Hye.. Jakarta posting..

Here I'm still in Jakarta. Rasa happy kat sini.. macam taknak blk plak.. hehe.. Nothing much pun was done here but still I'm enjoying my time with my cozins n my relatives over here. Maklumla jumpa bertahun sekali so time jumpa ni.. aku mmg enjoy habis2an ahhh...

Didn't go to much places.. But tempat wajib.. I went to Dufan Ancol. Kagak berani atuh nyoba wahana 'TORNADO'. Hehee.. aku kan penakut.

Ohya.. my nenek sedara passed away. Don't know her much.. but please sedekahkan fatihah for her.(I dunno her name.. sorry). So the trip not used to the fullest.. kan lagi bersedih atuhhh...

So sorry ya, dun expect anything from me coz I'm using my money sebudget mgkn. kagak habis sejuta.. hehe.. aku nk guna duit lebih tu tuk beli barang2 laptop yg jahanam tu.. jd. harap dimaafkan ya.. lagi suntuk nih..

OK, I'll be back tomorrow, InsyaAllah.. doa'in keselamatan aku ehh...

* Ada org rindu ngan aku ehh.. hehehe...

A day away..

Went to UIA to settle the Master application n finally evrything is done!.
Then, pampered myself with a little shopping spree.. yihaaaa....
Though budget is very limited, I had myself a sexy lingerie. hehee.. What to do.. suddenly i feel like wanna b sexy :p

Then straight go home.. n here I'm. Ermm... I'm goin to jakarta tomorrow morning but still I'm worried about the budget.. huwaaa i need lotz of money..

My notebook can't be used unless I get him a new harddisk n perhaps a new RAM. But at the moment, I dun feel like asking money from Papa again so I need to wait until I get my payment. Dowhh when am I going to be rich??

Had a nice sms'ing with my long distance cozin (erk or whatever they may call it). It's been a while not in touch with him. In fact, I haven't meet him for the past 12 years until last raya. Hehe.. Now he's a Leftenan at TLDM ermm or he said, Kapten Navy. he used to be very skinny n i used to kinda hd a crush on him.. wakakkaaa.. now he's a man with muscle. Unluckily he got engaged last january.. haha..

He was in Labuan b4 n now he's continue his study (i dunno what actually they learn) to get the promotion(naik pangkat kah?).. after leftenan what ehh?? he's in Lumut. Perhaps he can teach me golf and introduce me to richer guy out there... he said 'U haven't change a bit ehh. Still naughty like b4.'
Hehee.. When he ask me to send his regards to his om n tante (which are my parents la kan), i ask him to send my regards to all hot guys over his place... he call me n bantai gelak.. hehe..

Am I dat desperate? Huh!

Okla.. I'm going.. c ya when I come back!!

Be patience Cici...

I'm kinda out of my mind rite now..
So many things at one time.. I'm not blaming anyone.. but last nite I was so down that i almost put the blame on.... but then I realize this is all the test I've got from Allah. I gotta be patience and face it wisely..

My lpc was jahanam n asked nahar to at least retrieve some document for me but unluckily, he couldnt save a thing. Not even that F hard disk. I don't bother about the hard disk. I can buy the new one, or the better one.. but the files i got in there.. My 3 months masters material. Everything is gone. I did a copy on my thumb drive but it was affected by virus n I lost everything. Not a thing is retrieved n I'm really out of my mind. I wish this trip will wash away all the problems and I'll feel better.. I hope.. I really hope.. God help me on this please...

I'm having class this thursday and not much to prepare as we've prepared most of the things earlier. But still feel guilty leave the class on Dr Raj alone. Sorry Sir. i really need a break!!

Some of it, i rather not to expose it here.. I'll take care of it myself.

This morning, when I'm about to get my ass out of d house, I couldn't find the key. Sorry, I was really pissed off coz there's no key left n how on earth I'm gonna get out of that house.. Keep cursing all the way looking for that F key. Since I was so late.. I went out thru back door! Found my key at the backseat of my car. Damn irritated.. I was so freaking mad!! Bengang tahap dewa19 da tau tak!!!!

