Durian...

Balik2 aritu, aku tnya papa if skrg da masuk musim durian ke? Then papa kata.. Dah kot..
Then papa tanya y? Aku ckp takde paper.. sambil sengih2... hahaa... :p

Td papa kejut aku dari tdo.. he bought me satu bakul durian.. ha amik ko.. hahaa..
Pastu sedar2 aku tgh kopek sebijik durian.. Aku pelawa org makan.. sume buat bodo je.. sudahnya aku habiskan satu biji tu kat aku sorang.. yum yum.. sedap giler

Biasanya kalo dulu2 aku suka makan durian ngan adik lelaki aku.. tp skrg ni susah nk jumpa dia walaupun duduk dekat2 je.. tu baru dia keje.. blom lg dia kawin.. huhuu... kalo dulu.. ktorg cari nasi sejuk pastu makan ngan durian pagi2.. sedap beb.. sampai menjilat jari.. hehee.. sah sahla aku hantu durian.. tapi still tak brapa suka ngan durian yg da disimpan dlm freezer.. aku bantai makan gak.. cuma tak brapa suka.. kureng sket rasa dia..

Rasa cam mls lak nk blk esok.. nk makan durian lagi.. huwaaa...

Updated

Hari ni lunch awal. Mama n Papa g Cheras umah aunty nk setelkan pasal penipuan besar2an oleh sedara yg macam setankepalababi tu.

Mama masak ketam masak lemak arini. Which is superb.. so aku takleh nk tunggu lelama.. time nurul makan b4 dia g tusyen.. aku join sekali. Td makan durian sebijik.. perut rasa panas semacam je ni.. tapi takperla.. lyn jela.. sementara ada peluang makan durian ni.. haha

kenyang giler lunch arini.. mak sukerrr....

Ohya, td mama yo called mama.. she told us that yo akan adakan reception for his wedding side on August 5, 2007. Aiyyooo awat lambat sangat.. da tak pengantin baru beb.. hehee
Aper2pun.. AGAIN-congratulates la ye.. ihikss

Completing the uncomplete..

Went to Gombak campus to settle some stuffs n DONE!
Then had a great time with an old fren.. Lama sungguh tak jumpa..

Suddenly got a call from Mike. I was kinda not expecting he to call at such time unless...
He told me that his dad passed away. He sounds very calm.. Such a strong person u've been dude..
I was speechless, I said things that mite make him sad. I dunno what to say.. I'm sorry I bcome a fool..

**my deepest sympathy goes to Mike's family for the lost their beloved father..

may his soul is rested in peace and comfort.. AL-FATIHAH

Sorry..

I went thru to one site 2day n seems like i did a very big mistake by being so concern. Last time I got wuttaphuucckk n this time I can see the anger.. Sorry babe.. My fault..

Yesterday, gv wrong direction n caused frens sesat. hehe.. again my fault.. sowwyyy

"Ha, esok ko tgk kat blog dia.. dia tulis sumer yg kita cakap ni.. Kira cam, I hear I write (in d blog)"-kata2 yg da diedit mengikut suka hati penulis..
Ermm... malas nk tulis, apa yg korang ckp tu perkara2 tak membina.. huargghhh(sambik menguap mengantuk)

Thanks fer d driver... aku blk free.. yihaa...

Yeay.. my new cam...tadaaaaa....

My old Mju 720sw.. Dah jd arwah...

The new replacement Mju 725sw.. my new cam... suker..

Ni frontback picture..

Ok... nak dijadikan citer my cam was damaged when I was in Perhentian.. holiday with 5 budak itam ensem.. (hehee..gurau2 ehh) So since the cam still under warranty, I sent it for repair service with the help of Mr Irwan yg baik hati... tochee tochee.. They said, usually it takes almost 4 weeks to make it done.. so aku pun okla..

Kinda worried gak, what if they knew the damaged was bcoz of water or wutsoever related kan.. tapi they said, they wont cover underwater guarantee after 1st repair service, maknanya selagi tak pernah hantar p service, the whole things is under guarantee.. hmm wuteverla..

