When life bcome so complicated...

I did so many wrongdoin in the past.. so I get my life troublesome nowadays.. I realized it was a punishment for my wrongdoin but I just dun understand why I got it all in a row. Can't let me be in peace for a while??

I had 2 busy days on monday n tuesday. After long holiday, I came back just to give a shot to my head with lotz of things to do n pressure on doin things.. When my life would be easy like others??

Done with the job pressure thingy.. Had miserable moment chatting wif one bloody moron who pretending to be great n so called handsome.. which in fact he looks like fu*kin monyet!! Arghh mendidih darah mak nyahhhh... Went home with boiling bloody heart n cry..cry.. cry.. again n again...

Having Lovvy in my arms just make me feel as he's around.. I can feel ur presence.. U used to be there when I wanna talk about sumthing.. U always know the rite time to call me up.. to sooth and calm me down.. I was missin u last nite.. if only u still around.. I want u to know I do misssing you.. a lotz..

Have a chat with oni.. is a relief.. he knows camne nk bg aku gelak manjang.. such a good boy yg da tranform jd budak nakal.. mmg hampehss... takper.. he still there a good boy indeed..

Im shock.. hahahaa...

Chilli's

Im goin back to Kuantan soon..
'Be responsible' - yea im tryin darl..

Clean' up my rum.. usual habit b4 leavin my rum for a long time..
I saw 'Chilli's' box, a shoes box in which i kept tissue from chilli's. Open it up, saw all the tissues i've been collected since the first time i went to Chilli's. :D

Y chilli's?
I dun know.. I dun hv specific reason for it..

I had around 50 tissues with date on each of it.. but without names.. Only few got names on it.. The one syaril promise me not to leave me forever (suckss promises!), the one with shitam name on it and iwan signature.. darn!!.. the memories... Thanks 4 d memories..

I gotta throw away all those things.. memory.. always in mind.. things that mite remind me to the memories.. shouldnt be around..

K la.. preparing some stuffs b4 blk..

# Tabah.. tabah.. tabah..

Karma??

Pagi2 dah kuar 2c mummy.. dunno how to react.. dunno wat 2say.. as kata sorang kawan.. by the time jumpa tu, dah takde perkataan yg kuar.. Yea rite..

Sampai2 tgk mummy dah tunggu kat kusi taman umah dia. That house.. ermm.. it was my 3rd time g sana.. still the 2nd one terlalu byk memory.. Salam n peluk mummy, then salam daddy.. then derang ajak b'fast sesama. I dun feel like eating.. tahan airmata yg rasa laju je nk jatuh.. I wasnt that comfortable..

Excuse myself to bathroom.. cuci muka then join them.. they pretend as nothing happened.. seems like, it is the normal saturday. No different. I just dunno how to hide it.. pecah gak depan derang.. I'm sorry.. dunno la.. just dun feel comfortable calling them 'mummy' n 'daddy' anymore.. uncle n aunty gak kuar dari mulut ni.. I saw their instant reaction.. but they said nothing about it..

I really dun wanna talk about it. I just wanna see if they are ok.. send my condolences..
Got letter, which I dun hv strength to open yet.. Got present which I dun manage to accept.. I know it takes time.. but in this case I would prefer to hv nothing that gonna remind me of him (RIP).

Yea, I cant hold my tears..

Got call, Mama isn't very well. Asthma.. hardly breathing.. As usual, needs oxy supply.. Papa sent her to clinic. Aku blk straight g clinic. After one hour treatment, she feels better n blk umah..

Then got news, grandma was hospitalized. Ada batuk berdarah.. I guess, mama dapat berita ni dulu.. thats y tetiba je sesak nafas. Mesti menangis2 sampai couldnt breath..

All in a row..
Izzit the karma of my wrongdoing?
Why ppl around me? Y not me?

They said,
Allah Tidak Membebani Seseorang Melebihi Kemampuannya. Allah menguji setiap manusia dengan ujian yang berbeda, beragam jenisnya.

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Some1 send me an article.. Thanks a lot.. Its help a lot..

“Kemalangan” maupun “kenikmatan” yang kita rasakan, sebenarnya adalah salah satu bentuk ujian bagi kita juga. Ketika Allah menguji kita dengan “keburukan” maka ketika itu Allah tengah menguji tingkat kesabaran dan tawakal kita kepada Allah. Ketika kita diuji dengan “kenikmatan”, ketika itulah rasa syukur kita diuji. Kedua-duanya, baik itu kenikmatan ataupun kemalangan, dijadikan Allah sebagai barometer penghambaan kita kepada-Nya.
Ketika kita sabar dan tawakal dengan ujian “keburukan” maka janji Allah bagi kita adalah dihapuskannya dosa-dosa kita dengan kemalangan itu, dan maqam yang tinggi disisi Allah atas kesabaran kita, Innallaha ma’a sabariin”, sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang – orang yang sabar. Indah bukan? Masihkan kita akan terus larut dengan keluh kesah kalau kita sudah mengetahui makna dan hikmah dibalik ujian yang kita jalani. Perhatikan ayat berikut;

Tiap-tiap yang berjiwa akan merasakan mati. kami akan menguji kamu dengan keburukan dan kebaikan sebagai cobaan (yang sebenar-benarnya). dan Hanya kepada kamilah kamu dikembalikan.(Al Anbiya:35)

Tapi khan sabar itu susah.... Benar, untuk menjadi orang sabar itu “susah”, dan karena tingkat kesulitannya yang tinggi itulah Allah membalasnya dengan derajat yang tinggi pula, bukankah kita semua maklum bahwa semakin tinggi tingkat resiko atau kesulitan, semakin besar pula peluang untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang besar, jadi....kenapa kita harus takut menghadapi tantangan jika kita tahu dibalik semua itu ada sesuatu yang mahal dan berharga? Perlu proses memang, makan waktu pasti, pilihan kita adalah berjuang untuk menjadi sabar untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang kita idamkan, dengan resiko menghadapi tantangan, atau berdiam diri disudut-sudut sempit kehidupan dengan terus berkeluh kesah, mencari kambing hitam untuk kemudian kita mati konyol? Renungkanlah........... Pun ketika “kenikmatan’ menghampiri kita, untuk menguji rasa syukur kita. Sebuah tantangan tersendiri bagi siapapun untuk bisa menjadi hamba yang bersyukur. Kita kerap lalai untuk memanjatkan rasa syukur kepada Allah karena sebagian besar dari kita tidak menganggap “Kenikmatan” itu sebagai sebuah “ujian”. Kita cenderung menganggap kenikmatan yang kita miliki sekarang adalah karena saya, karena keuletan saya, karena kegigihan saya, karena kepintaran saya, sehingga kita “lupa” untuk bersyukur. Perhatikan firman Allah dalam ayat berikut;

