Hatiakuyangdegil!!

Dah lama da aku nk let go. N da lama gak aku cuba tuk let go. Dah berganti2 org aku gunakan tuk rebounce.. still hati aku lekat dgn saksamanya. Aku tak let go lagi. All this while aku ingat da lupa, da tak ingat. Adil ke kalo aku dgn org lain tp hati n otak pk sal org lain. Bukan baru sekali.. dah terlalu byk kali. Padahal sumpah, aku tak pernah cuba nk call/sms dia.. kitaorg mmg da lost contact. Unless ada je manusia yg dgn baik hati nk bercerita ttg dia pada aku.. tp aku blh lg berfikiran waras.. Deymm!!

Tolong bitau apa nk buat tuk let go perasaan aku ni.Kalo betul ada jodoh, n aku nk kawin.. aku nk betul2 takde perasaan kat org len.. hanya tuk laki aku sorang je hati aku. Tp keadaan camni, buat aku mcm org bengong..

Tak adil, kalo aku hidup ngan org lain tp dhati aku pk pasal org lain.. lg2 kalo org tu suami aku. Karma ke neh?? huhuu..

Kawan aku kata, ko tulis email kat dia...bgtau perasaan ko then ko send kat dia.. kira cam ko da lepaskan perasaan tu then at the same time ko akan let go perasaan tu. Yo la tu.. cissss
Kang aku send org tu gelak guling2 baca email aku... takde maknanya okehhh..

HAPPY 30th ANNIVERSARY MOM & DAD..

LOVE YOU BOTH!!

CONGRATS MIKE & WIFE
FOR THE LOVELY WEDDING!!

Deymm!!

Skrg ngah on d mood nk nulis n release sket..
pastu most blog yg aii dok hop all this while da gulung tikar..
tak update dah.. so malas nk blog hoppin da..

Smlm takleh nk tdo..
Kul 3 mata still gagah terkangkang ngan saksamanya..
adoii..
ini adalah penangan masalah yg dicari sendrik..
patutnya tak kisah dah..
patutnya tak heran dah..
rupa2nya silap percaturan..

rasa itu masih tersisa..
akhirnya makan diri sendiri,
so skrg ni tensi naik sampai ubun2 kepala..
ayoyooo..

kalo jadi plak pakai a
mgkn tak, ada rasa yg sama?

pretending to be strong..
but i'm so damn weak!!

Glad, at least I got some1 to talk to..
though it just a matter of few short fuckin hours!!

Cici,
WAKE UP!!!
& STOP INVESTING YOUR DEEDS TO ENSURE YOUR PLACE IN HELL..
Start invest on good deeds.. n collect rewards as much as possible b4 ur time come!!

Down!

When it comes to my things, they never fail me..
I know how hard for them to see me sad..
Yet, one by one let me down..

It's not the first time..
Since I was a kid..
I should be able to understand stuffs..
But I just can't take it anymore..
Why it has always to be me??

Its not that, I'm the only person who ever did sin in life..
Its not that, I'm the only person who experience such thing in life..
Its not that, I'm the only person who holding the same stat..
But why it's only me??

I'm not questioning YOU, GOD..
How could I question YOU..
I just don't understand my ownself..
Show me the right path, YA ALLAH..
I think, I almost losing my mind.

~~Tears is no longer a solution~~

Si Penjaga Parking..

Actually, aii kinda mad at him. Obviously, tenggelam timbul as he wish..
Sapa tak bengang kan?

Ermm, it has been what eh yang? more than 2 weeks kot he's not around. I mean we were not in touch. As I fully understood his business as "Penjaga Parking", I don't really give so much damn for the first one week. But then, on the second week, I started to feel uncomfortable. U know, who knows something might have happened and yet I don't know. So, I try to call him.. UNREACHABLE..
Again, I try to sms.. my 1st sms was delivered with no reply. The second one failed. So, again I had this good thinking perhaps his phone MIA or whatever good reason I can think of. Oh ya, it's a millenium era, so I left him a message in whatever media I might be able to.. YM, Email, FB, FS.. whatever..
No reply..
After two weeks, I had this feeling. Owh.. he's no longer available.. Die?? I can't think the worst..
Sorry yayang.. u started first.. :p