After 3 weeks, the boy from the shop call me up (muka dia cam mawi..seyes tak tipu..ngan botaknyer lg.cuma dia ni mawi version tembam sket..hehee) bitau my cam da ok.. So tanpa segan silu i called Mr Irwan to pick up the camera.. sebab surat cam tu aku da bg kat dia..senang kalo dia nk p amik sat g.. hohohooo

Dah 2 minggu he took the camera but still aku tak berkesempatan nk blk. Last wiken Eg went back to KL, so alang2 aku suh Mr Irwan pas kat EG. N i dun know the camera was replace with the new model since the one yg aku nye tu da takde stock.. so i got the better version.. ala... beza cuma yg satu tu bleh bawa underwater up to 3m je.. yg baru ni bleh bawa up to 5m. Nothing to be impressed pun.. huhuhuhh..

Aper pun.. I'm glad that I got my cam back.. ermm in fact I'm sooooo glad coz I got the better one..hohohoooo... can't wait fer another trip to so called PULAUUUUUUU...
This is what they call... Panggilan Pulau... hahaa... Jom p pulau pandan jauh ke tengah.. hehee...

#Tak sabar nk balk nk makan durian dari jauh.. yuhuuuuu

Dream...

"In your dream.."

Kadang2 ada benda yg kita takkan pernah dapat tapi at least dapat dalam mimpi pun okla.. hehee
Tapi ada gak, jgnkan dalam dunia nyata... dalam mimpi pun jgn harapla nk dapat..

Ada benda yg aku inginkan.. jgnkan kenyataan.. tapi dalam mimpi pun for sure la takkan dapat.. Tatau asal aku sure sangat sal tu.. maybe sebab keinginan aku tu sesuatu yg melampaui akal sihat seorang manusia yg waras kot.. wakakkaa...

pagi ni bangun tido ngan semangat yg agak tinggi.. sebab apa?? sebab aku mimpi sal benda yg aku nk tu.. kiranya akhirnya datang dlm mimpi.. hmm mimpi pun mimpila.. emangnya gue pikirin..

Thanks dream... at least i can feel it, touch it, experience it.. though cuma dlm mimpi... hehee..

#Hari ni I'll get the new camera... hohoho..

Malas+Bosan

Arini malas nk tulis paper.. cuma minggu depan cam da susah je nk blk so a bit moody sket arini..
MALASNYEEEEEEEEEEE

Ni lagu favourite at the moment.. sesuai dinyanyikan kat ...... whoeverla.. tetap best lagu ni..

I hope the ring you gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you’re in bed with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
But I don’t wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
Cause I knew what you’d say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try make it all okay

Does it hurt, To know I'll never be there
bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
you knew, exactly what you would do
And don’t say, You simply lost your way
She may believe you, But I never will
Never again


If she really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife Oh, how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he’s through with you
And he’ll be through with you
You’ll die together, but alone
You wrote me in a letter
You couldn’t say it right to my face
Well, give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!

Merokok rosakkan sperma

WASHINGTON: Satu sebab untuk tidak merokok - merokok boleh merosakkan sperma, mewariskan kerosakan genetik kepada anak lelaki itu, lapor penyelidik Kanada.Satu kajian terhadap tikus menunjukkan merokok menyebabkan perubahan dalam DNA sel sperma, kata penyelidik dalam keluaran jurnal Penyelidikan Kanser. Mutasi seperti itu dikenali mutasi garisan bakteria dikenal pasti adalah kekal.?Jika diwarisi, mutasi seperti ini akan berpanjangan dan sebarang perubahan tidak boleh dipinda dalam komposisi genetik benih pasangan itu,? kata Carole Yauk dari Pegawai Jabatan Alam Sekitar dan Toksikologi Pekerjaan Kanada, yang mengetuai kajian itu.?Kami tahu ibu yang merokok boleh membahayakan janin mereka dan di sini kami menunjukkan bukti bahawa bapa berpotensi merosakkan anak mereka lama sebelum mereka bertemu dengan pasangan di masa depan,? katanya.Yauk dan pasukannya mengkaji sel induk yang mengeluarkan sperma dalam tikus yang terdedah dengan asap rokok dalam tempoh enam atau 12 minggu. Semua mamalia jantan berterusan mengeluarkan sperma itu.Mereka menjumpai 1.7 kali mutasi DNA dalam sel tikus terdedah dengan asap rokok seperti yang dijumpai dalam tikus biasa selepas 12 minggu, dan 1.4 kali mutasi selepas enam minggu. Ia mencadangkan kerosakan itu berkaitan dengan tempoh pendedahan, jadi jika lebih lama anda merokok lebih banyak mutasi berkumpul dan lebih banyak kemungkinan kesan potensi meningkat dalam benih,? kata Yauk. Sementara itu, di Beijing, China mengumumkan tindakan ke atas klinik kesuburan yang mendagangkan sperma yang didermakan kepada mereka untuk mencari keuntungan. Pihak berkuasa tempatan harus mengambil langkah tegas untuk mengelak bank sperma dan teknologi kesuburan dikomersilkan dan menjadi satu industri,? kata Kementerai Kesihatan China dalam satu kenyataan.Mereka yang mengutip dan menerima derma sperma tanpa kebenaran akan dihukum dengan tegas, kata kenyataan itu.