Maka apabila manusia ditimpa bahaya ia menyeru kami, Kemudian apabila kami berikan kepadanya nikmat dari kami ia berkata: "Sesungguhnya Aku diberi nikmat itu hanyalah Karena kepintaranku". Sebenarnya itu adalah ujian, tetapi kebanyakan mereka itu tidak Mengetahui. (Az-Zumar:49)

Dan Demikianlah Telah kami uji sebahagian mereka (orang-orang kaya) dengan sebahagian mereka (orang-orang miskin), supaya (orang-orang yang Kaya itu) berkata: "Orang-orang semacam inikah di antara kita yang diberi anugerah Allah kepada mereka?" (Allah berfirman): "Tidakkah Allah lebih mengetahui tentang orang-orang yang bersyukur (kepadaNya)?"

# Sabar, tabah n ikhlas menghadapi ujian2 dari Allah...

Thanks for the memories..

a friendship slowly deteoriates.
a hand that pushes us apart.
i remember when you were the one, that i would turn to.
when nothing you had thought was wrong, we were the invincible ones.
thanks for the memories now that you're gone.
what the fuck should i think when you let everything get in your way ?
so much holds you down so much holds you back.
are you the same ?
maybe i've changed.
now we're stuck together, and our hatred grows stronger for each other.
and it tears me apart knowing you're fucked in the head, and everything is all for you,
and fuck me for caring and sticking around.
fuck you for holding me down.
we were the invincible ones.
what went wrong ?

# Heard this song last nite.. Quite a good one..

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Goin 2 c his (RIP) mom in a short while.. Even till now, I've no idea wut to say.. Perhaps, I'll end up crying in his mom arms.. Hopefully m strong enof to face this..

Mite goin to Kak Fida's wedding in d noon.. Not sure if m able to face ppl yet.. Spent da whole day ystd in my rum.. Even lunch, nurul sent it in.. I gotta get fresh air..

Should I get back to Kuantan?? I'm losin my mind...

Blog

SOme ppl said, blog is like diary..
Some said, its a medium to express ur feeling,
Some said, its a medium to express ur opinion..
Some said, its a medium to express ur uneasiness..
Whatever ppl said, my blog is mine... so its up to me wut to write..
I didnt ask u guys to come over n read it..
U come uninvited...
If u don't like wut i wrote.. just get the hell out of here...

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Im feeling better this morning.. In fact I'm feeling great. Thanks for the long late nite call.. Really appreciate that.. I'm sad but I won't grief.. Ini ketentuan Allah n kita kene redha..

I was thinkin wut he said to me last nite..

"When u were down bcoz of syaril, God let u get close to several new frens.. which then bcome ur bestfren.. God didnt leave u alone.. He always by ur side.. whether u realise or not.. When u were down bcoz of ur close fren, God let u know another new frens.. which then support u n make ur life better n happy.. When things bcome complicated.. God sent u some1 who u can talk to.. who u can tell evrything.. a shoulder u can cry on.. HE never let u walk alone.. When u were down over several matters, God sent you him (RIP) to cheer u up. Though he's the one who should be cheered up.. He was dying n still he motivated you n now he's gone forever.. When he gone my dear, God didnt let you walk alone.. u still hv frens.. u still have me.. u still hv ur family, his (RIP) family.. Never let sadness get the control over you... " - Thanks abang.. Can't believe I got a long call from Japan..Love you..muahss

I called Dr Huzwah yesterday, telling her I dun feel like teaching yet. I wanna cancel the class for the whole week n perhaps for next week too. She was ok but she said, students only hv 3 more weeks left so i gotta finish evrything on time.. Thanks she's very understanding.. I'll try my best for the students..

Dr Raj called, ask when I'm coming back.. I said, I'm not sure.. perhaps on sunday but it is all depends.. I was about to tell him I'm quitting.. But then he sounds like so excited n wanted to see me as soon as I come back.. Seriously I don't hv strength yet... Media was all contaminated.. Henry already prepare some more.. the rest.. i dun wanna think about it yet..

"Iwan pesan, melia jangan nangis lagi. Arwah takmau pemergiannya ditangisi. Waktu arwah sakit pun dia dah pesan kat mummy n daddy.. redhakan dia pergi. Jadi Mummy kene tabah n mummy nk melia pun tabah macam kami.. Redhakan arwah.."
Aku jadi orang yg tak berperasaan.. No more tears..No more sobbing.. What left just the pray for him.Semoga ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg beriman...

#Aku perempuan.. n aku rasa lebih senang luahkan perasaan thru penulisan.. P'puan berjiwa lembut? Ada gak lelaki berjiwa lembut.. Rasanya cukupla aku drag kawan2 dlm kesedihan.. Thanks for listening.. thanks for the encourage.. thanks for the condolences.. So far takde plan lagi nk buat aper.. Once aku dah hbs syllabus kat Kuantan.. aku blk Klang.. n rehat dulu.. then aku pk aper aku nk buat lepas tu.. Rasanya macam kuantan tak sesuai tuk aku... :)

KOsonG

I can't sleep..
I dunno wut to do..
I dunno where to go..
I feel so empty..

No tears to cry..
No strength to stand..
He brought my spirit with him..

I wanted to go to S'pore but Mummy said, the funeral is in the morning. There's no point. Even if I go, I can't see him. Yea, I wasn't that stable. I regret one thing.. I wasn't there when he left.

He never wanted me to see he went off. But he was my spirit, he was my strength. At the moment, when he's the one who supposed to be motivated, he motivated me. All this while through bad n worst time in life.. he's the one who cheer me up. We don't know for quite a long time.. but we've a chemistry bond. Something which I can't explain.

So many things happened lately.. apart of my rumate n housemate, he's my backbone. Im sure gonna miss him..

#Sorry, kita tak sempat tgk wayang sesama..
Sorry, kita tak sempat cat ur bike sesama..
Sorry, I wasn't there when u 'gone'..

Bila somebody left us forever.. kita rasa kosong..

