A humble request...

Dear friends,
Do spare a little of your precious time for a very humble request from me. Please pray for my Mom's and Grandma's wellness.
Mom just recovered from her illnesses, though not fully recover but getting better and hopefully everything will be back to normal soon. How I wish..
Please..

Thank you very much for your do'a. My family & I really appreciate it.

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It has been 3 weeks since I spent a night in my very own room. Yet to be back here again seems like everything that I would trade with. I just miss my time having a rest in my very own room. Not that, I didn't have my own room in Kristal but somehow, I don't feel Kristal as a home. Just something wrong somewhere as I can recall.

Mom cleaned up the spare room at the back and my youngest sister moved to that room. Well, all this while she wants to hve her own room and now she got it. Nurul is happy to have the room as her wish. So now everyone has their own room. Nobody shares except of course, Mom n Dad.

I never had a chance to share my bedroom with any of my sisters. In fact, they know how much I loath sharing my room. Hehe.. Unless it is emergency.

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Had a very long night on the day before so I woke up a little late on Sunday morning. Nurul already prepared the breakfast. Since Mom not really well, Nurul take over the kitchen. She prepared breakfast n lunch before went to college. She really some1 now.

I couldn't believe myself in this situation. May Allah gives me some strength to face things sanely.

Aku?? malas??

Malas nk update..
Tp pg ni rasa cam excited nk start hari baru..
Slps ber'stress' sakan semalam..
Formulation dah setel..
In vivo..
In vitro..
So many things to do..
Yet not enof time..

Semalam stress bukan pe..
The whole day, aku committed wat keje..
Tak macam biasa..
Tp tula..
Sakit hati tak siapa tau..
Buang masa je aku smlm..
Satu mende pun tak jadi..

Hari ni, tak disangka..
Formulation smlm yg tak jadi tuh..
Dah jadi..
Huhuuu..
A bit lega..
Tp bila repeat balik..
Tak jadi plak..
Trus aku naik gler.. Deymnnn!!!

Ohya, pagi td.. a beep from hp ku.. Msg masuk kul 6.05am. Deymmnnn!!! aku masih tdo ok!
"Suci, boleh tak tukar tiket flight? - Mas"
Aku cam?? Kejadahnya?? Ingat aku keje jual tiket flight ke??
So aku reply, "Ha? boleh kot. Ikut ko beli tiket aper la. Kalo yg promo nye.. tak dapat kot.Btw, ni tiket aper?"
"Tiket mas la." Mati!! Gubrakk!! Nama dia Mas, mana aku nak tau dia letak kat hujung 1st msg tu company tiket yg dia beli tu.
For God's sake!!!
It was early morning. baru kol 6. Biasanya aku masih diulit mimpi lg ok!!
Aku ckp camtu kat dia..
Dia kata "kat sini da siangla.."
Aku lupa dia di Borneo. Semenjak jadi Cikgu di pedalaman di S'wak, dia mmg suka bgn awal.
Sbb dia kene bgn awal..
Hehehe.. Sorry Mas.. Aku gurau je.. :p

Pastu, time aku ngah mandi, another beep..
(Awat life aku cam bosan je?? Asik beep je.. takkan takde bunyi yg menarik sket.. hahaha)
"Can I have both? Hahaha.."
Aku cakap.. " Don't be greedy"
Sebenarnya aku nk cakap, -"Asal nk dua je? kalo nak 4 ke 8 ke soploh pon bleh.." hahahaa

So aku makin sengal..
Hopefully things getting better..

Btw, apa kabar mu disana??

Arini rasa cam nak bunuh org...

Rasa je ok..
Rase je..
Tp blom ada duit nk upah org..
Sabar jek la..

So sesapa yg berani2 nk cari pasal ngan aku..
Tunggu jela..
Hahahaa..

Deymnn!!
I hate it..

