isi perut dibuatnya..
Ptg ni wajib g klinik lg.. tak larat sakit cam ni dah..

Erkk.. sakit pewot blk.. nk tdo.. sambung later...

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Minangese

I plan to qada' my sleeps after only 6 hrs sleep in 48 hours. But then, afta subuh.. can only add another 3 hrs sleeping. huhuu.. pastu pala pusing deh..

My aunty was here last nite. I tot she will sleep with me.. tp idaknya.. nya tdo ngan anak bongsu dia. So okla.. b4 tdo tu, she ask me on how to find some minang's video clip. So aku kenalkan dia ngan You Tube.. hehe.. so malam td.. b4 tdo we layan some of minang's nye song. Tdo da almost kol 3.30 pg td. Haiyyoo...

Since I'm in d minang mood at the moment.. ermm dunno what to do pun.. but tho I'm minangese, I can't speak minang, awkward n its sound terrible as what my relatives used to say la.. so I prefer gunakan bahasa indonesia when talking with them. It's easy n understoodable. Bahasa minang, I do understand but I don't know how to speak out loud. Loser giler.. another minangese yg murtad. hhuuhuu..

Well, here a lyric of my aunt's fav song.. Indak den mangarati.. huhuu

Biduak ketek dilamun ombak
nana nayuiknyo ka hulu hulu
dek ibo angin mangko ka tapi
kasudahannyo sampai juo

pandai bana uda manembak
manembak indak jo piluru
kanai sabalah jantuang hati
iman didado diguncangnyo

Bia kareh badai manimpo
Niaik hati sampai ka tapi
Dek takuik den pandayung lapeh
Dek ulak riak jo galombang


Pandangan mato samulonyo
Kini jatuih ka dalam hati
Tapuak kok indak uda baleh
Alamaik den rindu surang

Sadang di tangah biduak tirih
Mungkin ndak sampai ka subarang
Jo apo denai sonsong riak
baanyo biduak nan ka lalu

Dalam galak taserak tangih
nan lah acok bamanuang surang
Takana buhua lah taurak
Musim pabilo ka batamu



Friday, November 02, 2007

I miss him..

Hari ni I used my whole energy for work. Aku buat 4 keje at one time. 4 ppl nye keje aku siapkan sorang2. Patutnya bleh siap on time. But since, the MASTERSIZER tu ada the specialist dok perbetulkan, so he took almost 2 hours of my precious time n that cost me 2 stay back to finish every work b4 balik.

I was so tired, exhausted and yg berkaitan dgnnya. Too tired up to the point that I halucinated. My brain was drained out completely which makes me think of nothing but something that I would nvr think of in my sane condition. huhu..

It was last year, the time when I was doing my part time @ UiTM. The time when I started to be close to Arwah. That's the best time ever during last year. Especially after heart tormented by so many sudden situation.

When I was in my car this evening, on my way back home... felt like Arwah was with me. I was chattting with him all the way. Listening to Hitz.fm. Talking nonsense. I punch out from office around 7. So its magrib already. So that maybe a reason I halucinated. OK get back to Arwah thingy, I feel him with me for real. We even talk about raya.. Oh gosh.. its just get worst..

This coming february, it will b a year he left us forever.. but he always in my heart.. as I always love him..

Dude, I miss you.
-Al-Fatihah-

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Guy.. a gay..

Its 3.48am, n m still typing.. reading.. to complete the last touch for this proposal. Im getting sick of it.. Looking at it some more will lead to vomit. I need a break..

Sometimes, life just isn't flow the way we wanted it to be. We mite expected one way but it happened the other way around. Some mite dying to get the chance but some got it easily n not serious about it. I mean it.. I mean everyword of it. It even happened to me.. So I know how it feels.. hehee

OK, back to the topic. As in previous entry I did mention about gay fren (a lil bit I guess). He such a great fren. A neat freak in fact.. well luckily he never jump into my car otherwise, it will take him a week to clean it up.. hehe.. Get to know this person when I started my study in UiTM. No, he's not student or lecturer. He's one of my cozin fren who actually doing some marketing strategy or something. Since we are in our way to learn about business, I need to meet some bunch of people, get the idea, learn the strategy n bla bla bla coz my cozin don't hv time for it. So I gotta do it (mcmla aku ni byk masa sangat kan..)

