Langit tak selamanya cerah...

Lama gak tak update blog neh.. malas+busy+serabot+stress=?? kes
Past one week, hati agak resah sket. Jiwa kacau.. dosa lama menghantui jiwa n then dosa baru dibuat secara tidak sengaja di dalam kesengajaan. Bergunung2 dosa aku, sampai sentap sekejap dok p marah2 orang lain. Walaupun benda tu salah aku gak tp it takes two to tango. Hehe.. ape kene mengena ntah.. malas nk pk! Lepas aku sure n yakinkan keadaan sebenarnya tetiba jadi sedih.. kesedihan dalam kelegaan. Pastu aku jd sengal, bengal n yg sewaktu dgnnya. Hal2 hati & perasaan ni bukan blh ikut sedap je kan, silap2 hari bulan blh membunuh cam citer Tari Tirana. Opss.. abaikan..

Sbb kecewa ngan dri sendiri aku g marah org lain. Somehow org tu pun contribute gak kat salah aku td.. so wajarla kalo aku marah2, biasala hormon ppuan tgh tak betul.. biasa je kot marah2. Tu pun tak reti2 lagi. Da lepas tu, dia buat bodo cam takde apa yg berlaku. Ok. Aku pun heran ntah apa2 saja yg aku nmpk kat dia. That's it, aku da tekad n nekad.. lol..

Mr PJ aka Z, da melangkah setapak ke hadapan. Aku pun da malas nk main tarik2 tali.. kalo ni jodoh aku, aku pasrah je terima.. lgpun malas nk dgr kiri kanan dok suh buat the big K tu. Aku ni je takde hati lg.. kalo nk dari tahun2 lepas aku blh war warkan kat segala makhluk2 yg berkenan kat aku tu kan.. kalo aku nk.. agaknya tahun ni da anak da kot.. wakakkaa... tp tu la org kata, blom jodoh aku.. nk wat camne kan.. lol

Aku kene present project aku bln depan, tiba2 rasa cam tak tau nk ckp apa.. maklumla da dekat setahun aku tinggal. Aku g Puncak Alam blk, minta permission nk guna barang.. okla incik itu bg aku guna brg tp jumaat je.. pehtu suh aku gne hplc kat lab lain.. bla aku tgk hplc tu da KO.. so maknanya aku kene hold gak keje aku.. mmgla aku ada all the time in the world kan??
Tp takpela.. aku jd org yg sabar ehh.. sabarla sangat kan??


"The better a man is, the more mistakes he will make, for the more new things he will try. I would never promote to a top-level job a man who was not making mistakes...otherwise he is sure to be mediocre."
- Peter Druker

Pulut Kuning..

SERABOT!!!

Tu yg menggambarkan hati aku skrg ni. Da ckp ngan few ppl pun hati masih lg tak karuan. Dlu time Mike was in the state of insecure about this topic, pandai plak aku nk nasihatkan dia. Sekalinya kene kat batang idung sendirik rasa cam nafas tersekat. I can't breath.

If aku kenal dia da lama, dia da kenal aku camne, aku da tau dia camne. Mgkn ni bukanlah masalah besar kot. Masalahnya aku baru je kenal dia. Tatau lg hati budi dia camne. Dia pun tatau aku ni jenis mcm mana. Tu yg jd serabot. Camne nnt kalo dia da kenal aku tiba2 dia tak suka.. I mean, I was a bad person back then. Ntahla..

Dia kata nk hantar family dia datang rumah. Terpulang aku la nk terima ke nk tolak. Giler ko.. takkanla aku nk malukan org da datang jauh2. So aku ckp, gimme sometimes. Aku tatau camne nk bgtau mama. Aritu ada gak berkias2 ngan mama.

Mama cakap, "Abeh tu nk tunggu sapa lagi? Syaril? dia da jadi laki orang dah, ke ci nk jd bini no 2? Ataupun A**? Mati hidup balik pun dia takkan ingat ci dah mama rasa. Hmm ke N***? Kalau dia mama tgk mcm nk main2 je. Kalau serius dari dlu lagi dia da serius. Nak tunggu sapa lagi?? Umur tu bukan makin kurang, makin bertambah. "

Hmm.. aku nk tunggu sapa lg?? Aku nk org yg tau aku. terima aku seadanya n tak expect apa2 dari aku. Tp kalo baru kenal camne.. mmgla sumernye manis, sumernya baik.. ke aku yg takmo terima kenyataan?? serius.. aku serabot!!

huhuuu

Hidup ini hanya sementara..