Ha.. amik situ.. bio berpinau mata membacanye.. aku masuk forum yg da lama aku tinggalkan. Virtualfriends.net. Ni pun ada sejarah gak masuk forum ni. Dulu time bercinta mana nk dapat YM kat ITD so chat kat forumla.. okla untuk melepas rindu.. wakaka..
Ha, berbalik blk kat artikel atas tu.. hoho.. da sah sahla aku ni byk gak penyakit, idokle aku mau nyusahkan anak aku ngan kawin kaki perokok.. sat g yg jd mangsa anak aku.. sian je anak aku tu nanti (kalo sempatla ada anak kan.. hehehe)
Arini pala sakit sangat.. dunno why.. tapi seyes takde mood nak ngape2.. td da siapkan media 2L. So keje lg pasni.. hohooo.. ngantukss..

Leave me alone.. fer a while

"Takkan pernah habis air mataku
Bila ku ingat tentang dirimu
Mungkin hanya kau yang tahu
Mengapa sampai saat ini ku masih sendiri
Adakah disana kau rindu padaku
Meski kita kini ada di dunia berbeda
Bila masih mungkin waktu berputar
Kan kutunggu dirimu …
Reff:
Biarlah ku simpan sampai nanti aku kan ada di sana
Tenanglah diriku dalam kedamaian
Ingatlah cintaku kau tak terlihat lagi
Namun cintamu abadi"

I got 2 tasks on due today. And as a lastminute girl, u should know how hard my day would be today rite? I came so early this morning, finishing what I should hv done yesterday and editing some more stuffs b4 I can print out n send it to the BOSS.

When I was sooooooo busy doing my things done, I got few calls one after another from these 2 persons who r nvr tired calling me though I did ignore their call sometimes or perhaps I did ask somebody to pick it up for me. I said politely ( as I'm nvr b sooo polite... hoohhoo) that I'm so busy and I'll talk to them later. When I said busy.. do spare me like few hours so that I can finish my job b4 I can hv a nice chitchat with u.. but these fella, I don't know if they got nothing to do or they hv so much money so they need to talk to some1, n call me up. I dun mind to talk if I'm free but I'm very BUSY ok? I dun even hv space to breath.. so spare me some space!!

Go n get gf ok so that u can call her anytime u want. I'm really having a bad day today.

Done with my first tasks, so I came up n try to finish the second task which I've no idea how am i gonna finish this thing. This proposal driving me crazy n I'm tired of it already. Some1 called n tell me he's going to Japan soon. Damn!! Evry1 is goin for holiday.. n I'm stucked doing this furtherstudythingy. Suddenly feel like all this thing is rubbish. I wanna hv a longgggggggggggggggggg nice holiday again.. :D

Nak ikut g Japan... huhuuuu....

Hurmm.. my second task takyah hantar today coz the BOSS is lupa.. yihhaa.. thats y I'm writing an entry for today.. wkakakaa..

Ok, done with this holiday thingy, erm tetibe je after kinda sometimes gak menyepi, si awek syaril buzz me. What the hell she wants from me lg ntah? Dia ni betul2 buat aku terindu blk kat balak dia tu.. hampehss sungguh.. dia cari pasal.. bukan salah aku k..