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Smlm dia beep aku..
Aku merajuk..
Dia ckp br lepas meeting..
Dah kul 11pm..
Meeting kejadahnya..
Dia kata meeting ngan PakLah..
Tipu pun berpada2la..
Taula da jd org besar..
Huhuu..
Btw, I miss you Yang..
Hahaha

Metaphor?? What the??

Ok, the tittle got nothing to do with what I'm gonna write later.

It was early morning, for God's sake.
Beep from phone wakes me up.
A message.
I was so under my sleepy mode to realize who sent the message.
It says, "Yang, I dah nak naik flight. Miss you muahss"
At that state of my mind, I'm simly reply
"Ok.Syg take care. Jgn nakal2. Miss you too muahss"

Then I crawl back into my comforter and jumped out when I heard the alarm from the phone.
Shit, it was almost 8.30am when I finished my shower.
Get ready and go out.
Realized I left my phone, I got back into the room and got the phone.
Well, it was still at the message.
The fact I didn't close the app.

Ehh.. some1 sent me a message this morning.
But I really can't remember. Gosh..
Check back. What I've wrote.
Who call me Yang?
Perhaps some1 sent to the wrong number and I directly reply.
Luckily it was from some1 i know.
Hahaa..

Can't keep smiling on my stupidoshh..
What if the message from some1 else.
Owh... I really tired lately. I can't even think straight.

#p/s: yang, dun forget some cake batik for me.. mishh you muahss... hahahahhahahaa

** example of nice metaphor
"Before I met my husband, I'd never fallen in love. I'd stepped in it a few times."
(Rita Rudner) - so cici said, meaning that I've never fallen in love yet. Fuhh..

Sakit Sendiri

At the moment, Aii layan sentimental songs.. the very mellow one.. huhuu..

Cindy Bernadette - Sakit Sendiri

Ada yang kurasa dari dirimu
Kau kini menjauh apa salahku
Apakah ku menyakiti hatimu
Katakan padaku jangan membisu

Kau kini berbeda jauh
Dari Wanita yang dulu
Membuatku jatuh cinta
Siapa yang telah merubahmu
Untuk meninggalkanku ..kasih

Bila engkau harus pergi
Tinggalkan saja ku sendiri
Jangan bilang masih cinta
Kau hanya membuatku menangis
Untuk apa bilang sayang
Buat hatiku makin susah
Pergilah kasih pergi saja
Biar aku sakit sendiri

Walaupun harus berpisah
Takkan kulupakan engkau
Yang pernah ada di dalam hidupku
Tak mungkin aku memaksa
Kalau memang cinta tlah sirna

Mungkin ini yang terbaik

Cindy Bernadette - Cinta Mati

dengarlah cinta ada yang ingin kukatakan
seorang dirimu adalah cermin hatiku
hidup hanya kuberikan untuk bersama dirimu
selalu ...

tetapi entah kapan dan apa yang terjadi
kau bilang mungkin kini saatnya untuk sendiri
apakah cintaku selalu
takkan pernah cukup untuk membuatmu bahagia

katakan pabila cintaku salah
kurangkah perhatian untuk dirimu
untuk membuat dirimu bahagia
seumur hidupku aku takkan mengalah

oho...

adakah waktu untuk membuatku mengerti
apa yang seharusnya kulakukan untukmu
buat diri ini belajar untuk mengerti hati seorang lelaki

katakan pabila cintaku salah
kurangkah perhatian untuk dirimu
untuk membuat dirimu bahagia
seumur hidupku aku takkan menyerah

apa lagi yang harus kukorbankan
untuk membuktikan rasa sayangku
sepanjang hidupku aku tak mungkin menyerah
padamu aku cinta mati

oho...

katakan pabila cintaku salah
kurangkah perhatian untuk dirimu
untuk membuat dirimu bahagia
seumur hidupku aku takkan menyerah

apa lagi yang harus kukorbankan
untuk membuktikan rasa sayangku
sepanjang hidupku aku tak mungkin menyerah
padamu aku cinta mati

Cindy - This is my way

With everything I've been thru
Why would you say I'm not good enough for you
Even when things are fallin
I would stand here beside you
I wont stop for nothing
That's how i pledged to your heart

This is my way
The way i love you
But i wont force you to stay
If you never want to
And I'll be alright without you
Cause when a man can't appreciate
So what's for a woman to stay?