I learnt a lot time kat spital aritu. One best thingla was a group of psakit n penjaga pesakit yg kejenye hanya bergossip.. Dah ko, nk wat aper lg kat spital kan.. org sakit kejenye hanya tdo. Penjaga pesakit tu ada keje kalo pesakit nk makan, nk minum, berak, makan ubat etc etc.. waktu lain pesakit akan tdo. Ada gak pesakit yg katanya sakit tp tak macam org sakit.. Hahaa..

Sbelah kanan katil nnk, ada Ah So ni. Penjaga dia bibik dari Solo. Belah kiri Kak Fiza dari Shah Alam. Kak fiza ni tak berenti bercakap so takdela bosan sangat. Si bibik peneman aku g bekfes, lunch n dinner. Giler ko.. tak lalu aku nk makan kat ward blh muntah kahak aku.. haha...

Mula2 nenek was placed at sub-acute ward. Time tu, cuma ada 2 org je kat situ. Granny and one indian granny. Since, the indian granny tu sorang so ada gakla ai tlg bla2 perlu. She's very kind n kesian takde org jaga dia. Opposite granny nye tpt tu, is acute ward. The room ada it's own door, while granny nye open one. Kata pun tpt acute so basically org2 kat dlm tu adalah mereka yg agak2 parah n blh dikatakan tunggu waktu jela. Malam pertama ok lg. 2nd nite2 org passed away, 3rd nite ada sorang, 4th nite 2 org lagi.. then on the 5th nite, granny da masuk ward biasa.

Ada gak org passed away time tuh. Tp at least takdela the mayat lalu tepi katil nenek b4 dibawa keluar. Mau tak scary mcm tu. Dahla sumer tu mati tgh2 malam.. adoiyaii..

Bila ada patient baru masuk, nnt adala bibik sorang tuh g busybody amik tau sbb 'baby' bibik tu mmg da tak bgn lgsg so blh je dia tinggal2. Nnt dia blk kat ward ktorg n bgtau apa kes. hahaa..
Ai pun da terikut ngan gaya derang.. ehehee..

Macam2 hal. Ada yg takde relatives, terabai. Ada yg nk bunuh diri sebab cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan. Ada yg tak sakit apa2 selama ni, tiba masuk spital kata ada kanser otak just sbb asik sakit kepala je.

Yg ai suka, ada dr yg cute2. Especially time pagi, sumer muka comey2.. lol..

Actually, byk menda nk share tp hati sedang serabot.. tatau nk tulis camne.

It's complicated...

Sesungguhnya aku tidakla sesabar itu..
Kekuatanmu menghadapi semua ini,
tidak dapat aku tandingi..

Ya Allah,
Kau berikanla kebahagiaan kepada Mamaku..
Betapa hancur hatiku melihat apa yg berlaku..
Namun apa daya..

Bila waktu itu tiba..
Dan ianya telah dijangka..
I hate this!!

Life is so unexpected 6

B4 anything.. plz wish me luck ok.. Got 2nd interview with pharmaceutical company. & I really hope I can get the job. Pray for me ppl..hehee

Actually lotz of thing nk story mory with u guys but malas nk naip neh.
Tapi this morning Mama ask me to help with anak terbiar my aunty tuh.. the father taknak responsible unless the mother get back together with him. The mother doesn't want reconcile, takut kene dera lagi.

I mean like, what kind of father would rather see his own blood uneducated bcome illiterate?? COme on, you are not a kid la.. use some brain. Btw, his reason is that the kid is not Chaniago's (minang style of hereditary is passed by mother side). So, since the father is Chaniago's and the mother is Sikumbang? (not sure bout this).. he said the kids is not belong to his clan. WTF??

Tolongla hey big guy out there.. korang nk bercerai berai.. go ahead just jgn babitkan anak camni.
Even anjing pun sayangkan anak.. (ni ayat the wife). Pehtu the husband calling my Dad suh ajar aunty nye adik beradik (this aunty is mom's cozin). Alasan, marah sbb the wife calling him bapak anjing. The wife ckp dia cuma ckp yg bold statement tu je. Org tua ni.. kalo da buat keputusan tak gune akal.. mmg bodoh!!

Seyes, I cam tak caya.. dlu this couple is the most romantic couple la. Even, mama pun selalu jeles ngan derang. Tak sangka kan?? Mcm tak percaya pun ada..

Futnot: Doa' si dia.. 'InsyaAllah, semoga jodoh kita panjang. Amin.' I hanya mampu terkedu.. Am I ready?? Really??