Once I reach campus, straight to Dr Jalal room but he's not around. Damn I'm late. Warghhh sangat tersiksa arini.. I wanna send the lpc to the town of they can retrieve the documents in there.. Pray for me guys!!


#Going back this evening with full of stone on my head..

So tired..

Ketensinan sebab kejahanaman laptop menyebabkan aku mengisi masa sepenuhnya dgn activity berfaedah..

Aku membizikan diri dgn keje2 aku yg memang berlambak tu. Skrg ni dr raj nk minta aku culture pokok durian plak.. sah sahla aku mmg suka durian kan... haha..

Since masa digunakan sepenuhnya, adalah dimaklumkan aku adalah sangat bz. Arini nk bukak posa ngan nazrol moin. Ha terkejut ko.. aku pun cam tak caya gak.. in a week 2 skulmate aku jumpa.. dahtu dia ajak aku kuar tgh mlm td.. gilo apo.. ajak anak dara org kuar tgh2 malam.. so set the date today.. wakaka.. :D

Anyway.. i'm away for jakarta next wednesday.. tp bergantung gak pada permission from big boss ni.. I need lotzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz of MONEY!!! Sesiapa rasa dia da kaya tu.. silala dermakan skit kat budak cute ni ha.. hehe..

Till then, ADIOS..

#Bila putera raja nk ngorat aku nih.. huhuu

Kehilangan...

My laptop dah jahanam..




I'm so tensed!!!! Adakah dia merajuk sebab aku ngan nana gurau2 nk beli laptop kaler2?? huhuuu

Nway.. get away with the laptop thingy fer a while.. I need a break!!!

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Husni, aru n their fren ( I couldn't recall his name) were visiting me last monday. I wasn't well remember.. so they just pay a visit for a 'sick' fren. I guess Aru is getting hotter each time I meet him.. hohooo.. (Papa sangat melarang aku meminati kaum India) hehee.. Anyway, nice meeting plus knowing the other guy who turn to be personal trainer kinda exciting a bit. I need his help to reduce the spare tyre I got here n there.. hohooo..

Last nite, prepare media for class until almost 2am. I left those guys to do the rest. My eyes are hardly open. Seyes yesterday kinda hard day. Plus ptg tu i was preparing so much thing which make me so tired like hell..

Okla.. mite prop I wont b able to update the blog frequently coz my laptop is JAHANAM!! Any1 nk belikan laptop baru?? huwaaa.. i need my laptop!!


# Rasa sangat tertekan tanpa kehadiran laptop tercinta.. huhuhhh

Sunday sengal II

1. Blogging..

Some ppl who used to blog found blogging is wasting time n kinda stupid things to do which in return we'll get nothing. Thats what they said, but for me.. blogging is one way of getting all the tense out of my neuro.. hehe.. :D

I blog when I wanted to. I don't expect u ppl to read my blog. No need for u to read my blog coz I'm blogging due to my own satisfaction. In fact for my own good. Sometimes, we just dunno how to reveal something that we really need to ppl to know in a good way (should I say??hehe), so I blog. It doesn't matter if the message is reveal or not at least I dun hv to feel likesomethingwrongsomewhere..

2. Last wiken..

Ni keje dak2 sengal yg takde keje.. haha.. cam gatai nk kawin.. :p

Nk menyibuk gak tangan dia tu..

We had a very busy wiken last week. Since out house is reaching the level of hutansimpanIM15 coz the lalang is very panjang2 and I'm afraid if later on there's mr n mrs snake menumpanghidup over there so I asked Ros to get ppl who can can rid all of those lalang. Ermm.. panggil abang2 yg tebas rumput tu la. Almaklum our new neighbour nyer house looks like a very good one but ours look like hutansimpanIM15. Mana bleh kalah.. ehehee..