Kamu seperti hantu
Terus menghantuiku
Ke mana pun tubuhku pergi
Kau terus membayangi aku

Salahku biarkan kamu
Bermain dengan hatiku
Aku tak bisa memusnahkan
Kau dari pikiranku ini

Di dalam keramaian aku masih merasa sepi
Sendiri memikirkan kamu
Kau genggam hatiku
Dan kau tuliskan namamu
Kau tulis namamu

Tubuhku ada di sini
Tetapi tidak jiwaku
Kosong yang hanya kurasakan
Kau telah tinggal di hatiku

# Thanks for the call n sms last nite. Really appreciate it guys. Sorry I can't talk. I just lost my words..

He left us.. forever..

I talked to him like for hours this evening. He went back to S’pore for CNY. His whole family went back. So kinda family gathering.. We had great time talking thru phone. I miss him very much..

I was busy ‘sms’ing yazi.. then got a call..no number.. but I can guess.. its him again.. I heard no sound but the blurry background sound. I didn’t think anything bad.. I was like laughing n ask him wats goin on…

I heard sobbing.. My heart dropped.. Its not the time yet.. he got another 3 months..

Mummy didn’t say a word.. but I do understand..

She sent me sms.. He passed away on 9.20pm (21/2/2007). He ask the whole family 2 gather during CNY so that they can spent the last moment with him..

Rest In Peace Mohd Izwan Haiqal Mohd Nordin..
May Allah put you with His lovers..

Al-Fatihah
Allah sayangkan dia lebih dari kita sayangkan dia.. Lebih baik dia pergi dari menanggung penderitaan lebih lama..

# I tot I was strong.. but I wasn’t.. God please give me strength…

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“Babe, bila u nk g bandung? Nak pesan barangla”
“Pesan guna air liur tak men ehh.. hahaha”
“Yer arr.. I pesan guna daun.. ok tak?”
“Yerla tu.. nak aper?”
“Nak pesan kain batik jawa.. orang kata kain batik jawa cantik.. Nanti kalo I ‘pergi’.. tutup guna kain yg u beli tu yer..”
“Ish aper merepek ni.. You gonna live for another 10 years..”
“Hehee..”

But he left me after 4 hours n 26 minutes. He left me forever.. He left us.. He left his family.. He left those ppl who love him..
Every single words in my mind.. remind me of him…

Dude, I miss you… It's hurt in here.. when u r gone..

I wish you love...

Goodbye, no use leading with our chins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends...
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day

But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say...
I wish you bluebirds in the Spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this, I wish you love!

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health, and more than wealth, I wish you love!

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never ever be
So with my best, my very best, I set you free!
I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm

But most of all, but most of all...
When snowflakes fall, I wish you wealth
I wish you health...I wish you love!

#Dedicated to ma fren.. I wish you love.. hehee

pISSEd oFF

Tadi p jumpa kawan yg dah bersuami. Well, biasala bila dia dah kawin ada tanggungjawab ngan laki dia so aku pun cam call hubby dia n minta izin nk bawa bini dia tu kuar. Bukan jauh pun.. takat g Alam Central je. Yer arr dah dia dok Shah alam, takkan aku nk angkut g KLCC plak :p

Kuar cam dalam kul 3pm, then aku hantar dia blk dlm kul 5pm. 2 jam je pun lepas rindu ngan kawan tu. Takat p makan n sembang2 je.. aper lagi pun nk buat.. nk ajak p huha huha.. dia tu dah jd bini orang.. tak manisla org tgk kan..

Sampai kat umah, laki dia dah dok kat buaian depan umah tu tunggu ktorg. Aku pun dengan penuh basa basi, minta maafla sebab culik bini dia kejap. Sekalinya laki dia mengamuk. Ngan jiran2 time tu tgh lepak2 kat luar.. cuci ketela, tgk anak main kat luarla, ‘ngerumpi’ la. Aku cam mula2 cool lagi.. aku ckp bebaik, apa masalahnya.. bini dia ni takleh kuar ngan aku ke? Bukannya aku bawa g buat maksiat.. cam sial je laki dia tu.

Okla, dia tak marah aku. Dia marah bini dia. Dah bini dia tu kawan aku..sahsahla aku pun angin kalo laki dia sound bini dia tu depan public. I was like.. wut the hell he thinks he is? Aper ingat ko lelaki, ko suami ko bleh buat aper ko suka? Hello Mr Husband!! Pompuan or wifey or wutever u wanna call tu manusia..human being.. ada perasaan.. ada harga diri.. Ish.. dahla ptg td agak panas.. muka aku mmg dah merah dah.. kne plak dgr kawan kene maki camtu.. darah aku mmg naik menggelegak!!.. Siall nye jantan.. sibbaik aku pk pasal bini dia tu.. kalo tak mau aku sound blk dan dan tu gak.

Aper?? Lelaki ingat, kalo dah kawin ko boleh buat aper ko suka?? GO to HELL la weii.. kalo pasal poligami, nk ikut sunnah nabi..kalo benda2 layanan pada isteri ni takmo plak ikut sunnah. Aku nye hangin td rasa cam semua kemarahan aku naik kat kepala.. sudahnya aku kene migraine.

Sampai umah, aku try call kawan aku tu.. hp dia off kan.. pehtu call rumah tak diangkat. Hmm hopefully she’s okla..

OKla.. tu jenis hubby yg baran takat tengking2 kat public je..cam bini ni takde harga diri dah.. dah lebih kurang cam maid jela. Ada gak yg jenis naik tangan kat bini. This one is ‘motherfucker’ bodussshhh nyer laki. ELok pancung sampai mati. Tak guna pun jd laki.. marah skit, naik tangan. Hbis lebam2 badan bini tu. Macam ada penyakit jiwa pun ada gak aku tgk..

Hmm.. rasanya aku cm terkesan ngan citer anak tiri tu. Ntah arr, skrg ni cam xleh nk lebeh2 tgk benda extreme skit.. rasa cam aper je.. nk nek angin je. Pesal ehh?? Takkan PMS kot..

#Tetiba rasa bersalah plak ngan apa yg berlaku semalam.. walaupun aku tak patut ada rasa tu.. bilalah hati ni nak lebih wise n firm. Sampai bila nk soft hearted ni??

Shopping Spree...

Monday, February 19, 2007

Pagi tu masing2 bz packing2 barang nk balik dah. Tho tak rasa cam camping sangat tp okla.. masing2 enjoy kumpul ramai2, sembang2, buat lawak2.. apa2 pun aku sangat penat. Tghari da janji ngan Eg nk g Ikea n mite prob g jmp syaril n gf baru dia. Then nk jmp Mr Irwan tp get updated news.. wohahhaaa..