Life is so unexpected 5

My usedtobe bestfriend told me, it is normal for any guy to get turn on/hard on with any girl. (tp depends on tahap keimanan la) Iman? I mean like wtf?? Owh sorry, maybe betul kot.. org yg beriman blh control nafsu. Yet I'm talking about normal man. So it is bullshit about love, about happily everafter stuffs.. It is merely s**. So, if you cannot make guys turn on.. u r not attractive. Hell no. let me come to this conclusion.. If you are hot enof to caused other guys hard on but not ur boy.. something wrong with him, not you. Say, he's a gay. Well, this is my own conclusion ok. So you need to ask the right person about this.

I'm not oppose gay. I've few boyfriends who are gay. They are cool and I love them for being cool. That is their lifestyle. I used to hate them but somehow, when I was in a bad condition not so long time ago.. they were lending hand to help me. They just like my other friends despite that unnatural behavior??.

Does it really true about love? or it just a bullshit and no such thing as making love but it is all s**. Love got nothing to do with turn some1 on or cause hard on to some1. love is pure. love is kind. love never lead to making love. love is union of two heart. Lust lead to s**. Lust lead to other bad things, bad affair, cheating, betrayal n etc etc.

I don't know. I still feel the pain. I know how those ppl feel. I know the pain. It even painful whenever I think he's having fun with some1. It's so faking hurt.
If marriage is just a matter of having s** or making love.. better go and fuck bitches out there rather than turning their life upside down by a license called marriage!

Futnot: Ya Allah, I'm really fakap at the moment. Can't think straight. Help me Ya Allah..

Life is so unexpected 4

I read cheeps's blog about his review on good movie of 2009. I watched most of it and I kinda interested to movie 'Precious'. I rarely watch black movie but this time around, I cried my heart out while watching this movie. The best movie so far if you really watch it with your heart. Some may say, it's a boring one but for me it is a great movie to watch.

When I think my life is always unlucky, there are out there who are much more unlucky than I am. Precious is having the most difficult life in her own life. At least she got a home to stay. Her dad rape her and she got pregnant twice. Her mother keeps abusing her like she's a doll or something. Precious had the most pathetic life but she never bother to tell people. She 16, black, very fat and her life is at the worst stake. She can't read, she hardly knows letter. Basically she illiterate, unloved and unnoticed.

A movie I would like to recommend. Watch it. At least u know, ur life is much much better than some other ppl out there..

Life is so unexpected.. Full of surprise..

Futnot: My language is really bad. Bare with me ok.. My malay is not good as well.. huhuu. Don't hv to correct my grammar, I know it is really bad. Hahaa

Life is so unexpected 3

I called my coz since we haven't meet since Raya.. since raya?? duhh lama giler tak jumpa! I was at her home that time. She said, she's having this futsol tournament with Puteri UMNO and won't be back till evening. So I guess I have to face the boredom till these 3 moms finish their discussion. Then my aunt said about her elder daughter. 'She seems to be broken hearted and since then get herself busy.' We were being informed that the guy's family will come over for engagement. So we got ready couple of week earlier. You've no idea how excited working on this wedding stuffs.. lol

Last minute, the guy call and tell us that the grandpa is admitted to ICU. So the family asked to be postponed on the coming weekend. So again, we just pack up everything and cooked whatever raw material n hv party ourselves.. The coming week, again they cannot come. The guy called and gv another reason.. again ask if they can postponed again. So after 3 times, the guy's mother called and keep apologizing. OKla, so we start the whole new thing again. But this time around, my aunt ask them to make sure they can make it. It embarrassing to cancel and call again the family so many times. It's not like everybody free every weekend.. At the end, they guy n family just didn't come. How hard for me to accept this, it is even harder for coz to face it. I didn't really ask her on what happened after that, but I learn from my aunt that, she call the guy n said, 'That's it!'. So it just over.. just like that..

Hmm.. when I thought, I had very bad experience.. the truth is there is a lot out there who had worst situation. Thank Allah. Perhaps HE knows that I can't handle pressure up to that extend so HE gv me a little test.

Oh ya, it was Sunday rite so AJL was on the way that night. End up with the 24th Juara Lagu won by Aizat with Pergi. Giler menusuk jiwa dan raga lagu ni.. Berdiri bulu romaku.. huhuu..
That nite, had quite a late nite. Almost 1am baru tdo. Baru je nak terlelap phone bunyi. Actually, only one person yg gile call at unreasonable time. So I was so lazy nk buka mata, just ignore je. But the phone keep singing.. Haiyoo..