Hurmm (again)... nak tau aper citer?? OK, this silly girl tetiba je buzz me n ask me what syaril gv me when he was with me.. hmm previously on heroes... hahaha .. nola.. previously a fren told me tat this girl berlagak bout she getting something from the lovely bf. WHO CARES??

So I kind berlagak gakla.. ermm I'm telling her the truth which actually that fact hurts her even worst.. Ha.. sapa suh tanya.. dah sah sahla aku awek dia yg paling beruntung skali.. compare to the rest 3 yg terkenal tu kan.. siapa suruh tanya what he gv.. sah sahla ko nangis air mata darah coz he wont be that pemurah nowadays... huhuuu

I said.. adala he gv me some stuffs for b'day, annv, n whenever he get back from US. If I were her, I wont ask more.. tp dia nk tanya gak... ha amik ko.. berpinar biji mata bila dgr hadiah2 dari mamat tu tuk aku.. dah sah sahla aku wanita bertuah.. wakakkaa.. (mind with me.. I'm kinda trying to cheer myself up)

Last b'day present from hiM.. tp da kene campak ngan sorang mamat yg dengki kat aku..huhuu

3 years over relationship.. for sure la byk benda yg dah diberi and diterima.. tul tak?? hehee..
Nak buang sayang.. so I still hv those stuffs... aku tanya kat minah tu.. would u like to hv them?? hahaa.. terus takmo berckp ngan aku da.. tau takpe.. aku dala bz pagi td..

Tetiba aku semakin menyedari ke'setan'an aku ni da melampaui batas.. Demm!!

# Rasa ketensenan hidup as student smkn menebal.. I wanna break..

Build me up buttercup

Why n why n why?
Always ask my self n the question left unanswered..
Y n Y n Y again?
Kinda discussin some stuffs with Eg and end up with whatsoever-answers

Maybe coz I watched too much lovesorymovie so my mind kinda mess up a bit.. huhuuu
I wish I can get over this fuckin feeling.. DAMN!!!!!!
Can u plz just get the hell of my life.. Im getting tired of this feeling..

HUwaaaaaaaaaaaa....

#Terlalu byk nonton filem psycho... me? - Nangis kejap..huhuu

Mengerti...

Miss my bro!

"Telah ku cuba sedaya..
Sekuat di hati..
Agar kita berdua..
Akan terus bersama..
Tapi apakah terdaya..
Tidak kau hargai..
Apa guna pura2?"

Hmm... M currently listening to Mengerti by KRU.

Nothing much to tell.. cuma..
Hurmm.. I saw their pic just now..
i dun know y.. but still I feel something in here.. in my heart..
Wish he always happy no matter what..

Another 10% to finish.. arghhh my brain exhausted!!

Sudah...

"Bila kita harus berpisah..sudah..
Biarkan ini semua berakhir.. sudah..
Cinta memang tak harus..
Miliki iya..."

No offend ya.. this is just a lyric of a song I'm currently listening.. hehe..

Irwan called me a bit late yesterday n told me he pick my camera from the shop. I sent it for service after it got damaged (sucks!) It was supposed to be underwater camera or water resistant but how on earth it's damaged after ermm.. 3rd or 4th times get into water.. (my fault actually but gv a damn :p)

They couldn't repair the camera so they gv away the new one.. hoho.. I got new camera after all.. ahaks.. Whateverla... I'm really looking fwd to get Kodak V603 for Papa. At least for this so called Father's Day. Anyway, I haven't get him anything since I earn my own money though sometimes I still ask money from him. :D

But the thing is, I'm gonna used lotz of money next month. For the Bukit Stong thingy, then Jakarta.. Demm!! Where m i gonna find lotz of money?? Papa again?? hehee..

Lately, life gettin busy. Got meeting early in the morning today. Discussing about the Bulletin we supposed to produce by July. Then about the survey results n my proposal of course. Though, there's a lot that I got to add n modify.. damn tired..

#I'm tired.. I feel like crying when I'm tired.. I cry whenever I'm really tired.. hehee

Get involve with..

They were discussing about some1 that I know. About how she got a playboy as a bf. In a way i feel pity for her especially when it happen to be her first love. But then, thinking of what I've been thru, whats the different with me? Well, u know the 'he will change' thingy.. ermm I heard it b4, in fact I'm sooooooooo used to it.