So thats the reason I met some of these ppl.. Knowing one will lead to many.. so thats what happenla kan.. First I get to know Miss Rina.. She's 40++ (not so sure the exact age), but a pround single lady. Nvr bother about not getting married (likewise.. huhu). According to her, life is for us to enjoy.. If it was fate that she'll live her life alone.. than she got to be happy with it. Owh.. I wish I would hv such strength to do so.. ;)

From her, I get to know one S'wakian guy. A nice one, nice looks n nice body too.. He had sixpack ok.. Not that I saw him naked, just that there was a time I met him at the gym n he was only in his shorts.. so sexy maa.. whatever compliments about nice guy will go to him. I would say, he's almost perfect. Maybe bcoz he looks at me as his friend's sista so I got kinda a very gentle treats.. hehe.. whateverla.. kan..but the important point here is, he's gay. When I first get to know about it, I was shock n I dun wanna see him for quite sometimes.. yela mau tak terkejut.. gilakk arrhh.. kalo bi kira bleh diterima lg la.. (lol) tp ni .. OMG

After few days, I think I've been overreacted about it.. lgpun I'm not a child.. nowadays benda tu sume normal. So I'm okay about it n he's like a brother to me. Getting close again means I'll get to know more of his gay friends which then make me realize...there are lotz of them.. Gosh..

I would say.. dahla lelaki dlm dunia ni da kurang.. ramai da kawen, yg bujang ramai kat pusat serenti, yg kat luar tu ramai yg da berpunya.. yg single plak gay..then what left?? What a life kan??

All kawan2 the abang, hensem2 belaka.. keje elok2 belaka.. but sayangnya..
Im a bit dissappointed la.. mak tak suker....

Apapun they treated me like a lil sista.. me likey.. so aku da kenal mcm2 jenis org.. mcm2.. so its like part of my life lessons..

Till then.. Have a nice day..
4.11am roger n out.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Malas da...

Guys.. Im not into this blogger anymore.. malas da nk update.. hehe..
So no need to drop by da.. ahakss..

Saturday, October 20, 2007

An update

Salam Aidilfitri..

My brother.. Tgk.. betapa keciknya aku.. huhu..

See again, Im the shortest among my sisters..

Too many stories, too little time, too much to tell, to lazy to type.. and the moral of the story.. write when u feel free to.. hehe..

Raya was really tiring for me n I can't imagine how the open house will be plus the open house will be gather with kenduri for mom n dad's kenduri kesyukuran. The date hasn't been chosen yet but for sure not next week.. The parents will be attending Kursus Haji Perdana for the last time before they fly to Mecca.

No more cerita pasal raya. Just too many things n everything tangled in my mind.. susah nk huraikan satu2 (in fact I'm really malas... :p)

Had a girl day out with Yazi yesterday. It's been a while tak pernah hv leasure time for myself.. so smlm kinda having a good time la.. Spending all money left for me to survive (huhuu) but its worth it.. Me just likey.. (plus, I got my 500 bonus including half month gaji already..) so mak da kaya blk.. haha. :p

OK.. done with the GREAT part..

The notsogreat part plak..

Well, when 2 girls meet.. the story must be about guys.. hohohooo..
I wish I will nvr ever talk about that particular person with anyone.. not even say his name.. I was hurt.. I dunno what I've done wrong to be treated this way.. If I ever done him bad.. shouldn't appropriate that I be informed?? but nay.. nya treated me very bad, but still I wish he has all the possible reliable reasons for it.

Zi,
Sorry.. each time we were talking about them .. its hurt me.. sorta a knife stab my heart over n over.. I feel pain even till now.. They don't deserve the respect.. Let them be what they want.. I was being real about karma thingy.. but I do wish they hv a good life.. after all they really enjoying their life..

I was being honest.. to think some1 who hurts my feeling deserve respect n can be treated as fren was the biggest mistake ever. But it doesn't matter coz I know one fine day, I'll take all this as a great experience in my life journey.

To start a new relationship with some1 who reflects the ex, is very wrong. I did it once n thats it.. If I ever wanna start a new r/ship, it just bcoz i like that person as he is not bcos he remind me of sum1.

N for a fren who used to be my bestfren which then just tossed me aside when he got a new gf, I'm sorry that we can't be like we used to be coz i know who I'am to u now.. I'm just a goodfren when u r in interval period.. when u dun hv gf, when u just broke up with ur gf.. that was when I'm needed as ur fren.. It's just over.. I'm just ur fren.. :) just a fren who no longer can discuss her problem with u.. a fren who u needs to hang out with or hv fun wth.. I'm just get enof of all this..