This afternoon, when I was having headache with LC (chromatography always gv ppl headache.. trust me!), heard an sms beep from my old, cheap nokia phone.
"Hello, hehe yayangku. Baru balik dari Afganistan. How are u yang?"
Who on earth will still smile receiving such msg? You tell me??
So aii reply with not really friendly msg.. huhuu..
"Owh hidup gik. All this while u kat afgan? What r u doing there? Kejar Osama laden?I'm sulking! Not talking! Btw, u ok ke?"
See.. girls no matter how mad they are still concern tau tak!!
Well the rest of the conversation is history.. :p
Btw, did I tell you my headache not getting any better?? huhuu (although i know he's fine & alive)

But still yayangku si penjaga parking.. I'm mad as hell..
Not talking.. Still sulking..
Glad, u r fine n able to find ur way back here.. :p

So.. the mystery is no longer mystery
My yayangku still alive and kicking.. :D

Oh ya, how about friends who are sick?
Have you been well? Going to Subang again tomorow..
Hope you are doing well friend. Miss your smile n laugh..
Lets enjoy the life to the fullest!!

Hello...

Semalam balik dari Lab, aku singgah rumah jap. Amik ext. harddisk.
Dah dekat 2 minggu aku ulang alik shah alam-meru. Since Mama start sakit, sampai la ni Mama da sampai Jakarta. Aku kene ulang alik camni until Mama blk sini balik. Penat kalo nk ikutkan.. tp takleh nk wat pe..

Owh ye.. sambung blk citer td..
So on the way nk turun bawah tu, dgn bawa kain2 baju dlm paperbag, laptop backpack, ngan handbag lagi.. pastu tak lama tunggu lift, second lift nye pintu terbukak.. so aku pun masuk.. ada 2 guys which both hv this malay look. Ok whatever..

Then, one of the guy cakap, "Ada beghapa ghamai tok orang brunay diam siney?"
Aku buat bodoh.. I think dia cakap ngan kawan dia. Then bila aku still diam, dia cakap lagi,
"Excuse me, u dari mana?"
Aku tenung muka dia, aku tanya balik, "Me?"
Dia angguk.. Then aku cakap, "Indonezia" (with slang yer.. ahakss)
Pastu, dia cuit aku, aku toleh.. of course ngan muka masam n mata tak friendly langsung. Pe hal cuit2 orang?? Nak kene penampar.. Ceh tp aku tak cakap la.. aku ckp dlm hati je.. haha..

Dia tanya lagi, "Eh, you dari tgkt 9? Bukan level guys ke? U tinggal ngan lelaki ke?"
Aku bg dia pandangan mata yg agak kurang menyenangkan.. dia senyum sumbing.
Aku cakap, "8&9 , for girls, upward for guys"

Pastu dia ingat aku cam sombong kot, dia p cakap borneo ngan kawan dia lagi sorang..
Boleh dia cakap, "Lawa gilak pompuan ni tok."
Kawan dia pun balas blk, "mesti dia ingat ko ckp dia cantik.. hahaa"

Aku toleh dia, then aku cakap, "Kitak oghang saghawak kah? Next time madah saghawak ja. I do understand."

Time tu gak pintu lift terbukak.. AKu keluar..
The guy tu panggil aku blk.. Aku toleh.. 'Yes?'
"I never thought u r Indonesian, but u do hv a beautiful face. I would prefer you as Bruneian. Hehe.. Boleh bagi phone number?"

Aku cam.. ihh budak2 ni.. aku sembelih kang.. Aku senyum then masukkan barang dlm kete. Time aku nk kuar dari parking, derang lambai.. Aku senyum sendiri..

Weii.. tetiba aku rasa cam nk jadi muda balik.. hahahaa...
Kalo dlu nak je aku bg phone number.. bleh berscandal2 gitu.. huhuu..


Oh ya..
Arini agak malas nk tulis entry bergambar..
So,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ROSE
& MY LOVELY SISTER, EIKA

Karena wanita ingin dimengerti...

Aku tatau nk start dari mana..
Actually, mcm aku malas gak nk tulis sbb takut tersilap tulis kang kene gelak je..
Arini da 2 kali aku ckp benda mengarut..
Satu aku cakap, Can u plz get me a glass in water?
Which I'm supposed to say, Can u plz get me water in a glass?
Pastu aku dok ckp2 ngan member.. rasanya aku siap antar sms bagai..
Cakap pasal pain in ass.. guess what?? Aku tulis ass in pain..
Tp yg best tu org diam.. aku pun tak pk blk..
tu maknanya aku tak pk apa yg aku ckp.. men lepas je..
Btw, forgive me.. ketensenan da bermula sbb esok boss blk..

ok done with that part.