It aint easy
To give you everything you want
Love you no matter what
Even on the days I don't
If i stay you'd run me over
So it's my call
I call it over..

Guess I'm better off without you
It's all I gotta do and I wont stop for nothing
That's how i pledged to your heart

I wont stop givin up on love
I must be another man treasure
Just because of you
Dont think I'm too desparate
You can go front to
Your boy's say it was you who call it off
I don't give a damn about a thing you say
Coz I know my way, and I refuse to be the fool to stay


Cindy - With or Without you

Many roads I have walked
Breakin thru all the rocks
Kickin all the pebbles
Here I am where I belonged
Not regreting what I've done
Better person I become
It's all up to you what to say
I don't give a damn what you think about me
I make my path I make my future

If you think your judgement can bring me down
You better think twice coz
Aint nothing pulls me apart
I'm so much stronger than I was before
And I can make it thru with or without you
With or without you

Many years I have passed
Many sweeter things like lies
The more of bitterness I've tasted
But I don't care what's in the past
Let it burried in the grave
Cause I am walking out untainted
It's all up to you what to say
I don't give a damn what you think about me
I choose my path I choose my future

Though my future in your eyes seems so far away
You better think twice coz
It's never beyond my reach no..
I'm halfway there I'll make it to the end
Yes I will make it thru with or without you
With or without you


That's all for now.. Later aii tambah lagi.

# Td download lagu2 arab. Sekalinya ada one singer tu nama dia (dalam huruf arabla kan) Ra-Ya-Nun.. SO aii pun cam oo nama ni cam nama india Rayan?? kan?? Sekalinya bila donlot lagu tu.. nama mamat handsome nk mampus tu is Ryan.. Keren gitu kan?? Ahakss..

Kla.. time to go home..
What a tired Sunday!!

One day in the stressful week..

Hari ini and hari2 yg aku rasa nk menulis dalam bahasa aku akan guna bahasa. Sebab rasa cam sucks je nk tulis dalam omputih setelah lama aku tak gunakan bahsa omputih tu. Owh semalam aku guna bahsa omputih sbb aku terjumpa ngan Bassl, the proud Arabs tu. Huh...

Semalam hari kurang baek untuk aku. Pagi2 aku sengal g buat keje bodoh end up aku tak buat keje sampai petang. Aku nk call sapa pun aku tatau. Mesti masing2 sibuk. Aku malas nk online. So all I can think of ialah Yazi. Sebab dia sorang je yg waktu keje dia pelik sket n aku rasa cam dia selalu free nk cakap ngan aku. Ngahahahhaaa.. Sorry Babe..

Aku habiskan semua credit yg baru aku top up tu tuk call dia. Habis gakla 30 hinggit aku sbb nk bercakap je. Nk cakap benda yg bodoh n mengarut lak tu. Mengganggu waktu kerja dia plak tu. Bukan aku sengaja tapi smlm otak mmg da weng giler. Tatau nk pk mende dah.. huhuu..

Hari ni aku wat keje balik setelah sekian lama aku cuti dari buat keje aku.. Turn out lama tak wat formulation, otak pun berkarat. Pastu aku jd malas sbb esok nk wat tikus lagi. Tengok keadaan cam can tuk ke kuantan menipis je. Tapi tgk gakla nnt, ne tau peluang tuk ke kuantan cerah ke. Lagi pun da lama kau tak berjalan2.. letih da.. aku mmg nk berjalan je skrg ni. Tp peluang itu cam tak nampak je gik.

Sabar.. eh.. sabar..