So to be the story to told..hehe.. sat morning, 2 guys come n tolong potong rumput2 n lalang2 tu sampai clear halaman tu. Rasa cam sejuk mata memandang.. :D. Some of the girls g picnic to kolam UIA.. actually temankan n tolong the guys pasang net so that later on bila they but fishing competition during Independence Day, ikan tu takleh lari to tpt2 yg tak sepatutnya. So bila they went to picnic, mestila ada makan2.. in the morning, evryone was so busybody cooking. 3 menu for the whole day.. hehe.. Bihun ros (yg da gatai nk kawin :p), nasi goreng kampung noi (amir kata nasi goreng rumput??haha) and nasi goreng sardin rab yg sangat marbeles coz ada telur.. hehe.

Then, the gurls went 4 d picnic n tinggal la the 3 gurls yg bagai nk rak patah pinggang sakit jantung lenguh2 badan do the cleaning. Start from the house yg da brapa bulan tak kemas kot (hohoo), then halaman yg dah di bersihkan.. the guys cuma potong rumput n kumpul je so we kene put them in plastic bag b4 throw them away.

Then, penat2 keje..(me n ros) while noi do the cooking part. Yummy.. penat2 keje pastu da ada lunch.. bukankah tersangatla best? The menu: Sambal udang petai, Telur itik masak lemak and sayur kangkung goreng belacan. I'm getting fatter.. damn!!

Pastu all of us terbongkang tdo sampai kul 7. hehee

3. Sunday part..

We cooked Mee Kari yesterday yg tersangat sedap sampai some of us tak merasa sebab ktorg yg kat umah da baham sume.. wakakakaa..





I think pictures describe better. :D

4. Harry Potter, The order of the phoenix

Went to watch Happy Potter last nite @10. 9 of us alltogether (Nahar, pokya, noi, nana, onah, ros, rab, eg n me). I dunno why but I found the movie rather boring and not attractive at all. The feeling watching this sequel of Harry Potter didn't give me any excitement I used to hv when watching the previous seq.

As an initial reaction, I was very disappointed in a majority of the film. I felt they could have slowed the pace for several scenes, esp. after the battle - what happened to Harry's outburst at Dumbledore? I was hoping for a more emotional performance. Also, they cut way too much of the battle between Sirius and Bellatrix. They totally screwed up the death scene, he's supposed to fall! On a positive note, I loathed Umbridge (as we should) and loved Luna and the Weasley twins' performances. I think the twins expose their selves up.. which is good. I just love them..

Maybe its due to the bunch of stupid guys who eat the binatangharam. So fucking stupid, bodoh macam tak pernah tgk wayang.. do all the stupid things. Rasa cam nk penampar je. Bodoh!!

Anyway.. those who loves the Harry Potter, go n get ur tix. But for me.. its not worth to watch pun.. giler bosan.. sampai ngantuk2 aku dibuatnya.. anyway.. Harry getting handsome.. he's losing his cuteness.. heheh..

Tempered..

Will there be a time like this in d future?? Ppl change n we must adapt with the changes..

"Bukan ku tak sudi kasih...
Untuk bersama mu bercinta lagi...
Kerna antara kita
Tidak sehaluan lagi...

Maafkan diriku sayang...
Menolak cinta mu kali ini...
Walau pun ku tahu...
Bersungguh benar hasrat hatimu.."


Hari ni?
I was under a bit pressure hmm due to heartfeelingthingy..
I thought as its over, so no more.. tp since the girl yg beriya wanted to hv a fren relationship.. sekalinya her bf get in touch with me again... n ermm.. I'm still hot stuff.. wakakakakaaa.. so nk dijadikan citer ermm.. takde paperla..
Abaikan.. I'm not in d mood nk citer.. bosan..

OK, salute to the lab assistants coz bertungkus lumus mengemas n did the cleaning to their lab. Good, ada perubahan n each lab looks clean n tidy. Tapi ni la masalahnya, I dunno where on earth they put my stuff n I spent most of the time cari barang. Which the F words tak berenti kuar dari my mouth. I lost my temper. N aku banting all the cabinet door.. nasib la sapa suh alih brg2 pastu aku tatau mana nak cari. Sibbaik my leg feeling better n aku da bleh nk berlari2 sakan though still tak brani nk naik turun tangga yg tinggi2.. kalo takat 2-3 anak tangga tu aku pejam mata je.. ehehehe..