See, this is my 3rd entry for today. It's not bcoz I got nothing to do.. it's just I've done so much reading n understanding n extracting n typing n rephrasing. I'm damn tired n my brain is exhausted. The first entry was for cheer my self up, the second one was bcoz I'm soooooooo pissed off and the third one is bcoz suddenly this matter just pop up in my mind.

Not looking back to the past.. it just that sometime I wondering y is that I always get to know the wrong person.. y is that I always got into a person who has this 'I'll change' or 'I've change' or 'I'm different' claims or attitude.. urmm whatever.. it always happened to be that I'll always mix with wrong person..hehee.. but that's life rite? There's pro n cont when u r dealing with ppl. Anyway I'm glad that I know them.. Doesn't matter what happened there must b a reason.. cuma, I hope no 1 hv ever got as bad experience as I'm.

SOmetimes I wish this is all dream n when I wake up... some1 will call me as it used to be telling me that evrything is just fine n all I've been thru all this while is just a bad dream..

SUCI.... WAKE UP!!!

Happy Father's Day

While 'lepakking' after almost 60% of the proposal finished, I realized that I haven't call Papa to wish Happy Father's Day. The most important person in my life that the important reason that I am what I am rite now. Thanks Papa for everything. I love u so much..

Reload another 10bucks to call Papa. Asking how Papa n Mama. He told me that Mama still @Kampung.. taking care of grandma. N now the truth revealed. My fucking aunty who stole grandma money is the person responsible on grandma condition. That fucking bitch even prepare a fake wills so that she will inherit evrything that grandma own. The thing is how on earth that bitch know about grandma's inheritance coz the bitch is mom's cozin. Not mom's sista. Papa was the one who pissed off over this matter coz he's the one who gv grandma money.

Here the story begin, she took out all money grandma had in the bank with the help of one bank officer who happened to be d daughter of the bitch's fren. N claim that grandma took it all out. Then she prepare the fake will, which said that all inheritance will b given to her. Once grandma sign the will, she told grandma that her money no longer hers so she left broke now. Since that fucking bitch knows that grandma not very well, n such news will gv her heart attack, she told her that even the house (my family house) will be taken by bank. Grandma got her heart attack. She really hope that grandma will die, so she'll get evrything that grandma own. Luckily my mom's sis knows this earlier n took grandma, bring her to her house n take care of her. Plus mama wire the money for grandma medicine.

The best thing is, Papa no longer wanna trust mama's family side n now things are getting hard when Papa report this thing to mama's cozin who happen to be the Director of the Bank. Now, I wish all ppl who actually involve in this matter will be fired n thrown to the jail. Especially the bitch n her fuckin siblings n her mom. Go to hell all of u.

If anything happened to my grandma, I'll make sure Om Datuk will throw all of u in the jail. Now askin forgiveness like hell n evryone stand to say its their fault. Who fucking care?? These ppl should be shot to death so they will never appear in any birth.

I'm pissed off coz of this news i heard from papa n also coz I spend the whole 10 bucks for this unhappy news. Damn!! I wish I can kick their ass. Arghhhhh tension!!!!!

Break

I'm completing my proposal which supposed to be submitted next week. I gotta prepare for the presentation of my proposal by end of July. The best thing is, I'm still in the mood of holiday n playing around. Still not yet competent enough to start the-further-study-thingy. In fact, still not understand enough what actually I'm gonna go. Just lost my lust to do masters. But for the sake of love n care n thankfulness to my parents, I'll do this further-study-thingy with full heart. I heart my parents. Thanks for evrything u've given to me..

To make myself feeling better.. lets hv a break for a while n njoy this...

Words Women Use

Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up. - Yup, I lurvee to use this word when I want the other party to shut their mouth up.. n its work.. hehe

Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house. -hehe, if I'm about to dress up, meaning my 5 minutes could be half n hour but if I'm on my way... my 5 minutes could be n hour..hehee.. it depends actually.. no such 5 minutes actually :D

Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something" and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with "nothing" usually end in "fine". - This words usually come up when, I'm thinking of something n I just dun wanna get headache by gv to much damn about it.. hehee

Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission, DON'T DO IT! - exactly rite.. it's a DARE, not PERMISSION

Loud Sigh
Although not actually a word, the loud sigh is often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing". - hehee

That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements that woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake. - Well, it doesn't mean I forgive u. It just that I dun wanna arguing over it anymore.. so just cut the crab..hehee

Thanks
This is the least used of all words in the female vocabulary. If a woman is thanking you. Do not question it, just say you're welcome and back out of the room slowly.hehee



Send this to the Men you know and want to help, or to the Women you know for a laugh.