Around 10 masing2 blk, Papa hantar aku blk umah then terus g Sg Long ngan yg lenlain. AKu ngan adek je tinggal kat umah. Siap2 n trus g Ikea. Jumpa Eg n adik2 dia kat Ikea n SHoPPiNG SpREE…

Ktorg ada beli sparkling water.. hehee.. dah lama beli da.. tapi tak minum2 lagi.. sebabnya.. takde cawan cantik nk buat minum air tu.. hahaa.. so ktorg pun belila cawan cantik.. :D, then beli set cutlery tuk makan steak.. huhuuu.. ntah apa2 saja yg Eg borong.. biasala pompuan kalo dah tgk mende2 comey ni.. mesti ada saja yg nk..

Tgh2 tgk2 barang, syaril call.. so suh dia dtg kat area ktorg tu. Get to know Rien. Perghh hot giler.. aku yg tgk pun cam ermm takmo paling dah..Orangnye kecik je..Rasanya separuh syaril je kot si Rien tu. Mamat tu plak dah semakin membesar bagaikan johan.. Perut dia macam dah nk due dah.. So happy 2gether.. tapi minah tu cam malu2 kucing arr..Then, sembang2 kejap..dia nk blah g OU with dat gurl. So biarkan mereka membelahkan diri n ktorg sambung perjuangan ktorg cari barang tuk dibeli.. :D

Lepas shoppin.. g OU plak. Punyala pelik aku.. time2 camtu pun tpt parking full lagi. Siott je.. Lepas park.. g jalan2 kat OU while waiting for Mr Irwan.. Makan kat B.King ngan Eg n adik2 dia.. Pastu g cari Nazrul kat FOS. Tapi nazrul takder.. so ktorg membelahkan diri lagi.. hehe.. dak2 tu blk.. n aku lepak kat MPH. Giler lambat Irwan ni.. aku tinggal kang ha!! Amik situ..

Sambil membaca motivation book, aku boost semangat tuk keje dgn sabar kat kontan tu.. Lately aku rasa sangat demotivated. Irwan sampai trus g Chilli’s. Well, since it was a treat for my belated b’day… its me la yg kene pilih tempat kan?? Of coursela my fav place.

Dahla aku dah bantai fries kat B.K. Pastu makan kat Chilli’s lagi. Irwan minta starter lg, pastu makanan berat lg. Memang tak habisla jawabnya.. tapi memang best arr..Cuma aku makan sampai takleh nk bgn dah.. hehe..

Pastu jenjalan kat OU kejap.. bagi turun makanan yg da dimakan.. Dekat kul 6.30, aku rasa aku perlu blk. Tiket bas blom beli lg. So g Klang jap n cari tiket.. well as expected tiket habis.. so aku akan bercuti kat sini sampai hari ahad ni. Perghh.. lama giler cuti..

So far tatau nk wat aper lg time cuti pjg ni. Wut I’ve in mind is.. to lepak kat Sg Long, umah uncle aku. Nk ikut dia g pancing udang… aku dah teraddicted ngan acara pancing udang ni. Yuhuuu… Apart than that.. aku bleh atur few dates ngan few fren yg da lama tak jumpa.. Naja, rindu kat dia dah.. pastu ayu.. lama tak jumpa anak2 dia.. then sesapa yg free n boleh dijumpai la.. hehee

Sampai kat umah, takde sapa pun kat umah. Papa g mincing udang.. aku cam dah bosan2 dok umah.. pastu ol jap.. then tatau nk wat pe. Bosan giler sehh..

Tak lama dapat call dari syaril.. He was pissed off. Yes!!! Finally. Well.. like I care :p

So as I said in the previous entry.. its either aku rasa sedih or aku rasa happy n puas.. It’s the later one. Giler rasa happy n puas. I know that girl kinda nk trap me.. but both of them pun kene blk. OKla.. the game was kinda risky tapi I manage to play well lg.. :p

Lepas ni, malas dah nk men game ngan org2 tak matang camtu.. Dah 2 kali.. lepas ni aku retire.. hehee.. enjoy ur life Mr & Mrs Syaril :p

#Mana nk cari 100k ni?? Anyone willin nk bg aku duit?? Hehee :p

Family Day..

Sunday, February 18, 2007

This is family day. Pagi2 papa bising takmo g PD. Uncle lak nk g PD. Aku cadang g air terjun je. Area Ulu langat dah biasa g. So derang takmo gak.. last2 Papa ajak g Taman Pertanian kat Shah Alam tu. Dok kat chalet dia.. rumah Selangor.. best gak.. Ptg skit g nek basikal pusing2 taman tu.. giler happening.. hahaa.. terasa kegemukan aku bila aku tak larat nk kayuh nek bukit.. huhuu… teringat zaman2 skolah dulu.. kenangan… kenangan…

Then jalan2 kat kebun buah dia.. part ni tak beshh sebab kebun buah takde buah.. bosan.. harap je byk pokok durian.. satu pun tak berbuah..

Malam plak.. g teman uncle n papa g mancing.. mula2 pancing ikan.. pastu pancing udang plak.. hehee.. mlm tu dok plak nk masak aper esok.. padahal esoknya sume dah penat..

Mlm tu time siap2 nk tdo.. men msg ngan syaril.. then ada gurl yg jawabkan on behalf of him. Yea..finally, dia kuarkan gak awek dia yg dia dok sorok2 selama ni. A good mother of 4yrs ol son. Well, lately syaril kinda attracted to Gen, no matters Gen 1, Gen 2 or Gen 3.. it doesn’t matter as long as they r hot n spicy… hehee.. syaril has a very high taste what.. be a good fren of Rien..

She kinda trying to be nice wif me.. aku pun juz being nice.. :p tapi kalo blh tgk aper yg aku n eg tgk tadi.. ermm... P pun tau nk differentiate.. suke ati ko la syaril. Mlm tu mmg aku jadi jahat.. dah aku nk tdo penat.. dia sibuk nk sms.. ha amik ko.. sumer yg ko nk tau.. aku bitau..!!

Sucks!!.. tetiba rasa cam tanduk kuar kat kepala.. well, in a day or two sure syaril akan mengamuk.. n aku nantikan saat2 tu... either aku akan rasa sedih or.. aku rasa happy n puas!!

What goes around comes around kata Justin Timberlake..

#Bilalah nk dewasa.. cant wait to get out!!