Enough said.. I wish I don't hv to know anything about any of them... They can just get the hell out of my life.. :(

Hv a nice day every1..

Saturday, October 13, 2007

What about EidulFitri this year??



Too many to tell, too much to share, too late to hold back..
I've got like so many things to write but I dun feel like writing anything yet, up to last nite. I was about to write about my sis when I fell into a deep sleep after a long tired day on the first hari raya. Before that, let me wish you guys...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EIDULFITRI, MOHON MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.

Lets start one by one..

My youngest sis, EIKA..
She wasn't very well. She's very weak but we think it just bcoz she's rarely eat (too much on diet thingy I guess). Few days b4 raya, she fainted couple of times, which then worried my parents very much. All she can do just lay down n get all the food n other things brought to her. Wish she get well soon ehh.. After all, puasa comes to the end already, so u can start eating during daytime. Stop make ppl who loves you very much get so much worry over you.

Preparation Raya..
My Dad was really into transforming our house into a new house (hehee). The house was newly painted with several different colors. Even rooms were painted with purple, pink n the combination of 3 colors (pink, purple n blue). But the thing is, this raya preparation is too obvious. N ppl start asking if we are actually welcoming a new member.

I'm tired of such question already. Tak paham2 bahasa, if we say NO once, pahamla jela.. n takyah tanya2 dah.. aku tertekan giler.. damn!!

This year, semakin tertekan, the same question over n over from sedara mara.. My mom started to be a bit pushy about this.. keep asking, if I ever hv fren to come over during raya.. OMG! If only I can just run away from all this..

How am I going to tell mom that I no longer interested in marriage thingy. I dun hv trust left for a person called husband. I don't think I can committed in my marriage. Of course, there's a lot of good, loyal guys out there.. but I don't think I can find one. All this while, aku asik kenal ngan orang2 yg loves to flirt with girl. Tak pernah ada yg setia, kalo da bosan baru cari aku. Like aku ni aper je.

When I really into some1, mesti org tu akan cari yg lain.. find other girls.. bila da sorang2 baru nk cari aku blk. Whuttaheck?? Aku tak harapkan pun ada org nk amik aku buat bini.. coz most of guys are sucks.. should I repeat?? MOST of GUYS ok.. I'm not saying all.. if u think, u r good, then u r not included in the MOST of GUYS stat ok!!

If suddenly, ko rasa u heart me.. better just forget it, if u just one of the scumbag who will hurt my heart over n over. I'm just get enof of this..

Hmm.. laterla citer sal raya.. da takde mood..

Till then.. enjoy ur raya k!!

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Abang n Adik conversation??

Chatted with bro last nite.. Its been a while ehh?? hehee..
As usual, he follows my blog so he'll get update about my life.. So bro, i even paste it in my blog.. so u dun hv to save last nite's conversation.. Thanks Bro.. U rock!! hehee

BRO: waazup?

Me : nothing much
Me : hehee
BRO: hehe...u sound stressed
Me : well.. biasala
Me : working nonstop
Me : of coursela akan stress
Me : ehhee
Me : how bout u heh?
BRO: hehe,,,i was referring more towards ur blog
BRO: takde beli baju raya n stuff
BRO: day ind at out sama je la....
BRO: ada kemas bilik skit je la
BRO: hehehe
BRO: i nothing much....
Me : hehe.. my blog?
Me : owh.. i yg cari masalah
Me : padan muka me la
BRO: yele...i dah lapan juta kali cakap kat u xyah jumpa dia
Me : hehheee
Me : well da soploh juta kali i dgr ayat yg sama tuh
Me : hohohohooo
Me : dah tu.. i ni degil nk wat camne
BRO: dari jumpa dia baik jumpa i
BRO: dapat i belikan seluar jeans u tu
Me : hahaa
Me : u asik bz je camne nk jumpa
Me : aritu kan. i da janji ngan kawan nk buka kat klcc
Me : pastu d fren cancel plak.. dia tak sihat
Me : i was thinkin nk call u
Me : tp takut u ada plan lain plak
Me : then i blk je..
BRO: i ada baca bout u nak jumpa ur fren kat klcc...
BRO: tu la...lain kali call la dulu...kalau i bz then tak jumpa le...
BRO: kalau ada leh la jumpa kejap
BRO: only thing is u need to know who are real friends and who are just poser je...
******************************************************