Dalam keadaan mamai n agak marah, I picked up the phone.
'Ci....', Lin was on the line ngan sore serak2 basah cm baru lepas nangis.
'Lin, whats up? Thought u r F******.'
Well, I've to listen to her cry for about half an hour before she can actually speak. My junior schoolmate. We were close bcoz Mom n her mom is friend. So we still keep in touch time to time. I envy her for REAL. Her fiancee is HOT and handsome. The wedding they planned thoroughly and it almost like dreams come true. It is more like fairy tales. From the bottom of my heart, I envy her very much. I know, I would never be able to hv such a great wedding.

She's been working since after high school. The money she saved were used for wedding preparation. The wedding is in this coming march. After what happened to both of my coz, I can't think anything alike. So I was thinking perhaps something bad happened, accident, death, or something..

'Ci, Wan..' she said between sobs. Me, being Me I can't think of anything but something bad, real bad.
' Kenapa ngan Wan? Ko ok ke?'. Me worried if Wan having accident, parah or worst come to worst mati ke??
'Dia ckp aku da tak attractive. Dia nk cancel the wedding'. WTF???!! OK, I didn't say it out loud but thats too much.. That is too fuckin much!!
OK,

Seriusly I don't know what is going on. Tp the reason given were irrational. Unacceptable. Dengar dia nangis camtu, rasa cam nk start engine kete n reach her in no time. Tp I was at home. Parents will be worried aku kuar pagi2 buta camtu. Lucky me if I even get permission.

Another wedding to be canceled. In one day 2 weddings was canceled. 2 hearts were broken while more hearts bleeding. Lepas sesi luahan perasaan, aku duduk and menung sampai pagi. Berfikir katanya, tp otak blank. Teringat kes Nouq, itu pun rasanya da tak blh nk masuk kat akal fikiran org waras. Tp that happened. This is exactly the same situation. Only that, the guy yg decide to cancel the wedding. At least Nouq is still lucky, she hasn't really into wedding prep.

I was wondering, how on earth guy can decide to marry some1 just becoz the girl turn him on. When the attraction of the lady is no longer there, the lady no longer turn him on, he no longer have this hard-on while being with her/see her, he decided they cannot get married. And he said that, when the attraction is no longer there it's mean that love vanish too. Is that how you measure your love??That is so lame excuse. COrny!

I tot, we get marry bcoz of love. bcoz of we are ready for commitment. What kind of stupid reason of getting married is that? I tot, any guy will get hard-on when being with any girl. (erkk.. salah ke?? ) Say, watching movie.. boy n girl.. holding hands, her head on his shoulder etc etc. This should turn any guys on. Or am I wrong? Gotta ask few guys on this matter. Later..

Back then, I always questioned why my ex chose to tell me the truth. Why he had to tell me that he had affair n in fact slept with those girls, ladies, and aunties. Why hadn't he keep that to himself so that I don't feel so much pain. Now, I realize the great side of his action. If say, he didn't tell me the truth.. I should hv still waiting for him n blaming myself for not being very good to him. Actually, I did blame myself for quite sometimes. Until some1 hit my head and make me realize how stupid I was. BUt again, I'm still stupid. Lol..

It's a good thing Wan confront Lin before marriage. Kalo lepas da jadi suami, then si suami ngaku yg dia ada nafsu kat lelaki gak? Ok fine, that can be another story. After 2 years engagement, Wan ngaku yg sblm ni dia gay. Ok. Then he met Lin and dia pk hidup dia mcm berubah. He attracted to Lin. He thinks he can change. So come the engagement, wedding n all. After 2 years, he fought all the lust over guys. But then he realized it so hard nk berubah. So he decide to being honest with Lin. Turn out, he is interested to both male n female. FUCK!!!! giler gampang..
gile tamak..

Di sekeliling aku ok. Disekeliling aku je. Just in my circle.
Kata kawan aku.. Sejahat2 N&N, ada lagi org yg lebih jahat Ci. Yeah rite.

Futnot: Kenapa aku mesti kenal orang2 camni ehh?? Nantila sambung lg.. pening palaku!

Life is so unexpected 2

Mom's old friend was coming over few days ago. Mom hasn't seen her for ages. The friend which I were asked to call 'Mama', came for holiday with her daughter, SIL and grandchild. She stayed at home a night. So Mom had this old-friend-get-together moment. Turn out the daughter is my age and she's married with a 2 yrs old kid. SHould understand how Mom feels.

Heck, that Mama only stayed for a night at home but it seems like forever. I hv to listen to all kind of advice on how to choose husband, on how good her daughter is, on how great the SIL is, on how good she's brought up the kids n yada yada yada..