Day afta

Saturday, February 17, 2007

G clinic in the morning(sibbaik bukak).. get to know what the hell is wrong wif me.. amik another shot.. which cost me another 130.. giler bapakk mahal.. huhuu..habis duit aku…She said, mite b ada complication on the last op. so mite be kene operate.. hmm tgk jerla camne nanti.. hopefully takderla teruk sangat.

Noon, headed to Taman Jaya, park kete kat sana n nek LRT to Central Market. Giler lama tak g area sana.. last sekali rasanya last year kot.. around may ke jun ntah.. mmg dah lama sangat tak g area2 sana tu. Rindu rasanya… Jumpa Yazi, then jenjalan kat PS. Memborong baju yg tgh sale giler2.. hahaa.. tak hingat dunia kalo dah start membeli.. tak sedar takde duit.. tapi shoppin ttp shoppin.. rabak gakla serat.

Then, layan Nando’s.. Got kura2 yg sangat comey...thanks Zi.. muahss muahss...lepak2 lagi. Jenjalan kat Kotaraya plak.. gilakk arr sumer dah berubah.. hehe
Tetiba rasa cam org kg baru sampai Bandar.. hahahaa..
Menyusuri jalan2 penuh kenangan.. hehe.. melalui tempat2 kenangan terindah.. hahaa..

Pastu rasa2 nk petang.. My bro dah call.. dia nk guna car. Ada penyampaian ijazah silat dia malam tu.. so dia nk guna WNK gak.. takmo plak guna BJG.. hehe.. Sibbaik BGX takde.. kalo tak aku suh bawa BGX je.. :p

Lepas muah2 kiri kanan ngan yazi, aku blk nek train blk sampai Taman Jaya.. Kinda excited plak nek train.. setelah sekian lama tak nek train.. hello org Kontan.. aku dah nek tren blk.. hahaa

Malam tu, melayan abang keyll. Lama dia tak jumpa aku, so adib call suh aku g umah uncle jap.. sementara abang ada kat sini. Sat g dia dah terbang ntah bila nk jumpa.. Lepak sat ngan dia.. pastu blk umah.. n tdo.. hehe.. MIGRAINN!!!

Balik Kl...

Jumaat, February 16, 2007

Balik KL ngan Eg n Haiza kul 2.43pm. Guess what, sampai LRT Putra Gombak kul 5. Which less than 2 jam setengah perjalanan dari Kuantan ke KL. Walah weii.. Eg power.. :p

Sampai KL je.. rasa cam best giler bila dapat hirup udara KL.. ahahaa.. giler homesick!!

Eg drop kat LRT stesen… pehtu aku amik train g KJ. Earlier call syasya suh amik.. then aku call papa suh amik. Actually aku nk blk ngan papa.. tapi saja nk tgk syasya nk amik aku ke tak.. just nk tgk dia care lg ke tak.. hehee.. :p

Dalam train tu.. aku sms syasya kate takyh amik..aku blk ngan member lain. Terus dia call. Td time dlm kete pun dah marah2 suh call kalo sampai.. call kalo sampai.. ek elle cam aku ni awek dia plak. :p

Dia merajuk aku blk ngan org len.. biaq p situ.. like I care.. biar kita sakitkan hati org dari org sakitkan hati kita.. tul tak?? :p

Papa amik kat KJ. Huhuuu rindu giler kat Papa.. cium2, peluk2 papa sat… pastu blk umah.. Daddy’s gurl is home.. G amik dayah n ieka kat skul then blk umah. Adek call tanya if aku dah blk.. best giler sumer berkumpul kat umah.. dengar citer aku dari kuantan.. dengar citer adek sal dia g shoppin..

Then, aku bagi angpau kat sumer..Papa, Mama n Adek dapat sorang serat, adik2 yg len dapat maploh.. heehee.. rabak gakla.. huhuu.. Hmm dah start membagi da skrg ni..hehe.. okla tu dari takde kan..

Dinner sama2… rindunye suasana cam ni. Dah lama giler tak makan sesame.. rindu.. mama nyer rindu ngan aku sampai nangis time peluk cium aku.. hehe.. anak mama gak.. hehe

Horoscope..

About Aquarius:

Clever, friendly, kind and humane, Aquarians are the easiest people to make friends with but probably the hardest to really know. They are often more comfortable with aquaintances than with those who are close to them. Being dutiful, they would never let a member of their family go without their basic requirements, but they can be strangely, even deliberately, blind to their underlying needs and real feelings. They are more comfortable with causes and their idealistic ideas than with the day-to-day routine of family life. Their homes may reflect this lack of interest by being rather messy, although there are other Aquarians who are formed early in life and are firmly fixed.

Being patient with people, make them good teachers, and are always willing to learn something new. But are they willing to go out and earn a living? Some are, many are not. These people can be extremely eccentric in the way they dress or the way they live. They make a point of being 'different' and they can usually feel very unsettled and uneasy if made to conform, even outwardly. Their restless, sceptical minds mean that they need an alternate kind of lifestyle which streches them mentally.

In relationships, they are surprisingly constant and faithful and they only stray when they know in their hearts that there is no longer anything to be gained from staying put. Aquarians are often very attached to the first real commitment in their lives and they can even re-marry a previously divorced partner. Their sexuality fluctuates, perhaps peaking for some years then pushed aside while something else occupies thier energies, then high again.

Divorce Rate For Aquarius:
This sign does not divorce too easily, as this is the intellectual sign and both sexes think very carefully before they commit themselves. They are strong characters and hard to please, but usually they manage to find a partner to suit them. The Aquarius male likes women to be women so he can play the male of the species, but he is sometimes a little unreliable and finds another partner. The woman Aquarius is dominating in the marriage, but with a milder man she will be happy. Sometimes she likes to pursue a career instead.

Dear Mel,
Here is your love horoscope for Wednesday, February 14:

Cupid's arrows are all over the place now and the way love's going may not make a whole lot of sense. Don't try to overthink it; there's little in the way of rhyme or reason at the moment.

Here is your love horoscope for Thursday, February 15:

Your day may start slow or sleepy, but by this afternoon, expect to be in fast-forward and wide awake. You're so bright-eyed and energetic, it's downright cute -- in the best, most attractive way.

Hehee.. since bila plak aku into these horoscope thingy..?? Hahaa... ntahla..
"You're so bright-eyed and energetic, it's downright cute -- in the best, most attractive way."