Seyes, arini keje nonstop.. unless time media was autoclaved.. selain dari tu.. I make used my time to the fullest! Sibbaik sume setel da.. tunggu nk balun buat media 8L next week.. Chaiyyooo..

Papa dah call td tanya if I wanna go home. He'll come n fetch me. Risau papa anak manja dia tak sihat2 lg. Hehehee.. nk wat camne, da anak manja kata.. SInce pk2 kalo blk pun bukan wat pe.. pastu penat2 je papa dtg sat g. So adalah better kalo papa bank in kan duit.. at least bleh gak guna tuk apa2 yg patut. (Die Hard 4.0, Rush Hour 3, Harry Potter) hehee.. Dah ckp2 sumer ngan mama bagai, so mama kata no need to come, just bank in the money n for sure I'll be fine. Wah, mama ckp camtu ngan papa td. Cam tau tau je perangai anak dia ni kan.. ahakss..

Well, dun bother that much sal duit tu pun..tak kisah sebenarnya.. takde hal pun.. so papa tak jd dtg amik. Aku ingat nak berehat sepenuhnya kat rumah n do some cleaning activity. Rasanya rumah tu da macam kedai gunting rambut, rambut dimana2... soooo messy ok!

Hilang da temper aku..
okla thats all for now.. rasa cam nk blk awal lg arini.. badan still rasa sengal.. ada sesapa volunteer nk urut?? ehehee..

Enough said.
Lets hv a rest..
Can't wait for the Jakarta trip..

Jakarta, nantikan aku!!!

Innocent steps..

In life, we'll go through several stages which some of us can face it in a wise way while some just can't handle it properly. As for me getting older mean I'm going to face so much troubles and deal with so much unexpected things that I never imagine before. Life is so complicated so never treat it as it is complicated. If u treat your life simple.. so simple it will be.

As I grew older, I learn so many things along the process. Met various kind of people, get to know hundreds kind of habit and stuck with many kind of persons. I took it as something I'll appreciate as a good experience or a good lesson I got in my youth (hahahaa.. still young kah?). I'm sure gonna remember all this when I become grandma later on (if only umur panjang..)

1. Nagging..

I was watching 'Macam2 Aznil' last nite or perhaps few nites ago.. n the guest was ermm Chef Wan n one pretty actress I can't recall her name. The topic was about nagging. When I was 'living' with some lazy butt ppl.. heheee I used to nag alot. N take it as a joke. Well, no harm to me.. as I find nagging is one of the way to release tension without make ppl mad at me.. or perhaps they'll get a bit irritate.. haha.. watever..

Get back to the nagging topic, Chef Wan was saying thing like this..' Sebenarnya, orang yg tak suka dengar orng membebel adalah orang yg ada kekurangan. Seperti contohnya, orang tu malas mandi, malas belajar, malas kemas rumah, malas basuh baju..bla..bla..bla..'

I laugh when I heard the statement.. yea rite.. in fact, notsolongtimeago.. i love nagging to those lazy butt.. :p. i've no idea how could they live in a place that is so messy, dirty n bla..bla..bla.. hehe.. Ermm, I'm no longer stick to the nagging habit.. I would prefer to remain silent unless I'm pretty sure that I need to nag to drag some1 ass moving.. ehehe.. well, its working to lazy person though.. ppl like EG (pjm nama ang sat) she dun like to listen when I'm nagging.. but seriously I love to nag over her..

2. Perfect

When we are saying things regarding 'Perfection' or 'Perfect', do we realize that nobody is perfect? I'm far from perfect.. In fact I'm one of the loser if u wanna said so. Living in quite big community taught me how to behave and deal with any circumstances but sometimes, those circumstances gv me headache. In my life, I can't runaway from problems but to be truth with I've been running away like thousands time.. That's all I can do pun..

I've been looking for the perfect love but deep inside I know there's no such thing as perfect love. What the heck was goin on with me lately.. I'm losing my mind n I'm getting insane..


#For those who actually hurt by me.. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me n May God bless u all..

*Dear, I'm sorry that I never love u...

**Congratulation to my cozins, Kak Elin and Kak Im for their engagement.. May my turn come soon... hehehe.. :D

Bagaikan diriku tapak sulaiman,..