Aku sibukkan diri ari ni.. and start with a new exciting stuff.. Hopefully, aku blh lupakan masalah smlm. Hishhh dahla stressful week, tambah stress plak..

Huhuu...

Fark!!

Hari2 bekerja ngan Cik Ti da start.. I'll be so F'king busy n so F'king stressful

I couldn't sleep.
Maybe sbb td da tdo byk sangat.
Nak ol pun, yayang da sign out td.. so takde member nk bermanja..

Ada kawan aku.. ckp kat aku on my birthday clbration
"Dear, you look young, like 27"

I was like.. bullshit.. what the heck is that supposed to mean? Farkk.. don't tell me..

So aku simply reply,
"I am 27" and gv him the face.

Pastu derang sumer gelak tak hingat bagai nak rak. Sampai blk, lepas kawan tu hantar aku, aku dok tanya .. aku ni nampak da tua sangat ke?? Tetiba je teringat benda ni.. tu yg aku tulis tu.. sebab takleh nk tdo.. hahaa

Couple of days gak la dia amik nk apologize. Dia nye reason sangat simple. Dia bergurau. Dia kata mana bleh agak umur 25 ke 26 ke 27 ke.. Biasanya kalo org agak, dia akan kata late 20s or early 30s. Behtu??

Pastu bila dia tgh aku cam marah lagi.. dia tambah.. "But you look 27 last year."
Aku give him my middle finger.. Fark U
(aku buat bodo n pekak badak gak.. )

Huhuuu....

Badan ketul-ketul and six pack..

Chris Evan - What a hot stuff..

Chad Murray - One Tree Hill.. Sbb dia gak aku layan citer tu.. huuuhuu..

Ni tuk cuci mata yer.. muaahahhaa...

Papa Paul Walker.. huhuu.. hotzzz..

Aku mmg suka kat Dr Chase ni since the first time aku tgk dia kat House. Regret la dia called off the wedding the Jen Marrison tu. Padahal da sama2 cantik.. Aii lurvee..

Hari ni aku demam. Demam sebab tgh malam td aku tulis entry cakap aku benci ngan boss. Memang nyampah sbb dia suka bagi aku keje banyak2. Keje dia. Patutnya nnt kalo project PhD dia da siap.. takyah letak nama dia, tampal nama aku. Senang2 aku da dapat PhD sbb lebih 50% keje dia dulu aku buat. Sebab dia takmo nampak cam aku buat so dia upah orang2 baru ulang balik sumer keje aku. Bijak tak? Cerdik tak? Ulang balik keje tu sampai da 4-5 kali kot. Ermm lantak la..

Tapi sebab aku tensen, sebab aku stress, badan2 aku sakit2 sebab terpaksa duduk sebilik ngan Cik Ti the whole day, nak ditakdirkan aku demam. Sakit kepala macam nak pecah kepala. Bukan.. bukan macam migrain yg aku selalu kene tu. Sakit kepala ni macam bila aku baring je rasa macam kepala aku tu da nak pecah. Sakit giler. Dah 2 hari. Ubat biasa aku makan da takde, td suh my bro g cari ubat tu. Tapi da takde. Aku da telan panadol actifast 4 biji since pagi still tak hilang lg sakit kepala. Lepas makan panadol td, aku bantai tdo berselubung ngan selimut tebal, tutup kipas bagi badan berpeluh so fever aku blh pecah. So, lbh kurang kul 1 aku bangun ngan badan basah lencun. Maknanya fever da pecah. Tinggal sakit kepala and sakit perut je. Errkk aku tak citer aku sakit perut ehh. Sakit perut sbb hari 1st bulan mengambang. Dah lama aku tak layan sakit owang ppuan ni. Tp sbb aku demam kot, dia datang in package.