Td aku dgr lagu Irwan Syah - Camelia. Haha..
Nama dia da dekat2 ngan nama aku tu.. Buang C, jadila Amelia.. :p
So excited aku tau lagu baru, aku pun send la kat sorang scandal aku ni..
Actually, takdela scandal pun.. kira cam kawan2 gitu le..
Aku tak pernah ada serius relationship ngan dia.. unless aku need him to send me somewhere somehow.. camtula.. kira mcm agak make used of him gakla.. hohohoo
Pastu.. owh. .. bukan aku send kat dia sorang.. ada few gak yg time tu tgh chatting ngan aku..
So aku just send link Youtube kat derang..

Guess what, this mamat.. dia ckp kat aku... "I bagi lgu ni kat u, ikhlas dari hati.. Lagu ni menggambarkan hati I yg sebenar.."
I was like.. WTF???
Aku cam.. erkk.. eh hello.. sejak bla la aii jd simpanan you??
Owh puh lease ok!!
Kuasa aku..
Yg mana sblm dgr lagu tu.. elok2 chatting, citer pasal nk tgk wayang..
So, go to hell.. I will never go out or see you.. You can go to Neraka!!

Ish.. terus hilang mood arini..

Btw, again... tlg la ok.. aku tak selera la..
Really not my cup of tea.. not at all!!
Kalo aku lelaki, I would say.. aku akan kene erectile dysfunction..
For God's sake!!

So what??
Owh, aku citer ngan kawan.. Dia kata, asal ko nk marah..
Lantak diala situ.. as long as ko rasa ko bukan simpanan dia okla..
Owh.. hmm.... ok

#Aku rindu.. rindu sangat... If only he knows..

Cayank ku Si Penjaga Parking...

Hehee...
Apekah??

Okla..
Who d hell is Si Penjaga Parking ni??

Guys..
Take it easy.. Sit still and relax..
No.. No.. No..
I'm not going to make any announcement here..
Owh Puh leaseeee..

Ok,
Aii kenal dia waktu2 zaman di UIA dulu..
Our Unimates gitu lho ceritanya..
Actually, whatever fact about him akan sangat memudahkan korang..korang.. sume kenal dia..
SO lets keep the fact..

So gini ni ceritanya.. ehh tolong ok.. Aii takde scandal ngan Cayank ku si Penjaga Parking ini..
Dia hanyala semata-mata the 'bestest' friend je..
Itu pun best for certain things je..
COntohnya mcm bab2 mengumpat.. ihikss..
Opss.. sorry cayank ku..
N juga.. cayank ku ini bukan banci.. eh.. bukan pondan.. bukan sekali2..
Katanya sih.. dia jejaka tulen.. tulen ke tulin aii tatau..
Tp kalo tgk kawan2 dia.. aii rasa dia jejaka tulen 100%..
or mungkin juga dia dua alam.. ihikss..
Ampun cayank ku.. dinda cuma bercanda ria.. huahuahua...

Ohya, cayank ku itu bukan apa2 ok..
its like panggilan je.. like his pet name or something..
It's not like whatever u've in mind..
Huhuu..

SO diharap dpt meleraikan kekusutan..
Aii not into whatever u r thinkin ayem..
Aii still having committment with tikus2 ku terchenta... hahahaa

Till then.. aii wanna hv a rest..
Btw, kekusutan masaian mereka2 yg nk tau pasal cayank ku si Penjaga Parking, tlh membuatkan cayank ku tak senang duduk.. mcm ayam berak kapur dah.. :p
Leks arr..
Enjoy life to the fullest!!!

Great week ever...

What so great about??
Boss takdak..
Outstation for 2 weeks..
So aii bebas..
Yeay!!
Masuk keje kul 12, blk kul 5..
Yeay!!
Sampai lab, main2 jap.. pastu balik..
Yeay!!
Nk wat keje pun takleh sbb machine rosak..
Yeay!!
So keje asik men game.. update blog..
Bacalah blog ni sampai bosan.. hehe..