Gosh.. its killing me. I barely catch my breath. That Mama is such a good lady. No offense yet she talk so highly of the daughter n caused me to hv such a high expectation. I didn't manage to meet her daughter. But I bet she's good, really good. Then come the phrase ' Good guy is meant for a good lady'..
Guess, I should stop looking for a good guy then huh?? I know where I stand!.

Family gath (or Parents gath) every 1st saturday in a month. So Mom n Dad was attending the gath. We learn that my coz is cancelling the engagement, which mean no wedding this coming february. Reason: She found out that the fiancée is having affair. I just don't know what to say. Somehow, most of family members will come over from Indonesia to attend the wedding. Well, they bought the tix already. The wedding is just around the corner. So Mom asked me to call her n console. Perhaps she needs some1 to talk to.. I mean some1 who experience such thing (hohoho like I'm the right person la kan??) But I didn't. I hv no courage to call her and say things will be ok and stuffs. Coz I know, it won't be that easy.

So I decided to go to her house on Sunday and sending Mom's old friend to see another old friend (my aunty). When I was about to park my car, I saw my coz. OMG!! She's so skinny. I almost cannot recognize her. I can see the cheekbone appears proudly. Mom as usual get her sentimental time n cried. While I was parking my car, Mom went to see her and hug her. She keep saying, 'I'm Ok mama.. da ok da.. mama don't worry.'

Oh Mom start her own drama at parking lot plak.. ceh.. I got out of the car, hug her n rub her back as a sister would do. She said, 'I'm ok but its hurt!'. Well, I know.. I know.. Been there, done that..I said, ' U look like hell, apsal kurus sangat ni?'. She smile and tell me, 'takdala, biasa je'
Yea right. She was about to go out for a friend wedding, so we didn't catch up much on her matters. We went upstairs to meet my aunt. Well, 3 Mom meeting is such a headache since I was alone n yet they talk about marriage n stuffs. Hallo.. baru je jd camni da bising2 lg.. adoiyaii

Well, this not exactly the real reason I oppose marriage at this very moment. Oppose?? Opss. NO NO.. I'm not opposing marriage, just that my time hasn't come yet. Oh la la.. ahakss.. Bet, when my time comes I'm go with the flow heartedly. :p

My aunty ckp, the guy (the x-fiancee) ask for the wedding to be postponed, not to be cancelled. But my coz, made her final decision. In fact, both family come to the understanding that they should postponed the wedding. What do they know? The feeling of being betrayed when you've spent the money, time, energy preparing for the wedding and suddenly there is a gurl give some shit. Perhaps, one day my coz is strong enoff to accept him back then we'll see how things.. At the moment, the wedding is canceled.

I was almost losing my sane mind when break up 5 years ago (damn!! its been 5 whole year..hohoho), I couldn't imagine how she pull herself together to face this. Be strong my Coz, afterall we are all support whatever decision u made.

Futnot: Malas nk tulis lagi.. mlm sket sambung part baru..

Life is so unexpected...

Phone line kat umah down for 3 days, which lead to no INTERNET connection at all la kan. So I called the CS Telekom every single day.. sampai arini derang pebetul n I can use the line as usual blk. What actually happened was, ada la malaun2 yg tak bertanggungjawab ni, p cut few cabel dari black box (aku pun tak sure pasal nih), then few houses yg cable nye kene cut takde talian la. Bengong.. Then they said, luckily u called, tkt nnt we thought u still using the number n those jerks use ur line to call overseas n the charged will be put in ur bil. Well, pernah da kene camtu dlu.. tp kita fight la.. lama gakla.. cuma this time around ada report so drg taula phone line rosak time tu.. so we won't be charge. yo la tu..

Byk benda nk citer.. 2 of it about wedding or engagement.. another one about life.. about ppl..
tp skrg ni rasa cam malas nk nulis lg.. jap2 g la yer..

Saja nk letak entry byk2.. bosan da byk blog gulung tikar, takde mende nk baca dah.. ceh!!

Futnot: Sabarlah.. hidup ini penuh dugaan!

He's just not into you..

I just closed Yazi's blog tab!
Trust me, I wrote the title first b4 I even thinkin to check on her blog.
Deymnn!!! I'm a lil bit late hon..
hehehe.. whateverla, kinda we hv the same thing in mind..
If only.. If only..
Ahakss... (btw, I wonder who the hell is your new 'Abu Hurairah'?) hahaa

Well.. I'm still in the denial state. yeay.. pity me..
A hell a lot of courage needed..
Yet, I'm still there.. holding the memories..
Shit!!