I thought I'll never be able to come back home safely...

I was so sick last nite.. The same feeling I had when I was on the way to reach Mt. Stong peak. Pain all over the body, in fact I went to bed a bit early n woke up kinda late this morning. I hd the strange feeling last nite, feeling like dying.. I called Mom n ask for her forgiveness.. I heard her worried sound when she heard me crying.. Then call Papa n do the same thing. Well, I never been sick this bad n my bad thinking keep leading me to death thingy kind of thought. Yea.. I seriously think I’ll die. Alhamdulillah I’m still strong enoff, May Allah gv me a chance to repent all the sins I’ve done through out this life..

Maybe that’s the good sight of this Mt Stong trip. Allah shows me HIS Mighty.. Alhamdulillah..

Hmm.. since I am a very ‘manja’ person… n I used to be ‘dimanjakan’ when I was sick.. I kinda not get to used to this lonely feeling when I’m sick. Of course, I’ve great roommates who excellently has highly concern over her room partner.. ehehe.. but a girl is still a girl, no matter how strong she claims she is.. I need attention.. I need careness.. I need loves.. huh..

My bad that I think about someone who really care about me back then.. the only person who shows his concern in his own way which nobody yet to reach his way of concern.. I’m sorry that I’ve this feeling.. but I do miss the way he taking care of me when I was sick back then.. I’m seriously fucking miss him..

I’m wondering how could u claim u love some1 but u dun gv a damn on what actually happen to him/her. Well, u may said.. u hv ur own way of showing ur attention or concern... but hell show it to tree which don’t hv feeling like human being do!.

#Thanks for the concern.. I do appreciate it..

I'm back...

Ni time caving.. nk bertapa pun tak senang...

Berlatarbelakangkan air terjun plg tinggi di asia tenggara..

Baru sampai kat Baha camp

Aku kat puncak air terjun yg plg tinggi kat asia tenggara tu.. hohoo

Puncak Gunung Stong yg tak best pun.. Tak rasa cam kat puncak.. Cuma ada satu batu besar kat atas tu but still tak nampak pemandangan kat bawah sebab byk pokok.. so for me not worth it pun la nk g puncak tu.. haha..

Im back with pain all over the body... huhuu..

After 3days2nite 'hell vacation' to Gunung Stong, finally I reached home safely with so many injury n pain all over my body.. Thanks to all for the pray.. I guess bcoz of ur guys's pray I manage to get my ass down from the mountain n safely reached home on early monday morning.

My first statement - Thanks a trillionzzzzzzz to Mohd Nahar my 'pengasuh' all the way to the peak of Mt. Stong and all the way down the mt. Without him, I'm surely left my last breath on the mountain n prob the previous entry would be my last entry ever in my life. Dude, I owe u a life n there's no fucking way i can repay u with anything I have.. I owe u a lifetime. Thanks very much!!

My second statement - I would never ever go for mt hiking anymore. It cost me a life to get on the top and I dun wanna waste my life for things like that anymore. N plus.. never ever trust those who loves mt hiking (this is for the firsttimer k). I guess I must hv lost my mind when I decided to do this stupid thing (weii.. its up to me la to say this thing is stupid or watsoever.. its my fucking blog what!!)

I'm not in the mood to tell the whole story but I think it's enoff 2 mk u understand how terrible I felt when I started to halucinate.. I even 'met' my dearest iwan up there.. thats the moment I started to feel that i'm dying.. coz i saw dead ppl.. luckily I've nahar with me.. my savior.. hehe..
Then when we were on our way down, I felt backpain.. u know monthly backpain.. plus the periodpain..mmg rasa cam nk mati.. huwaa...

Anyway.. in a good way..its a good experience..just that I hate the fact that I caused so much troubles to Nahar.. just Nahar.. eh nahar ehh.. :p
Learnt a lot.. i'm not belong to community.. I can't wear the same clothes twice otherwise I'll get the rashes n I won't feel comfortable.. I've a very sensitive skin ok! It's not that I 'mengada-ada'.