Arini wat tikus..
Bukan buat.. tp keje ngan tikus..
So aii ada offer baekkkk punya...
Spa2 rasa nk buat soup tikus ke.. nk goreng masak merah ke, gulai ke..
Meh sini aku bg free je tikus ni..
Ermm terbayang kalo tikus ni dimasak madu..
Nyum.. Nyum..
hahahaa

Happy Weekend everybody..

## Rindu tgk wajah tu smlm.. hahahaa.. Doesn't change a bit!!
Muka tak bleh blah.. huhuu

Kiss...

Disclaimer: This is an XXX rated entry. Please close browser if u are an underage...

I like this very much.. Feet kiss..

They said, this is French Kiss.. Why??

Romance..

A friend of mine ask for an opinion.
Which then leads to another big question mark.

The friend asks me, 'So what if he ask me to kiss him?'
I really don't know what to say.
'Why it has to involve kissing?'
Kinda blurr.. I asked Cayank ku Si Penjaga Parking..

He said, "In business world, you gotta do what you gotta do."
My mouth dropped like I can't believe I ever heard he saying that.
"Are you implying it yourself dear?"
He just laugh..
Is it for real? Do you really have to be like that? I mean selling everything for the sake of business??

I may be naive but I'm not really into the idea of kissing stranger.
Not even with you Mr Cayank ku Si Penjaga Parking.
Hohohoo...
Migrain! Migrain!


Mama is going to Jakarta next week. How I wish I can go but my condition is really out of topic.
Grandma is admitted now. Mama just released. I wonder if Mama is strong enof to take care Grandma..

Gotta go..
Hujan lebat adalah waktu paling tepat untuk Tidur....

Catatan buat Si Penjaga parking..

Been awhile since aku chat ngan cayank ku si Penjaga Parking..
Since balik dari Borneo, tatau aper kabar berita..
Ingat da terus kawin n settled down kat sana.. ihikss..
Rupa2nya da blk ke KL..
Khabarnya ke Borneo hanya mencari sesuap nasi..
Siannye cayank..
Kalo takat nk cari sesuap nasi watpe g Borneo sana..
Jauh..
Datang umah aii.. satu periuk nasi aii masakkan..
Siap aii bagi extra ikan dalan tin.. hehe..

Cayank ku kata,
ada hadiah tuk aku dari Borneo..
Biasa, kata baru blk outstation..
Adiahnye adalah a piece of rotten DAIM!
What a lovely present I've ever had..
Sebab, not long time ago..
A friend.. just a friend.. of course a guy fren..
But really just a friend... my cayank at all..
He went back from Germany for conference or something..
He gave me one big plastic of DAIM and other chocolates.. (which I'm not sure Halal ke tak.. but I'm sure aii bedal je)..
Now, u r claiming urself as my cayank yet u wanna give me A PIECE OF ROTTEN DAIM??
U r the most romantic guy alive la cayank..

OK.. done with it.
Saja takde keje..
Aii just wanna wish my cayank si Penjaga Parking will become a CEO soon..
& also will get his Dato'ship afterwards..
So that whoever marry him will get the Datin title..
And also will hv their wedding at the Palace of the Golden Horses..
Therefore, can beat his BESTFRIEND (dunia akhirat)!
AMIN...

Cayank.. see how much I adore you..
Despite what u've done aii still pray the best for you..
Nnt once u decided to hv ur wedding at PGH or the real Palace, do let me know ok..
Of course u kene invite aii..
I contribute gak aper.. tuk mendoakan yuuuu...

Ok cayank!!!

**Cici in the bengong mode.. sebab arini April Fool**

Last but not least,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EG!!!

SELAMAT ULANGTAHUN SAYANG..

Yang tulus ikhlas
Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas
Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang selalu memberi
Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta
Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang
Rentaslah langit cita cita mu
Harap nanti kita ‘kan bertemu'

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang
Ku nanti penuh kerinduan
Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan

Aku hanya inginkan engkau setia
Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu


EG, as usual.. birthday gift ko da aku kirimkan kat Abang Santa. Agaknya dia ingat tu hadiah tuk Krismas kot.. pastu dia lupa.. hehee
As usual gak, aku slalu bg ko cake.. This time around, aku bg cake gak...

How bout this one?? Cam terover lak kan??

Or Macadamia chocolate cake from Secret recipe?? Whichever u like ok!!!

But please.. please.. please.. jangan makan sampai macam ni ok!!..