He's just not into you..
Can't u understand that??
This evening after a hell of work done..
After few days not be able to get ol due to business...
After few days not be able to check my email..
I received something..
I got something..
And bushhhhh...
I hurt myself without even realizing it..
Damn it.. why is it hard for me to understand???
He's just not into you!!!

Hans Isaac, can't you be more available for me???
hahahaa...

A lot of thing to share yet I'm really not in the mood..
Maybe later.. when I can feel the excitement!!
Btw, I'm working on the rat still..
So I'm so fucking stink..


Hola... Me ames..
Let me hold on it..
Need no worries..
As it only takes me one hour to love you..
Yet it takes me forever to get over you..
May you in the best condition of yours...

January?? So what??

This month had to be the busiest month for the past few months.. hehee..
After one month of hardwork, things were judged in a day..
Just imagine, i spent my day n nite thinking about this stupid IID, n yet in a day everything finished!!
OK, not expecting any medal this time around since the competition is really tough n yet I'm sure my genuinely own product (SLN) can't go anywhere since the judges gv me a very bad marks (read:I did see the marking scheme). But, I'm happy as my judge is so F handsome... hohoo..
I was shivering when he called my name.. hahahaa... stupiddoshh..

For the past 2 months, I've spent almost 6 thousands for tuition fees, condo rental and some sort of campus thingy.. n yet I've some amount in my acc. Which is very small n it will never can cover my next semester fees.. Oh God, please gimme some money.. huhuu...

Btw, get to know a new guy.. not to say great.. but he's nice n okla.. hehee
So??
Actually, there's a lot to say but I don't know what to type as I lost my idea as soon as my fingers touch the keyboard.. hahaa...
Just another entry after a very long silent..

Enjoy ur life dear...

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOLNAZ!!!

My attempt..

Hola..

Hye guys.. It's been a while aku tak menghapdet blog dari blogger, biasanya d previous entry aku tulis kat multiply n link kan je ke blogger ni. Aritu blogger cam gilbabs menyebabkan aku mls nk access blogger.. Somehow, korang je yg rajin tgk blog aku ni.. plus hanya korang yg tau the add..

Kalo tak Ros, Eg, takpun Beah n shifa.. muka2 tu jela.. :p
So how r u guys doing overthere?? Heard lotz of fun things happened recently.. Yeay... Enjoy the moments..

Nothing much to tell u guys just that I getting busier (ada ke word ni?). Sampai nk kuar lunch pun kene pk 2-3 kali, if say aku nk makan kat luar.

Eg, projek baru aku skrg ni mcm menarik sket.. bgi makan tongkat ali kat tikus, pastu cek saiz testis dia.. menarik beb... tiap minggu aku bedah tikus, pastu cari testis dia.. hahaa.. Ada sesapa kat sana yg nk jd subject aku?? Makan tongkat ali je.. jangan risau, kalo test tuk manusia aku tak ukur saiz testis dia... kita ukur benda lain... (wah, apakah???)

Nay la.. Just kidding..

Ohya, ada citer menarik, last wiken aku g rumah yo n odah, they just moved to Puncak Jalil so kinda housewarming party la kot.. Everyone in the geng was there xcept app n aloy. Nuar as usual membotakkan dirinya due to tahun baru. in fact dia cukur everyday his head. Odah, dah mencecah 6 months. So yo akan dapat his rio junior perhaps middle of april. Oni n Farah dah bertunang. Toroy da makin sihat, perut dia mengalahkan perut odah.. hehee..

Mike dah dapat awek or potential calon wife but still looking around ne tau ada yg lg bagus. But the moment, he sounds confident about this girl. (hmm rasanya sumer girl yg dia suka or his potential calon, dia rasa confident :p). Nuar dah tukar few girlfrens since the last one yg buat ktorg gaduh gilbabs tu. That one tahan a month je kot, then ada yg baru tahan 2 minggu n begitula seterusnya. The latest ni, menurut Farah... tak macam yg sblm2 ni. Perhaps yg ni paling pelik coz apa?? aku pun tatau.. bila ktorg tanya cantik ke? She avoid to answer.. hmm kinda pelik nuar nk ngan org tak cantik kan.. cheitt.. haha..

Apa2 pun, so happy dpt kumpul2 blk.. For sure, aku la yg byk kene bahan.. Mak tak kuasa tau!