Me : i ni jenis cam senang sgt maafkan orang
Me : n tak serik2 ngan org2 yg sentiasa menggunakan i
BRO: tu la....kan i cakap u ni baik sgt
BRO: bukan nak suh u jadi jahat....
BRO: cuma
BRO: cuma lebih berwaspada je
Me : i tot i jumpa syaril aritu da berwaspada da tu
Me : hahhaaa
Me : sekalinya terkena plak
Me : kene kat batang idung sendiri plak tu
Me : haiyyo
BRO: huh.....tu saja carik penyakitt
Me : tula pasal
Me : barula ter blur2 jap.. kene serang
Me : tp pelikla semua awek syaril tu akan serang i
Me : mcm i ni rival derang je.. padahal i takde mende
BRO: mmg la u bukan rival derang
BRO: tapiiii
BRO: i cakap direct la ni ...jgn plak marah
Me : ok
BRO: syaril dumped u
BRO: then dia jumpa orang lain dan dah have sex etc la
Me : dahtu?
BRO: then once in a while jumpa u\
BRO: which seems more logik?
BRO: u nak tekel dia balik atau dia nak tekel u balik?
Me : ermm... ntah?
BRO: he 'has' somebody...and truthfully u dont at the moment...
Me : oo ok
Me : so its kinda i nk tekel dia blk la ni
BRO: so kalau orang tgk pun.....org akan pk u nak rampas
Me : owh ok..
Me : ahakss
Me : well, at least i can hold that title for a moment
Me : should i say best girl win
Me : hahhaaa
BRO: xtau la u
BRO: kalau i
BRO: watpe nak win sampah
Me : so i guess even sampah wants the best thing for life rite
Me : tp no worries la
Me : as long as i still waras
Me : he will nvr b in my list pun
Me : biarla i tak kawin sekalipun
Me : drpd kawin ngan dia n merana d whole life
Me : buatnya nnt anak sendiri pun dia tak kenal
BRO: boleh x u tak jumpa dia lagi....jgn layan dia lagi?
Me : boleh
Me : boleh je..
Me : takde masalah pun
Me : tp aritu dia call.. saja je gatal nk jawab gak
Me : ihikss
BRO: yg gatal nak jawab tu napeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Me : da katee gatal..
Me : nk wat camne..
Me : hahahaaa
BRO: dah tu lepas ni nak wat lagi tak?
Me : taknk
Me : tensen kene serang
Me : huhuu
BRO: janji tak ni?
Me : yup.. promise (no crossed fingers at the back ehh)
BRO: i save coversation ni....
Me : ok
BRO: u wat lagi...i saman u kat court
BRO: hahaha
Me : hahahaa
Me : yes sir
Me : i do understand with the terms n agreement
Me : hehee
BRO: breach in agreement can result in court proceedings against you
Me : yela yela..
BRO: haha
Me : mentang2la i ni buta law suka2 ati u je nk ckp paper
BRO: eleh...macam la i ni lawyer
Me : yerla.. at least u kene tau gak
Me : hehe
BRO: hehe...well i did get an A in business law dulu2
BRO: hehehe
BRO: well before we move on to better topics
BRO: sapa dayang n sapa rien?
Me : dayang is the girl yg hving affair with syaril when he was with me
Me : n rien is the latest girl.. yg janda tu
BRO: oo yeke...
BRO: i tot janda tu is dayang...
Me : nop.. dayang tu da kawin
Me : after all.. dia da kene karma dia la.. for what she done to me..
Me : but i takleh nk salahkan dia sepenuhnya coz syaril do contributes
Me : so i maafkan her.. n we bcome fren
BRO: elok la ...in this sense elok la u jadi baik
Me : well.. i tot i ngan syaril pun camtu gak.. i maafkan dia.. n bcome fren..
Me : tp rupa2nya tak bleh
Me : coz dia lelaki ehh
Me : n dia not some1 yg can b trusted
Me : hehe
Me : silly me
BRO: syaril tu lain....i dah cakap 8 juta +1 kali jgn dekat atau ada apa2 ngan dia lagi
Me : yes sir
Me : i da dgr soploh juta+2 kali da
BRO: haha
BRO: kira i sebt 80% of the time la
Me : hahahaaaa
Me : hmm wonder gak.. byk gak ehh