Love you big girl!!

A humble request...

Dear friends,
Do spare a little of your precious time for a very humble request from me. Please pray for my Mom's and Grandma's wellness.
Mom just recovered from her illnesses, though not fully recover but getting better and hopefully everything will be back to normal soon. How I wish..
Please..

Thank you very much for your do'a. My family & I really appreciate it.

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It has been 3 weeks since I spent a night in my very own room. Yet to be back here again seems like everything that I would trade with. I just miss my time having a rest in my very own room. Not that, I didn't have my own room in Kristal but somehow, I don't feel Kristal as a home. Just something wrong somewhere as I can recall.

Mom cleaned up the spare room at the back and my youngest sister moved to that room. Well, all this while she wants to hve her own room and now she got it. Nurul is happy to have the room as her wish. So now everyone has their own room. Nobody shares except of course, Mom n Dad.

I never had a chance to share my bedroom with any of my sisters. In fact, they know how much I loath sharing my room. Hehe.. Unless it is emergency.

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Had a very long night on the day before so I woke up a little late on Sunday morning. Nurul already prepared the breakfast. Since Mom not really well, Nurul take over the kitchen. She prepared breakfast n lunch before went to college. She really some1 now.

I couldn't believe myself in this situation. May Allah gives me some strength to face things sanely.

Aku?? malas??

Malas nk update..
Tp pg ni rasa cam excited nk start hari baru..
Slps ber'stress' sakan semalam..
Formulation dah setel..
In vivo..
In vitro..
So many things to do..
Yet not enof time..

Semalam stress bukan pe..
The whole day, aku committed wat keje..
Tak macam biasa..
Tp tula..
Sakit hati tak siapa tau..
Buang masa je aku smlm..
Satu mende pun tak jadi..

Hari ni, tak disangka..
Formulation smlm yg tak jadi tuh..
Dah jadi..
Huhuuu..
A bit lega..
Tp bila repeat balik..
Tak jadi plak..
Trus aku naik gler.. Deymnnn!!!

Ohya, pagi td.. a beep from hp ku.. Msg masuk kul 6.05am. Deymmnnn!!! aku masih tdo ok!
"Suci, boleh tak tukar tiket flight? - Mas"
Aku cam?? Kejadahnya?? Ingat aku keje jual tiket flight ke??
So aku reply, "Ha? boleh kot. Ikut ko beli tiket aper la. Kalo yg promo nye.. tak dapat kot.Btw, ni tiket aper?"
"Tiket mas la." Mati!! Gubrakk!! Nama dia Mas, mana aku nak tau dia letak kat hujung 1st msg tu company tiket yg dia beli tu.
For God's sake!!!
It was early morning. baru kol 6. Biasanya aku masih diulit mimpi lg ok!!
Aku ckp camtu kat dia..
Dia kata "kat sini da siangla.."
Aku lupa dia di Borneo. Semenjak jadi Cikgu di pedalaman di S'wak, dia mmg suka bgn awal.
Sbb dia kene bgn awal..
Hehehe.. Sorry Mas.. Aku gurau je.. :p

Pastu, time aku ngah mandi, another beep..
(Awat life aku cam bosan je?? Asik beep je.. takkan takde bunyi yg menarik sket.. hahaha)
"Can I have both? Hahaha.."
Aku cakap.. " Don't be greedy"
Sebenarnya aku nk cakap, -"Asal nk dua je? kalo nak 4 ke 8 ke soploh pon bleh.." hahahaa

So aku makin sengal..
Hopefully things getting better..

Btw, apa kabar mu disana??

Metaphor?? What the??

Ok, the tittle got nothing to do with what I'm gonna write later.

It was early morning, for God's sake.
Beep from phone wakes me up.
A message.
I was so under my sleepy mode to realize who sent the message.
It says, "Yang, I dah nak naik flight. Miss you muahss"
At that state of my mind, I'm simly reply
"Ok.Syg take care. Jgn nakal2. Miss you too muahss"

Then I crawl back into my comforter and jumped out when I heard the alarm from the phone.
Shit, it was almost 8.30am when I finished my shower.
Get ready and go out.
Realized I left my phone, I got back into the room and got the phone.
Well, it was still at the message.
The fact I didn't close the app.