Esok my parents blk. Please doakan keselamatan mereka. Thanks..
Bila aku nk g Kuantan ntah ni.. huhuu.. barang aku mesti da menyemak kat umah tu.. Sabar ehh.. aku usahakan minggu depan.. okies..

p/s: Tgkla citer P/S I love you... tangkap nangis aku..sampai bengkak2 mata.. huhuuu.. To those yg giler tgk citer korea or japanese or taiwan.. sila layari http://www.mysoju.com byk giler citer yg bleh ditonton.. Slamat membuang masa... ;)

Kenangan...

My dad wasn't around for few days. He went back to Kg to c his mom. Da whole day, I spent my time by painting my room with pink n purple color combination. At first I wanna hv purple for my room and pin for the sisters' room. But then, they wanna hv combination color. Well, there's not much different pun.

Nway, I've got my last salary from UIA. So the whole money will b spent for the family. I won't use it for makan. I will use it for tomorrow's shopping spree and expenses for my room's curtain, paint n so on so forth. Mama wanna go to Ikea, so we'll go to OU first to get my sisters' raya shoes/sandal and also handbag for mom n myself.. hehee.. then we'll go to Ikea. Let's c what they have over there.

Nuar n d gang inviting me for break fast together at Niara tomorrow. But at this moment, I don't feel like I wanna c him or got anything to do with him anymore so I gotta cancel my attendance.

Last year, there's so many buka puasa offer for me but this year.. very the little one.. This tuesday, I've date. Somebody will belanja me at Roma, Cineleisure Damansara. Yeay!! Hmm I'm getting close to syaril though not really close n I can tell he's taken advantage over me. Ada ka ada hati nk suh aku blanja dia.. g mam arr.. then, I was asked to choose the place I wanted to berbuka at.. he gave me like all famous hotel's list and ask me to choose. Hohohoo.. I'm very the rambang mata one.. dunno where to go..

Time2 camni teringat mcm2 kenangan. Raya is almost there.. Will there b any shopping for the siblings? Where will the shopping taken place? I was there to help you on the shopping, now you got some1 better. Isn't that great?? Anyway.. Selamat Berpuasa n Selamat Berbuka puasa everyone....

Life

Expecting me to have 2 entries everyday.. hehee
Well, my fav thing to do when I'm at home..

Well, thanks la to the readers though I seriously hv no idea where on earth u got my url. But seriously aku terkejut. Whoever from Queensland.. raise ur hand.. hehe.. thanks for drop by.. nway..

Erm.. today the same story mory, jammed, bored jobs, tensi, in addition of the great granny' story. Today my house is like mourning. Mom doesn't feel well, worry over granny. Mom's sis reached kampung quite late, so the funeral thingy was taken care by orang kg. Sedih mama.. but there's nothing I can do.. Sepatah aku cakap.. bantai nangis lagi.. da la pose.. Duh..

Papa is going back to Kg this Sat. Owh just got to know ermm.. one of relative passed away at 4 pm this evening. I dun know him much but may Allah bless his soul.

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Mun kitak paham, baca. Mun sik, tanyala pada sidak2 yg paham.

Susah benar sidak yg sik paham bahasa kamek tok. Bukannya kamek guna bahasa baru macam owang, bagek,naek, hanget dan apa2 indah lagi. Guna bahasa standard pun nya sik paham juak.

Kenak nya nuggah kami gilak tek? Sik tau kamek tek. Mungkin nya ajak yg betul palak. Orang lain sik betul palak.

Mun kitak orang nangga bebenar, sekda kamek cerita2 yg tak sepatutnya diceritakan seperti rahsia lakibini atas katil.

Mungkin sidaknya yg baca, selalu mencari cerita sensasi camya laa yg nampak benda2 camya. Monyet pakei gincu pun nya nangga cam Miss Universe.

Bagi orang yg sik, nya pasti akan paham cerita apa yg sebenarnya kamek tulis.

Tujuan kamek tok, hanya memberi misalan atau tamsilan ttg apa yg sebenarnya nak disampeikan tok. Sidak yg 'baca' nya paham laa, mun sidak yg 'browsing' ajak mungkin nya sik dapat tangkap apa yg mau kamek sampeikan.

Apa2 pun, sik ada hal, masing2 punya pandangan sendiri atas apa2 pun jua. Terpulang laa dirinya pun.

Tapi pada sidak yg menuduh kamek cerita bukan2, kamek mau cadangkan sidaknya baca balik entry kamek tok. Benar kah sik, kamek ada cerita2 ttg benda2 camtu? Nangga betul2..

Mun sik paham juak, malaslah kamek mau kelakar lagi tek.

# Thanks to Mr Sarawakian yg tersangatla chinese look nye.. ehehee.. aku tak buat semua ni.. ni sumer direct translation yg dia tlg buatkan.. hahahaa.. bantaila.. aku pun tak paham sangat.. :p

1st day...