My best moment @ that mountain was durin water part.. ermm.. when i can soothe myself berendam dalam air terjun yg bestgilernakmampus.. I love water.. yihhaaaa... tu je part yg aku rasa best pon.. hahahaa... pasni.. my holiday will b d simple n enjoygilernkmampus one je.. otherwise aku pass..

Cuma naik gunung is one in my list I would like 2do b4 kawin.. so skrg aku da buat.. ok.. pas.. no regret..

#Yea.. aku mmg manja.. sakit skit da tak tahan.. nk wat camne.. aku dimanjakan :p

I'm off to Kelantan..

We'll depart from UIA around 10pm n ETA is around 5am. I'm too exhausted today coz gotta finish like so many things before this trip..
Anyway after a month resting without any trip to anywhere.. this is the first afta Perhentian trip. N at the end of this month got another trip to Jakarta.. Yea.. I need a rest.. in fact a long rest.. hehe.. penat!!

Ok guys, pray for my safety.. n pray i manage to reach the peak of the mountain..

Yeay!!...

Gunung Stong.. here I come...

Untold story...

My day started with a notsogood news. Yesterday, once i get into car, I was told about hurm.. some small problem regarding money. I settled it last nite gak. DONE one..

Then again, basically all about the same. Thats what happened when we never think about others... keep thinking for ourselves. I do feel bitchy sometimes but I dun wanna be rude.. Things should be settle in a wise way... anyway we r an adult.. In fact, we are all educated one.. should we take thing for granted? Doesn't matter how 'good' we are, no matter how 'perfect' we are.. human being is still human being.. so please be one...

Heard of some1 wanna get the hell out of the house.. fine.. its a decision what.. I would respect that.. somehow should I say.. we'r not at the same level.. though we are the same educated one(hohohooo).. but that sum1 must be much better than the rest of us.. rite?? But do tell.. so that we can get new replacement asap. N plus.. so that we can find money to repay the deposit, tv, and other expenses.. well, as I said earlier.. when it come about money.. u must hv think about it rite??

Knowing such things from others.. it just not nice.. especially when it comes from nonhousemates.. how on earth?? Huh.. whateverla.. Anyway.. who else after this?? if anything do tell ok..

Sometimes, sakit sebab kebenaran adalah lebih bermakna dari bahagia tapi penuh penipuan.. that suxsss... so whoever read this entry n those who think they r related.. c me if u got thing to say.. its not that I dun wanna see u but.. if u got things to say.. voice out!! Aku da ckp byk kali.. jgn bagi aku hangin time2 aku sangat bz nk mampus ni...

#Benci

Transformer....

Don't u think he's hot?? As hot as Hans Isaac..

Antara pelakon utama.. tapi aku lg suka Josh Duhamel (Danny 'Las Vegas')

We watched Transformer last nite. With the geng of 'meja petak' with addition of oni and fara. It's been a while didn't spend time with them. Last nite was awesome. Seems like we haven't laugh like hell for years.. seems like we haven't 'lepak' at mamak stall for like years gak.. heehee..

Last nite was great. After very long time didn't hv happy hours together..always tak cukup korum....

Watched Transformer @9. then 'lepak' Mosin till 3am. Wahh.. i miss old moments.. The movie was superb.. very impressive and entertaining.. audience apploused at the end. I would say.. rugila kalo tak tgk this movie.. though more to technical n basically its all computer based movie.. but still the movie complete..perfect.. just nice.. I love it..

Then, g lepak @Mosin.. our usual port when we were studs.. hehe.. now after almost 2 years.. the place still full of memories.. hehe.. Lepak there, as usual ketawakan org ni.. kenakan orang tu.. luckily my turn kene gelak no that much.. sensitif kot.. hehe.. tapi mmg best hang out with old frens camtu. I love u guys...

A fren will go back to his hometown for good soon. Tak sempat nk ucap Selamat Jalan td. I tot he'll join us breakfast pg td.. but he got things he up to.. Nway.. Bon Voyage.. minta maaf salah silap selama kenal.. All the best in life.. (chella macam tak jumpa da) Erkk.. kot da tak jumpa da pasni.. hehehe..

#Blk Kuantan esok pagi, tix bas abis arini..