Ehh.. some1 sent me a message this morning.
But I really can't remember. Gosh..
Check back. What I've wrote.
Who call me Yang?
Perhaps some1 sent to the wrong number and I directly reply.
Luckily it was from some1 i know.
Hahaa..

Can't keep smiling on my stupidoshh..
What if the message from some1 else.
Owh... I really tired lately. I can't even think straight.

#p/s: yang, dun forget some cake batik for me.. mishh you muahss... hahahahhahahaa

** example of nice metaphor
"Before I met my husband, I'd never fallen in love. I'd stepped in it a few times."
(Rita Rudner) - so cici said, meaning that I've never fallen in love yet. Fuhh..

One day in the stressful week..

Hari ini and hari2 yg aku rasa nk menulis dalam bahasa aku akan guna bahasa. Sebab rasa cam sucks je nk tulis dalam omputih setelah lama aku tak gunakan bahsa omputih tu. Owh semalam aku guna bahsa omputih sbb aku terjumpa ngan Bassl, the proud Arabs tu. Huh...

Semalam hari kurang baek untuk aku. Pagi2 aku sengal g buat keje bodoh end up aku tak buat keje sampai petang. Aku nk call sapa pun aku tatau. Mesti masing2 sibuk. Aku malas nk online. So all I can think of ialah Yazi. Sebab dia sorang je yg waktu keje dia pelik sket n aku rasa cam dia selalu free nk cakap ngan aku. Ngahahahhaaa.. Sorry Babe..

Aku habiskan semua credit yg baru aku top up tu tuk call dia. Habis gakla 30 hinggit aku sbb nk bercakap je. Nk cakap benda yg bodoh n mengarut lak tu. Mengganggu waktu kerja dia plak tu. Bukan aku sengaja tapi smlm otak mmg da weng giler. Tatau nk pk mende dah.. huhuu..

Hari ni aku wat keje balik setelah sekian lama aku cuti dari buat keje aku.. Turn out lama tak wat formulation, otak pun berkarat. Pastu aku jd malas sbb esok nk wat tikus lagi. Tengok keadaan cam can tuk ke kuantan menipis je. Tapi tgk gakla nnt, ne tau peluang tuk ke kuantan cerah ke. Lagi pun da lama kau tak berjalan2.. letih da.. aku mmg nk berjalan je skrg ni. Tp peluang itu cam tak nampak je gik.

Sabar.. eh.. sabar..

Aku sibukkan diri ari ni.. and start with a new exciting stuff.. Hopefully, aku blh lupakan masalah smlm. Hishhh dahla stressful week, tambah stress plak..

Huhuu...

Badan ketul-ketul and six pack..

Chris Evan - What a hot stuff..

Chad Murray - One Tree Hill.. Sbb dia gak aku layan citer tu.. huuuhuu..

Ni tuk cuci mata yer.. muaahahhaa...

Papa Paul Walker.. huhuu.. hotzzz..

Aku mmg suka kat Dr Chase ni since the first time aku tgk dia kat House. Regret la dia called off the wedding the Jen Marrison tu. Padahal da sama2 cantik.. Aii lurvee..

Hari ni aku demam. Demam sebab tgh malam td aku tulis entry cakap aku benci ngan boss. Memang nyampah sbb dia suka bagi aku keje banyak2. Keje dia. Patutnya nnt kalo project PhD dia da siap.. takyah letak nama dia, tampal nama aku. Senang2 aku da dapat PhD sbb lebih 50% keje dia dulu aku buat. Sebab dia takmo nampak cam aku buat so dia upah orang2 baru ulang balik sumer keje aku. Bijak tak? Cerdik tak? Ulang balik keje tu sampai da 4-5 kali kot. Ermm lantak la..

Tapi sebab aku tensen, sebab aku stress, badan2 aku sakit2 sebab terpaksa duduk sebilik ngan Cik Ti the whole day, nak ditakdirkan aku demam. Sakit kepala macam nak pecah kepala. Bukan.. bukan macam migrain yg aku selalu kene tu. Sakit kepala ni macam bila aku baring je rasa macam kepala aku tu da nak pecah. Sakit giler. Dah 2 hari. Ubat biasa aku makan da takde, td suh my bro g cari ubat tu. Tapi da takde. Aku da telan panadol actifast 4 biji since pagi still tak hilang lg sakit kepala. Lepas makan panadol td, aku bantai tdo berselubung ngan selimut tebal, tutup kipas bagi badan berpeluh so fever aku blh pecah. So, lbh kurang kul 1 aku bangun ngan badan basah lencun. Maknanya fever da pecah. Tinggal sakit kepala and sakit perut je. Errkk aku tak citer aku sakit perut ehh. Sakit perut sbb hari 1st bulan mengambang. Dah lama aku tak layan sakit owang ppuan ni. Tp sbb aku demam kot, dia datang in package.