This is cute I hope it makes the trip to your computer
B EHIND EVERY SUCCESSFUL WOMAN IS HERSELF

AWOMAN IS LIKE A TEA BAG... YOU DON'T KNOW HOW STRONG SHE IS UNTIL YOU PUT HER IN HOT WATER

IHAVE YET TO HEAR A MAN ASK FOR ADVICE ON HOW TO COMBINE MARRIAGE AND A CAREER

C OFFEE, C HOCOLATE, MEN. SOME THINGS ARE JUST BETTER RICH

WARNING: I HAVE AN ATTITUDE AND I KNOW HOW TO USE IT

O F COURSE I DON'T LOOK BUSY... I DID IT RIGHT THE FIRST TIME

IF YOU WANT BREAKFAST IN BED,SLEEP IN THE KITCHEN

#Feeling better now.. so I wanna continue my proposal writing.. Chiowww

I wanna dance..

I wanna dance..
Remember the first time u ask me to dance?
I know nothing about dancing..
But U show me how..
I wanna dance but u r not around..
I wanna move my body against yours..
I wanna feel the rhythm..
I wanna hv the moment freeze for me to njoy it..
Let's have another dance when we meet..
I miss u..


#takkan nk ajak henry lak nari ngan aku.. wakakkaaa

Rain Rain Go Away

Smlm blk rumah ngan mata bengkak. Even pg ni sblh mata still lg bengkak. Touch up skit ngan eyeliner n eyeshadow.. tak nampak sangat.

So this morning kinda not really in d mood.. so start up life with not-so-good-mood. Had to finish off da survey oceanography thingy. Hohoho.. just couldn't believe I jump from Food Tech to Marine Science.. wakakakaa.. hell great Suci!! (just to make myself happy) :)

I was kene marah this evening by a great great great fren of mine. The best fren ever.. well, its quite sometimes tak ingat pasal hiM.. smlm tiba2 je pun.. teringat kat him..tu pun sebab gatal baca email lelama tu..hehe.. its hard to forget 4 yrs relationship. Lagi2 first love. It's damn hell hurt u know..

Sedangkan lelaki pun blh jd biol putus cinta.. lg la pulak pompuan.. ada gak yg bercinta setahun lebih bila putus jd tak betul.. bukanla giler just that he didn't walk on the rite path la.. senang citer.. lenglong je hidup..

Not saying I'm still in the rite path.. aku pun da jauh terpesong.. but still I can stand n walk still in the rite manner. Hohohoo... Tp da almost 2 years da ni.. any1 nk teman aku celebrate 2 yrs break off celebration.. hehe.. this year lg meriah.. 50yrs Malaysia merdeka.. yup exactly on the August 31.

Tonite mood kinda ok.. Thanks again to the best fren ever... Love u so so muchh..

So my great great great fren.. thanks 4 d advice.. U'll always my best fren ever.. Love u so much!!!

I'm sorry Goodbye

Sebelum bertemu denganmu
hidupku bahagia
semenjak bertemu denganmu
kumakin bahagia
semakin lama aku smakin
tau tentang engkau
sedikit kecewa
ternyata engkau tak baik

pertama tama semua manis yang engkau berikan
membuat aku merasakan cinta sebenarnya
semakin hari semakin terungkap yang sesungguhnya
kumakin kecewa
ternyata kau penuh dusta

Maafkan ku harus pergi
ku tak suka dengan ini
aku tak bodoh
seperti kekasihmu yang lain

Terima kasih oh tuhan
kau tunjukkan siapa dia
maaf kita putus
so thank you so much
im sorry goodbye

seribu cara kau membuat
ku dengan puitis
maybe kau lupa
bahwa aku juga manusia
yang punya mata
telinga hati dan perasaan
maaf aku pergi
dan takkan untukmu lagi

Maafkan ku harus pergi
ku tak suka dengan ini
aku tak bodoh

ku harus pergi
tak seperti kekasihmu yang lain
Terima kasih oh tuhan
kau tunjukkan siapa dia
maaf kita putus
so thank you so much
im sorry good bye

# I'm confuse...

Him again...