Well, yea.. it's my first day at work. Again back to my coz's place. Doing almost the same thing but this time, I gotta handle HPLC. I'm an expert in one day. He expect me to run samples by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. What? Mcmla aku ni reti sangat.. huuuhuuu

I wasn't really happy with the first day. I didn't sleep after sahur. Got myself ready n sent my sis n bro to school, then direct to UiTM. Damn the traffic was heavy n I dun like it. I almost forgot how does it feel driving in heavy traffic n this morning I experienced it again. I really dun like it... Huwa.. dun like the feeling staying here...

Looking for rumah sewa soon. Hopefully, evrything will b ok..

Mama was busy looking for bedsheet for me.. like I'm gonna get married next week. Arghh tension.. lepas satu.. satu..

N bro,
Sapa kata jd ppuan takde responsibility?? Sapa kata??

I justtt get to understand..

It's been a while.. I was wondering..
Just now I get to know the reason why.. get to know what actually is going on..
And if that is the reason, I've no right to be mad..
As I'm as a human being..
I've never be so perfect..
I made mistakes sometimes.. I do admit it..
But.. to get to know such thing happened to me..
Pissed me off like hell..
My way.. lay low.. get slow.. stay away.. get the hell out of the business..
Let the mouths do the talk..
It's up to the mouths..

I've done with this..
My life is all about work n study..
I wont bother about anything anymore..
Life is not always happy.. Life is like a wheel.. Now its my time to be at the bottom part..
Thanks for being with me at the worst moment of my life..

Life unexpected....

Miss day nite out heh?? :D

A fren ask me to hop to her blog.
And I did..

I think, I musta b one of the fren she's talking about.. Let me explain...

A brief explanation...

Guys,
It's not that i dun wanna join ur makan2 thingy anymore. But lately, I dun feel like eating outside. Yea, it's been a while since I started to fast, I dun bother to go out to hv lunch or breakfast or dinner with u guys.. I'm just not in the mood. Not yet. Addition with all the heavy workload I have. My body, my brain are all exhausted. I would rather choose to sleep rather than going out at nite.. I'm sorry n please understand at least for this very moment..

Yea, ppl change just as what she said in her blog. Babe, my changing due to the whatever problem I'm facing rite now. I could n I would join u, having nice time out n hv dinner/lunch together but I'm dun hv courage to resist the instruction of my body n brain whose want me to hv rest n take my owngooddamntime n relax... hehee...

Perhaps.. a week after next week, when my workload reduce to zero (will it??) I can join u guys. For time being, just njoy ur moment without me coz when I'm in.. u'll be in annoyed mode.. hehe..

Till then n take care..
I'm going back to KL to attend a bestfren's reception (pengantin basi ni).
Chiowww....

Aku mau...

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat
Semua kan terjadi
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apapun terjadi
Kujanjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun kupercaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah melepasku

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Aku yang rela terluka
Untuk masa lalu

I'm not feeling very well due to several reasons... huhu..

Thanks 2 'my bro' for the lunch. Thank to the other 2 person for the 4 pieces secret recipe cake.. hehee.. Appreciate that.. haha.. It's not my birthday though but still u guys wanna get few pieces for me..

I had a very tiring day since last sunday. Yet waiting another exhausted day.. I'm too tired..

I miss u.. hehe

My cozins...

P/S: I bring nothing from jakarta.. so dont ask me of souvenir..

So tired..

Ketensinan sebab kejahanaman laptop menyebabkan aku mengisi masa sepenuhnya dgn activity berfaedah..

Aku membizikan diri dgn keje2 aku yg memang berlambak tu. Skrg ni dr raj nk minta aku culture pokok durian plak.. sah sahla aku mmg suka durian kan... haha..

Since masa digunakan sepenuhnya, adalah dimaklumkan aku adalah sangat bz. Arini nk bukak posa ngan nazrol moin. Ha terkejut ko.. aku pun cam tak caya gak.. in a week 2 skulmate aku jumpa.. dahtu dia ajak aku kuar tgh mlm td.. gilo apo.. ajak anak dara org kuar tgh2 malam.. so set the date today.. wakaka.. :D

Anyway.. i'm away for jakarta next wednesday.. tp bergantung gak pada permission from big boss ni.. I need lotzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz of MONEY!!! Sesiapa rasa dia da kaya tu.. silala dermakan skit kat budak cute ni ha.. hehe..

Till then, ADIOS..

#Bila putera raja nk ngorat aku nih.. huhuu