Sebab da terlalu lama tdo, aku tak larat nk tdo lagi. Aku dok tgk tv. Tak bley nk layan. So aku browse net. Aku dok layan video clip Amr Diab dari tgh hari td. Sampai la ni. Pastu browse gambar2 Dr Chase (House). Ermm tiba2 aku rasa mcm berminat ngan org badan berketul2 ni. Ni sume penangan Samuel Rizal semalam. Arghh.. kene rajin g gym pasni. Bukan nk work outla.. korang ingat aku rajin nk work out.. owh puhliss.. aku nk cari candidate yg berbadan chantekk..
p/s: yang, u kene rajin g gym blk.. bagi badan ketul2 sket, ada six pack. Huhuuu.. mesti sexy u.. aii like..

Ingat2 balik, aku tak pernah couple ngan org yg badan berketul. Yg ada six pack jauh sekali. Tp yg ada 2 pack kat kat depan tu adala. 1 tuk bahagian atas, 1 lagi tu perut yg menonjol kedepan. Ngalahkan ppuan ngandung pun ada. Tp tu dulu.. time sayang, so tak kisahla kan..:p maybe sbb tu gak skrg aku tertarik ngan manusia2 yg badan berketul2.. (aku letak tangan kat dahi... sah masih deman lagi.. so maafkan kata2 mengarut aku ni k)

Since aku cuti arini, so aku tatau nk wat aper. Mama takut aku kene denggi so td Mama masak sup ketam. Kalo org suspect denggi, adalah baik kalo dimasakkan sup ketam. So minum air dia byk2 k. So, nk dijadikan citer ketam tu tak fresh da.. so skrg aku menanggung akibatnya. Aku allergy seafood especially yg tak fresh. Dahla demam baru nk kebah, kepala macam nak meletup, perut ni memulas tak habis2 dapat plak lagi satu gatal2 kat muka n belakang badan aku. So satu combination yg sangat sempurna.

Ok, berbalik kepala badan ketak ngan six pack. Dah kata berkenan ngan org berbadan ketak wif six pack. Aku pun gatal contact kawan aku yg rajin ke gym. Citer ngan dia kegilaan aku. Tiba2 dia ckp, 'hati2 sket yg org yg badan2 ketak2 ni yang. Nampak cam lelaki tulen tp tak semestinya derang suka kat ppuan.'

Cisss.. merosakkan mood aku sungguh. So for those yg rasa badan dia ketak2 wif six pack.. jom kita kuar.. hahhaa.. nk gak rasa kuar ngan org yg badan ketak2 ni. Ada rasa bangga ke eh?? maklumla jalan ngan org yg berbadan sasa. Rasa selamat kah??

Dulu aku pk, kalo jalan ngan orang hensem mesti rasa bangga giler. So bla aku jalan ngan org2 hensem ni mula2 je cam best. Pastu trus rasa tak best sbb org dok tgk je kan. Bukan tgk aku.. tgk org sblh aku. Ciss.. tak beshh.. so biarla jalan ngan org yg berwajah bese2 je. rasa secure. Tp still aku nk rasa jalan ngan org badan sasa n ketak2 ni.

# Sebenarnya aku jeles giler ngan S. Amani peluk2 si Samuel Rizal dalam movie SAYANG tu. Cisss.. sangat menggugat keimanan gue..

p/s: Yang, cepatla build ur body tu.. hahaa... aii takmo 1 pack yg ngalahkan pregnant lady tu. okies.. huhuu

** Maafkan penulis atas kegilaan entry kali ni. Maklumla tgh tak brapa sihat. BUkan badan je.. ngan kepala2 hotak sekali weng.. Sowwy..

Ketika semuanya harus berakhir....

Tgh godek2 phone, aku transfer gambar2 dlm memory card to ke PC. So kira ni gambar2 lama..
Perubahan rupa seseorang kira takdela ketara sangat kan??