Semalam ada org wish Valentine Day kat Cik Suci Ameliya Reza ni.. hahaa.. finally dia ingat nama penuh aku :p.. thanks fer the wish ya :p

Lama tak sembang ngan dia.. aku baru tau few changes yg tlah berlaku kat dia.. Dia adalah sangat sensitif skrg ni. Sory eh.. Dia adalah sangat happy with girls keliling pinggang dia.. Chaiyyokk!!!

"Adalah lebih baik kita sakitkan hati orang dari orang sakitkan hati kita"
Aku masih seperti dulu yang percayakan kata2 kawan... Rupanya.. kawan masih belum matang.. Takper kawan.. takes ur time untuk menjadi dewasa.. :D

# Hehee.. syasya will pick me up kat Eg's place esok.. :D Sibbaik ada savior.. lalalaa..

Eg,
hahaa.. we'll c wut happened esok eh.. tak sabar nk tgk sandiwara semasa.. :D

p/s: If let say, i said nasty things in my blog.. its my word.. if i get angry, n wrote nasty things.. bare with me.. I mite say nasty things but it just for that time being.. DUn take it into heart.. PLUS!!! Please read my fuckin DISCLAIMER b4 read my blog..
Aku marah.. time2 tu je.. pastu aku ok dah!! So takyah nk bg marah aku berlanjut2.. Im kewl wut!!

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Happy V-Day

Had an interesting chat topic with a fren just now.. hahahaa..
Kinda evryone sorta worry to tell me wut actually happened..
Thanks to Mr MBI for tellin me the story n to Mr ABA for the confirmation..
Hehehee.. can't stop laughin yet.. huhuuu
I knew it long time ago...
La.. hp tu bukan satu je.. byk lg.. macam2 jenis.. macam2 saiz.. macam2 warna.. macam2 function.. so tinggal pilih je kan.. bukan susah.. Ada duit sumer jalan.. erkk.. kene guna duit ke??

This morning My darling marling was on air on HOTZ FM..
"Kita bersama Salman Khan Malaysia..." N I was.. who the hell is salman khan malaysia? N dun tell me its My darling marling..
"Yea.. anda bersama saya Hans Isaac and..."
Hello.. he's far away better than Salman Khan ok.. :p

Can't wait to watch that KKKI movie.. nway the only reason is bcoz My darling marling is there.. ehehe.. :p

He knew his fault.. try to cover by callin me late last nite.. skali nk wish V-day.. hehe.. but I was so tired so tak ckp pe pun.. just press the answer button.... n let him speak alone.. bukan terasa or apa.. just malas nk cakap aper.. in fact malas nk gaduh k!.. Suka atila nak buat per.. nak hidup ke nak mati ke.. suker ati!!

Bro,
erm.. bukan terasa hati ke aper ngan ur sms.. it just that i was so tired. semalam lepas dinner blk umah n BUMM!! terus tdo.. hehe.. penat giler.. so wutever it is.. serah kat u.. u decide n tell me.. hehe.. i'm ok what.. ahakss... I'll b in KL on 16 but mesti sampai dah mlm.. so 17 till 19.. free kot.. My B'day presents ok.. (2 tahun nyer kan?? ahakss :p)

# Can't wait to c the OU!! Hahaha.. :p

Hell damn!!

WARNING.. I'm using hell's language.. Don't continue as you find it too much!!



I had a bad day. It was a long day though.. n I was so damn fukcin tired. Yesterday's class was too much, adding todays giving me so much pressure.

Hello!!!
I was paid to demonstrate not to PREPARE.. you fuckin idiot!!

If I was the one who give instruction then put all the blame on me.. I wont bother that much bcoz its my fukcin fault. But it was the lecturer's instruction. He gave me the instruction on the dot.. so wut do you expect??

Just like yesterday's session, I was the one who gave instruction so it would be my fault if the good great buah hati pengarang jantung kerbau!! cannot prepare things coz instruction was given on the dot. But then, still my honey darlin marling manage to help me out... She alone though..

2days lab was supposed to be assisted by 2 ppl.. n where the fukcin hell they've been.. izzit my job to call them to get sumthing.. hey.. use ur fukcin brain la.. I can do anything you know.. if I wanna be a real asshole, I better make it worth my ass.. this fella.. oh demm.. God please give me patience..

Next time make sure, u show fukcin face on my lab.. otherwise.. arghhh.... can't think straight rite now.. DEMMMM HELLLL!!!

# Why izzit org yg dah nk mati concern sal org yg akan ditinggalkan.. biaq p aku la nk jd aper pun.. :( :( :((

Jerawat..

Dowh... muka aku kuar jerawat yg besar giler.. huhuu..

Td time class, for the first time lepas jerawat besar ni kuar.. my students were like saying "Eh apa yg lain kat muka kak suci arini?"
Aku pun cam.. cuak gakla.. ada apa?
Derang dok gelak ramai2 kata aku ada jerawat..hampehss dak2 ni.. dahla aku lapar time tu..kelam kabut class aku.. ngan preparation yg ntah paper ntah.. cam hampehss je.. huhuu...

Muka aku.. huhuu.. walaupun muka ni takla cantik mana.. tapi tetap dijaga wut.. haha.. bila dah kuar jerawat sebesar kacang.. rasa cam nk picit je.. Dahla time nk tunggu dak2 tu habis buat keje.. Muzam suh aku pecahkan jerawat tu guna vacum.. dak2 tu siap nk carikan aku paip siap.. Sabar jela..

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Syasya dah tau aku tak nk blk pun ngan dia.. Selama ni cam lebih tu the revenge thingy.. sorryla honey cayang bucuk buah hati pengarang jantung lembu!.. Salah sekali, itu pengalaman.. Salah dua kali tu bangang!!.. Nasib la.. at least u merasa gak kene 'main' :p

Dah selama ni asik pekena pompuan je.. mehla.. aku plak kenekan ko.. ingat bagus sangat.. anyway.. tho dia tak byr duit aku pun.. aku dah rasa puas hati la.. ni jer pun yg aku nk.. hehe..

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Aku kelighu.. huhuu
Aku kelighu.. huhuu
Aku kelighu.. huhuu
(hahaa... lama tak dengar stetment tu..) tapi kali ni mmg aku kelighu.. huhuu

Orang tanya.. asal umur dah tua tapi cam budak2.. cam remaja la kunun2nya.. cam layan menda2 yg dak2 remaja layan..
Ermm.. kalo aku, aku jawab senang je.. sebab time aku budak2 dulu tak puas lg.. pastu.. time remaja dulu tak hbs explore lg.. pastu.. aku umur je tua kot.. hahaa.. tapi jiwa masih muda.. wakakaka...
Kalo aku yg baru 25 (ulang.. baru 25 ye.. haha) pun dah terasa tua.. gimana la agaknya perasaan org2 yg dah mencecah 30 tu yer.. or maybe dah capai kepala 3.. n nak masuk kepala 4 plak.. hehe.