Sebab da terlalu lama tdo, aku tak larat nk tdo lagi. Aku dok tgk tv. Tak bley nk layan. So aku browse net. Aku dok layan video clip Amr Diab dari tgh hari td. Sampai la ni. Pastu browse gambar2 Dr Chase (House). Ermm tiba2 aku rasa mcm berminat ngan org badan berketul2 ni. Ni sume penangan Samuel Rizal semalam. Arghh.. kene rajin g gym pasni. Bukan nk work outla.. korang ingat aku rajin nk work out.. owh puhliss.. aku nk cari candidate yg berbadan chantekk..
p/s: yang, u kene rajin g gym blk.. bagi badan ketul2 sket, ada six pack. Huhuuu.. mesti sexy u.. aii like..

Ingat2 balik, aku tak pernah couple ngan org yg badan berketul. Yg ada six pack jauh sekali. Tp yg ada 2 pack kat kat depan tu adala. 1 tuk bahagian atas, 1 lagi tu perut yg menonjol kedepan. Ngalahkan ppuan ngandung pun ada. Tp tu dulu.. time sayang, so tak kisahla kan..:p maybe sbb tu gak skrg aku tertarik ngan manusia2 yg badan berketul2.. (aku letak tangan kat dahi... sah masih deman lagi.. so maafkan kata2 mengarut aku ni k)

Since aku cuti arini, so aku tatau nk wat aper. Mama takut aku kene denggi so td Mama masak sup ketam. Kalo org suspect denggi, adalah baik kalo dimasakkan sup ketam. So minum air dia byk2 k. So, nk dijadikan citer ketam tu tak fresh da.. so skrg aku menanggung akibatnya. Aku allergy seafood especially yg tak fresh. Dahla demam baru nk kebah, kepala macam nak meletup, perut ni memulas tak habis2 dapat plak lagi satu gatal2 kat muka n belakang badan aku. So satu combination yg sangat sempurna.

Ok, berbalik kepala badan ketak ngan six pack. Dah kata berkenan ngan org berbadan ketak wif six pack. Aku pun gatal contact kawan aku yg rajin ke gym. Citer ngan dia kegilaan aku. Tiba2 dia ckp, 'hati2 sket yg org yg badan2 ketak2 ni yang. Nampak cam lelaki tulen tp tak semestinya derang suka kat ppuan.'

Cisss.. merosakkan mood aku sungguh. So for those yg rasa badan dia ketak2 wif six pack.. jom kita kuar.. hahhaa.. nk gak rasa kuar ngan org yg badan ketak2 ni. Ada rasa bangga ke eh?? maklumla jalan ngan org yg berbadan sasa. Rasa selamat kah??

Dulu aku pk, kalo jalan ngan orang hensem mesti rasa bangga giler. So bla aku jalan ngan org2 hensem ni mula2 je cam best. Pastu trus rasa tak best sbb org dok tgk je kan. Bukan tgk aku.. tgk org sblh aku. Ciss.. tak beshh.. so biarla jalan ngan org yg berwajah bese2 je. rasa secure. Tp still aku nk rasa jalan ngan org badan sasa n ketak2 ni.

# Sebenarnya aku jeles giler ngan S. Amani peluk2 si Samuel Rizal dalam movie SAYANG tu. Cisss.. sangat menggugat keimanan gue..

p/s: Yang, cepatla build ur body tu.. hahaa... aii takmo 1 pack yg ngalahkan pregnant lady tu. okies.. huhuu

** Maafkan penulis atas kegilaan entry kali ni. Maklumla tgh tak brapa sihat. BUkan badan je.. ngan kepala2 hotak sekali weng.. Sowwy..

Wedding.. Wedding.. Wedding..

1st week,

Mama sibuk suh blk coz ada kenduri kene attend. Since skrg schedule quite packed so tgk keadaan baru aku blk rumah. Sampai rumah, I was so damn tired so bantai tdo. Mama ajak g kenduri. But… I’ve to passed.