Aksi2 model malatop.. hahaa

Ni gaya pengontrolan mulut ye.. jgn terlalu terjuih.. :D

Ni plak aksi syok sendri..

Gaya2 innocent la konon..

Ni aku tatau.. jerawat penuh satu muka.. huh.. bad timing nih..

Ni konon2 kontrol ayu tp jd len plak.. mcm len macam je.. mcm terkejut pun ado..

Tatau naper..aku suke pose ni.. ayu gitu.. wakakakaa

Ni waktu keserabotan yg serabot..hohoho

Lepas gunting rambut kat Galaxy Ampang tu.. mcm len macam je muka..

After few hours, hair back to normal...

:) I wish I would never be so rude to ppl.. but thing happened.. what to do..

Pose keji ye.. konon baikla.. huhuhuu

Ni natural ehh.. candid.. tp aku rasa cam nampak ayu je.. Kira kang laki aku takdela bosan tgk muka aku time tdo sebab aku nampak comel walaupun aku tdo.. muahahahaaa (ceh takde org nk puji.. terpaksala puji diri sendiri..)

* Kira ni bleh arr jd model Tyra Banks ni.. hohoho..

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Namun tak jua puaskan hatimu

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Kau memilih tuk akhiri kisah ini
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Seperti yang kau pinta
Aku takkan bisa meski tlah kucoba

Aku takkan pernah jadi sempurna
Seperti yang kau pinta
Aku takkan bisa meski tlah kucoba

#Dikesempatan ni aku nk minta maaf kat semua atas segala salah silap.. Bulan Ramadhan akan menjelma tak lama lagi. So minta maaf atas segala dosa. Moga amalan kita diberkati dan akan diterima Yang Maha Esa...

Innocent steps..

In life, we'll go through several stages which some of us can face it in a wise way while some just can't handle it properly. As for me getting older mean I'm going to face so much troubles and deal with so much unexpected things that I never imagine before. Life is so complicated so never treat it as it is complicated. If u treat your life simple.. so simple it will be.

As I grew older, I learn so many things along the process. Met various kind of people, get to know hundreds kind of habit and stuck with many kind of persons. I took it as something I'll appreciate as a good experience or a good lesson I got in my youth (hahahaa.. still young kah?). I'm sure gonna remember all this when I become grandma later on (if only umur panjang..)

1. Nagging..

I was watching 'Macam2 Aznil' last nite or perhaps few nites ago.. n the guest was ermm Chef Wan n one pretty actress I can't recall her name. The topic was about nagging. When I was 'living' with some lazy butt ppl.. heheee I used to nag alot. N take it as a joke. Well, no harm to me.. as I find nagging is one of the way to release tension without make ppl mad at me.. or perhaps they'll get a bit irritate.. haha.. watever..

Get back to the nagging topic, Chef Wan was saying thing like this..' Sebenarnya, orang yg tak suka dengar orng membebel adalah orang yg ada kekurangan. Seperti contohnya, orang tu malas mandi, malas belajar, malas kemas rumah, malas basuh baju..bla..bla..bla..'

I laugh when I heard the statement.. yea rite.. in fact, notsolongtimeago.. i love nagging to those lazy butt.. :p. i've no idea how could they live in a place that is so messy, dirty n bla..bla..bla.. hehe.. Ermm, I'm no longer stick to the nagging habit.. I would prefer to remain silent unless I'm pretty sure that I need to nag to drag some1 ass moving.. ehehe.. well, its working to lazy person though.. ppl like EG (pjm nama ang sat) she dun like to listen when I'm nagging.. but seriously I love to nag over her..

2. Perfect

When we are saying things regarding 'Perfection' or 'Perfect', do we realize that nobody is perfect? I'm far from perfect.. In fact I'm one of the loser if u wanna said so. Living in quite big community taught me how to behave and deal with any circumstances but sometimes, those circumstances gv me headache. In my life, I can't runaway from problems but to be truth with I've been running away like thousands time.. That's all I can do pun..

I've been looking for the perfect love but deep inside I know there's no such thing as perfect love. What the heck was goin on with me lately.. I'm losing my mind n I'm getting insane..


#For those who actually hurt by me.. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me n May God bless u all..

*Dear, I'm sorry that I never love u...

**Congratulation to my cozins, Kak Elin and Kak Im for their engagement.. May my turn come soon... hehehe.. :D