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So... V-day is 2 days away.. wut to do?? Bf2 jauh.. huuhuuu.. scandal pun cam takde je kat sini.. Bosan touq.. taktau nk wat pe.. Syasya plak dah marah so sah2la takkan dia nk turun Kontan. Haihh.. asal tak tunggu lepas V-day ehh.. hahaa

Semalam aku ngan Eg sengal, plan mende2 yg ktorg nk buat time V-day.. ahaahahaa..
Target area - TC
Target victim - Couple2 yg tgh ngedate kat sana..
Target sasaran.. hahaa - bagi bunga kat bf2 derang sambil kata.. "Ehh sorryla u tunggu lama.. ehh u bawa adik u ke.. lawa adik u.."
Expected result : Pastu bf masing2 blk ngan bekas tangan kat muka.. pasni kalo hot fm buat topic pagi as kenangan time V-day.. mesti dak2 kontan yg kene tu je yg tepon.. haha.. erm.. tahap kesengalan aku dah semakin tinggi.. aku perlukan ubat..
Eg, ko kene tambah stok.. rasanya ko da hbskan sumer 'ubat' kat umah tu.. Kali ni yg vanilla plak ehh..

# Entry kali ni merapu skit.. layan Eg. hehee.. Layan eg ehh..layan...

You'll think of me - Keith Urban

Eg was lookin for 'jiwang' songs when suddenly my eyes catch this song.. I heard it last year but then forget about it.. hehe.. now I'm listening to this song again.. Its a great song though.. ihikss..
* EG, this song is dedicated especially for you... give it to Mr Scumbag.. hehe :p

I woke up early this morning around 4 a.m.
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
And ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's ok, there's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been,
or what we should have been, so...

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
But don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you, and on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
but you’ll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cap and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me oh yeah
Ohh someday baby, someday
Ooohh…

#Hahaa... second proposal?? Wutta heck.. nvr ever repeat the same mistake... its suxsss!!

Snake on the plane...

Well, just got the oppurtunity to watch this movie.. Pirate DVD :D
Penat aku jerit2 ngan Onah kat lab EG ni.. EG yg beriya nk tgk movie ni.. dia plak yg lari.. hampehss tul.

Petang td, check duit.. hehe.. dpt duit dah.. so lari g Megamall n borong 6 DVDs.. hahaa.. pastu melayan arr.. Baru layan 2 .. ada lg 4 to go..

Zi, aku cari Happy Birthday dah sold out arr... hampehss

Nway, a fren of mine tgh face one big problem which none of us pun tak mampu nk tlg dia.. I know its hard for her.. I've gone thru that phase b4.. n its hard for the first one.. lepas tu.. it should be no problem dah...

Aku tak reti nk pujuk.. tapi just see the 'hikmah' k. U'll know later.. that scumbag will regret such decision.. well, u got the best example.. the best model.. when he got dumped then its the time for u to turn his life upside down.. That bloody moron motherfucker!!

# Dah kuar hospital.. in his resting time.. take care.. c ya in a week time...

Rentetan...

Semalam pagi2 Papa dah sms wish b'day. Pastu g lab, aku dah membz kan diri kat lab nahar. Nak update antivirus yg giler bapakkkk power..kat bawah tu.. susah skit nk dpt signal Digi so aku nyer hp mmg tak berapa nk berfungsi ngan baikla semalam.

Time lunch kuar sat.. ha amik situ.. punyala byk sms masuk. Thanks for the wishes.. :D
Pastu call dr rumah pun tak dapat nk jawab sebab cam putus2. Ptg2 skit tepon Papa.. sekalihnya.. dowhhh mama dah nangis risau sebab tak dapat call aku semalam. Rasa bersalah giler2.. haiyyoo..

Adeke mama kata aku tak rindu kat mama.. dah sahsahla aku rindu.. kalo tak..takkan la ari2 aku call.. cuma takla ari2 dapat cakap ngan mama. Bila aku cakap ngan papa, papa tak bitau mama aku call.. tu yg cam jadi hal plak.. Semalam adik2 aku dah bising sms marah2 kata aku takde call mama dah 2 hari.. aiyoo.. Ma, sorry k.. semalam tu dah call cuma cakap ngan papa.. Cayang mama.. rindu aper ngan mama.. uhuhuu

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Mummy call semalam. Hmm.. Mummy Iwan dah suh aku call dia mummy ;)
Mulanya aku ingat Iwan yg call, yer arr dah dia call guna no iwan.. tetiba cam kat sana suara mummy cam dah lain.. aku dah pk bukan2 dah.. control voice aku tanya slow2..
"Mummy, is evrything ok?" Suara mummy calm je.. aku plak yg cuak...
"Melia, Iwan faint just now..He's with Dr. Dun worry too much k...I'm sure he'll b ok"
I was in hell for a while.. rasa limb sume dah lembik giler.. takkanla cepat sangat.. He should has another 3-4 months to go.. Not that soon...

I was out of my mind, call mama.. tell him about Iwan.. but as expected, mama suh stay away.. im gonna hurt myself nanti.. Mom, he's dying.. Tak bleh ke tolerate skit.. tetiba cam rasa kecik ati ngan mama.. Sorry Ma..

Dan2 rasa nk blk KL. I should be there by his side.. tetiba rasa cam ada tears.. Tetiba rasa cam giving up on him.. Aku kene kuat kalo nk terus camni. tapi aku rasa aku tak kuat.. nangis dalam keadaan macam ni mmg sakit.. pulak mlm tu.. eg kuar... aku makin rasa tertekan.. sibbaik eg kuar kejap je.. Sms yazi.. demm.. nape jd camni?? Nway.. thats the risk yg aku kene terima..

Give me strength God, Please...

Aku terus main sms ngan yazi n mummy.. sampai dah dekat kul 11.30pm, mummy tak sms dah. Aku cam ingat.. maybe mummy letih n nk tdo.. so nvm la.. tapi mata aku rasa cam takmo lelap.. aku tak mandi sebab taku nanti mummy call.. aku dlm blk air.. aku baring je tunggu any call.. NAK BALIK KL cam org giler dah semalam.. huhuuu..