The kenduri is my cozin’s engagement. Everybody was there xcept aku n adik2 ku. So, u know how the mouths kan.. So kiranya, they said nnt kalo turn aku bertunang.. they wont come. Hmm.. mcmla aku nk bertunang buat besar2an cam derang..huhuu..

2nd week,

Mom n Dad’s 29th Anniversary. So aku da arrange family dinner baikk punye. Sekalinya Nurul ada exam plak, dia tak balik. So dinner tak cukup corum. The next day plak, ktorg plan nk jenjalan ngan family. Turn out to be ada wedding kene attend. Anak sedara jiran sebelah rumah. Papa da janji nk pergi. Mulanya Papa suh Mama ngan ktorg je g, tp Mama takmo. So Papa terpaksa join sekali.

Habiskan masa kat wedding tu, then g bershopping2 tuk buat makan2 kat umah the next day.

3rd week,

Sabtu, aku dah start buat in vivo study so bermakna aku da deal ngan cik Tikus. Kalo da deal ngan derang ni sakit2 badan nk amik darah. Blom lagi keje2 mengemas bila da siap semua keje. On the same time plak, validation UPLC kene siap asap.

Baru blk dari lab, baru nk terlelap. Ada membe call tanya sal wedding jijoi plak. Pastu tak lama Amir plak call tanya pasal passport plak. Pastu Mama plak tanya bila aku nk blk. Esok wedding jiran aku. KENE BALIK! Arghh letihla..

4th week,

Tgh usahakan supaya aku dapat attend wedding jijoi.. Tp kalo tak dapat, minta mahafla joi ye..:D

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Td, jiran aku kawin. A bit tense la sbb the pengantin is very muda yet da kawin. Well, as usual la ppl will ask mama n mom will shoot me. Owh plz.. No such questions plz.. da tiap minggu aku balik n tiap minggu tu gakla kene shoot. Matila kalo tiap minggu camni.

Plan nk g tgk citer Geng (upin ipin) ptg td, tp full house. So da alang2 bawa adik2 g tgk wayang. Ktorg tgk citer Sayang, you can dance. I hate the ending. I hate Amani tu blh peluk2 samuel rizal, I hate amani tu blh peluk2 sumer org.. Pokoknya aii tak suke.. haha

Citer tu ZERO in term of apa yg cuba disampaikan. Tp kalo takat nk tgk movie tuk gelak2, tuk layan body ketul2 samuel rizal yg sexy itu (owh gue da jatuh cinta tuk yg sekian kalinya pada dia), nk tgk aksi si Dafi dance vibrate2 dia tu.. boleh la tgk citer ni. layanla.. at least aku gelak sakan2 sampai hilang sekejap tensen kat kepala. Mak sukerrrr...

Ada 'kawan baik' yg aku kenal dari zaman degree bitau dia jumpa ex bf aku. Since dia kenal sumer ex bf aku n currently menjadi bf acah2 aku (hahaha.. lawakla bila ingat2 blk :p ), aku terpaksa tanya ex bf yg mana satu. Sbb mana aku nk tau dia cakap sal sapa kan.. hihii.. lagipun dia dok diarea yg memudahkan jmp org2 yg pernah terlibat dalam scandal aku.. muahaha..

As usual.. citer bosan.. (kan yang kan??) Nothing much... rasanya aku da start rasa tua. Aku da malas nk kuar. Maybe ni syndrome kot.. perubahan zaman dari remaja ke dewasa.. aiyooo.. rasanya da sangat tua.. walaupun kalo kuar ngan my sisters takdela org ingat aku tua sangat.. plg2 pun org kata umur dlm 25.. ahaks... :p

Biarla aku nk perasan.. da kang aku merasa diri tua.. korang kt aku giler plak.. haha..

Happy Monday Blues.. I hate monday. I hate my bos!

Girls talk - Part 2

It has been a while aii didn't even jenguk my blog. So kinda feel responsible to write something in this blog of mine. yeah.. but as usual.. no interesting topic to be discussed so the same old lame story u'll read. :p

Last Sat was my parent's 29th Anniversary. Happy Anniversary Mom & Pap, Love you guys whole heartedly!!

Ok, back to the girls talk..
Nothing pun just that, as usual these 'takdekejenyegirls' we having their girls talk. As usual, about boys, erkk man.. about masing2nye man, about money, cuti2.. and so on so forthla..

When it comes to my turn, aii usually passed. Hehe.. Bukan takmo bercerita cuma I don't hv things to talk about. Nk citer pasal aper?? erkk.. btw, my fren is getting married.. ermm.. my other friend is getting engaged.. so aper kene mengena ngan aii kan?? basically my cerita is all about 'owh shit, I forgot to shut down the system' or perhaps ' owh fuck, the boss caught me doing some other part time thingy'..

Nothing great about it. Let me read about u.. let me hear ur story.. Mine?? Nah.. not interesting at all.. Btw, I'm looking fwd to go to Bali.. soon.. soon.. but first I need a sponsor.. Anywan?? Having extra dollars?? you can simply bank in to me.. hahhaa..

Every single week ada wedding to attend.. Nak g Kuantan ke or Perak?? Pk.. Pk..

Girls talk..

We had this girls talk not so long time ago...
I wasn't really interested with what she's talking about so I dun really bother much...
I was busy writing on my old lpc..
Suddenly, (I've no idea how we get into such topic but..) she came about a gossip bout me..
Well yeah.. not like I'm an artist or glamorous or whatsoever but still when there's a single gossip about me, make my life sounds interesting..
Hell no.. trust me.. It is not!!

She said, = we were saying about ur avoidance behavior towards this marriage thingy when someone pop up the possibility of you r broken hearted..

Whoaaa... ppl nowadays are discussing my life..
Hmm quite interesting.. well of course it is coz I dun even damn know about it..
Ok, yeah.. i did avoid a wedding or perhaps two .. well ok.. quite a number but it simply because I hate to be distress later on being asking all such questions.. So please gimme a break!!

I raised my eyebrow n she said, = Yea..yea.. I know, it is not good to discuss some other ppl life but we love you. We r trying to help you.

Again I raised my eyebrow..

She added, = Hey, just listen first.. will ya?

I didn't say anything.. For God's sake.. Ok continue..

She nodded n say, = ok, then *toot* said, you will never broken hearted. Since it is merely human emotional. So broken hearted will be a big NO NO for you.

So? What am I? an angel?

Her face turned red as she saying this, = well, not exactly what he said but it is totally different from that. 180 degree different.

Owh, ok.. I think I know what he said.

She gave me this pity look, = But I know, you are not. Dun bother about it ok. Lets move on n have faith on some1. You cannot keep yourself this way.

I dun need your pity dear..

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Well, ok..
I dun wanna talk about this much..
But let me tell you..
I dun give a fuckin damn on what u said..
I know I'm bad..
I know I'm a fuckin bitch..
So WHAT??
Gimme a break.. will ya!!

life??

whoaa...
lama gler tak update.. lama gler tak ol..
I miss the virtual world... hahaa
OK..nop.. im not crazy ok.. just enjoying the moment.. ahakss..

Ok.. the truth is I'm freak out..
I'm 27 already...
ermm bak kata cozin2 aku yg kurang hajau..
umur da nak bau tanah.. cisss..

So hows life??
SUCKS??
No.. my life is beautiful..
walaupun orangya tak beautiful tp hidup beautiful.. okla tu.. jadila tu..
ahakss..

Ok.. cici merapu bla pala otk da weng ni..
so minta mahap.. minta hampun ye..

Bla otak aii da betul sket nnt i hapdet blk..

Arghh mencikkkk!!!

#Kumerinduimu.. tingtong.. (ingat tak iklan ni?? ahhahaa... sahla aku da weng wehh..)
Harap maklum..