Eg nk bg duit dah smlm kalo aku nk blk KL. Yazi pun dah nk pjmkan duit.. tapi pk gak. sampai KL kang nyusahkan mummy plak nk amik aku. Adehh.. sengal gak aku ni. Tak henti2 berdoa agar dia bertahan.. Kadang2 terpk gak asal aku nk amik risiko since aku dah tau ending camne... tapi bg aku as long as aku dapat membahagiakan dia..ok dah kot.. at least aku tau.. aku ada dalam hati dia disaat2 terakhir dia..

Eg n nana trying to calm me down semalam. Thanks guy.. Sampai kul 12.45am ada msg masuk. He's back.. He sent me sms..
" Hi dah tidur ke? U jgn sedih2 k. Be strong. I know its difficult but just take it as hurdle in life. Miss u. Take care."

Well, aku reply n then rasa lega skit.. Tapi aper yg aku nampak at sini.. I'm d one yg sepatutnya jd kuat tuk dia.. camne Mummy jd kuat tuk anak tunggal dia. Tapi aku lemah.. aku tak sekuat mummy.. im not a person yg dia boleh rely on.. Bilala aku nk kuat??

Pastu, hati dah lega skit. aku mandi n tdo..

Pagi2 give him a morning call.. then dia bebel sal kepala dia sakit terhantuk kat tangga time dia pengsan semalam.. Lepas dah gayut sat.. rasa cam mls nk g keje.. cari kunci kete tak jumpa... pastu aku bukak tudung n sambung tdo blk.. pastu Iwan call lg.. sembang kejap.. pastu aku siap2 nk g uia. Masalah pelupa aku mkn critical.. aku letak kunci dlm beg.. aku cari kat mana2 ntah.. mana nk jumpa.. hampehss..

#Get well soon K.. Blk KL nnt blh tgk wayang sesama.. :p

KAK ELIN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! MUAHSSS

The 25 years old

Malas nk apdet kat blog ni..
Nway.. I had evrything in detail kat fotopages..

Just click here

Thanks fer the wish ya...
Muahss...

I'm getting 'younger'

Layan jijoi kat koke jamban..hahaa

Dua budak comell.. :D

Muka ngantuk @3.30am

Kaki sapa lagi comey??

Supper @3.40am @ McD

Going back @4am

Blurr.. arghh

Some of us..

Lepas kene tarik cam dugong kat pantai tu.. habis pasir masuk dalam baju suar sumer.. hampehss nye muzammm!!

Gaya ala2 ayu gitu.. hahaa

Slack arr tak nampak pantai.. posing dah cantekk tu.. :p

Alhamdulillah, aku masih hidup sampai ke umur macam ni. Despite all the problems happened all the way of my life.. rasanya evrything was planned perfectly by God. Thanks God.

Semalam was kinda hectic day.. I was so fucking stressed out semalam.. sampai rasanya dah lama gak aku tak nangis.. tapi semalam sampai few times gak aku melalak.. hahaa.. lega giler lepas lepaskan segalanya thru tears n sobbing. Thanks for callin me n listen to the melody of my cries.. (appreciate that!! )

Petang tu, jijoi dah nampak gak ketensenan aku.. so dia mmg tlg baekk punyer kelas biochem tu. Pastu plan nk tgk wayang reramai.. then lepak kat TC. Balik keje.. straight away to home.. get ready.. g makan reramai.. then g Megamall..

Tgk citer The Unseeable.. citer thai yg tak satu pun dari ktorg paham.. citer tu pasal apa.. hehe.. pastu hbs tgk wayang.. bantai lepak kat 'koke jamban'. Aku dah ngantuk..bila jijoi nyanyi je.. terus segar bugar mata.. hehe..

Pehtu.. lepak kat TC sampai kul 4am. Tak sempat nak tgk matahari terbit.. Malam ni plan nk tgk matahari terbit.. mesti best giler.. wakakaka..

# Tarikh yg sama.. tarikh yg aku akan ingat sampai bila2.. the worst b'day i ever had.. huuuhuuu

Berikan aku cinta suci...

Semalam tuan rumah dah sms tanya duit sewa..aiyyoo.. duit tgh sengkek ni.. uitm bengong tu tak bank in kan duit aku lg. Sengkek gakla bulan ni.. ngan papa minta belikan tiket balik kg lagi..huhuu.. tgh pk2 mana aku nk korek duit semalam, tetiba bila cek acc bank.. tetiba je ada duit yg agak byk yg memungkinkan aku belikan papa tiket blk kg bulan april ni. Hoyyeee...

Tanya punya tanya, takde sapa yg mengaku dah bank in kan aku duit.. cuma ada sorang je yg aku tak tanya lagi.. miahahaa.. mgkn dia kot.. tapi tatau gakla kan.. duit tu dah hbs guna pun tuk beli tiket, byr sewa rumah, byr hutang2 yg patut, pastu nk servis kete lagi.. kira nk ganti blk duit nahar.. hutang piutang sume setel la ehh.. :D

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Semalam gak, sampai2 umah eg campak card tuk aku.. ihikss.. got a card from iwan.. :D
Aderke awal seminggu.. dia kta dia takut nanti bila dia nk pos, dia sakit ke.. tak larat ke.. so dia pos awal.. okla.. advance wish of the year.. thanks so muchhsss.. tgh2 tak larat camtu pun.. still ingat kat i ehh :p

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Dah seminggu aku dok dgr lagu ni kat radio.. baru pagi ni baru aku tau siapa penyanyi dia.. hehe.. bukan aper, vocalist dia dok sebut 'Berikan aku cinta SUCI'.. aku cam angin la.. hahaahaa..

Mau tak angin.. ingat blh men bagi2 camtu jeke cinta aku ni..hahaa.. :p eg ko jgn gelak sangat ehh.. ahhaa

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Zi, finally aku dah kuarkan airmata yg tertahan tu.. thanks.. release gak aper yg terbuku selama ni.. hehe..

Macam baju n purse ehh?? Nak matching2 je.. kalo tak matching tukarla yg lain kan.. Mgkn kadang2 sebab dah terpaksa so terpaksala pakai baju n purse yg tak matching tu.. Nanti bila dah jumpa yg sesuai n matching.. tukar jela purse tu.. pastu campak je purse yg lama. tak pun matchingkan ngan baju yg lain.. uihss.. dalam maksudnya ni.. :p

#Mampu ke nak hadapi perpisahan yg kekal?? Hanya pusara pengubat rindu? Am I that strong??