I was cleaning up my email's box n found hiS email. I wanna delete it but I read for the very last time.. I couldn't stop myself.. it's still there.. can't stop the tears.. bila I can get over this feeling??
I say I will always love him... always mean always.. its so hurt to pretend not to hv any feeling on him..

In his first email once he reached USA.

You ask me if I love you,
and I ask myself how to begin
to share with you
the feelings in my heart.

You inspire in me a love so deep
words cannot describe it,
so powerful that it overwhelms
my every thought.

You ask me if I love you,
and I wish there were a way
you could just see into my soul
and find the depth of passion,
tenderness, and love
that holds you closer to my heart
than anyone or anything else.

You ask me if I love you,
and I look into the magic
of your eyes and promise,
"Yes I love you...
I always will".

# Y is that I always love u... coz my love 2 u is so pure.. though u hurt me over n over.. i still can't stop this feeling..

n 4 YOU, I'm sorry.. I can't get any place 4u in my heart.. still can't..Im so sorry..

Salam cinta kpd isteri yg teramat nakal!!!!!!!!

1st----Ramai nyer pemintat kat friendster yer sayang....carefull just jgn lps batasan

2nd ---- baiknyer dia tolong amin....mmg nak kena

Finally---bbbbbbbbbbb!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mmg nak kena ngan i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u dah lupa ker i nak blk this monday huh?!!!!!!!!!! u mmg nak kena belasah ngan i tau....u jaga,...i akan kerja kan u btul2 i dah xkira now....b jaga aaa....

Amin dah send u thanks email...u mmg nak kena ngan i tau...u jaga babe....i will find my way around it....n i will steal her away from amin

B4 i was playin now im 4real ...n im will do this with pleasure....n fun....this will b my sport...u nak join ngan shoba n amin....join aaa shoba dah nak blk US xlama lagi u punya alliance xkekal lama aaa...heheh....n its all ur fault!!! sapa suruh xddk diam jer n ckp u xtau apa2 but u hav 2 tell amin kan...

I mis u babe...i love u sooooo mmmmmuuuucccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

I wish i can hold u n kiss n hug u so hard...coz im longin 4 ur touch babe....no matter wat happen i wanna us 2b 2gether no matter wat....n dats i promise u n i wanna u not 2hav any doubt on me....my heart is urs n it 4ever will b!

Love u babe....

# I miss him

Lawakla kamu ni...

Real story with some 'edit'ing...

SMS

"Wah, no more call for me lately. Other guys keep calling but none from u. Good Luck anyway. Lets call it a day. :p"
"I'm dating with Izzie"
"Fine. Now we r through. O.V.E.R! Thanks 4 evrything"
"I'm going home. Dun rush on doing such a stupid decision like this."

Few minutes later...

"Hye. What's wrong babe?"
"Well, u hvn't call me. What? Askin me what's wrong?"
"So just bcoz I didn't call u wanna call it a day? It is all over? What is this?"
"Hurmm..."
"It is just bcoz I didn't call rite?"
Bla.. bla.. bla.. bla...
Bla.. bla.. bla.. bla...

"Think properly dear.."
"Hurm.."
"It's not over yet rite?"

After quite a long silent..

"Hahahhaaaa... how could u believe that its over? We haven't start it yet? How could it over?"
"Ha.. ha.."
"How do u feel?"
"Like eating rice!Why? what do u expect? Expecting me to say it's hurt? It's painful like hell?"
"Haha.. just wanna make u feel what others feel.."
"Let bygone be bygone.. dun bring it up.. forget it ok. Hv I ever bring up anything about ur past?"
"Hurmm..."


Just b4 went for a deep sleep.. an SMS coming..
" Don't do it again!"

Hahaaa.. lawakla kamu ni..

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Grandma getting worse. N that stupid bitch who claimed to be my aunty (this fuckin bitch should be killed long time ago) took all the money my grandma has. Now Mama gotta go back to bring the grandma to hospital n take care of her for quite sometimes..

Arghh.. again Mama left Papa.. it's gonna be a big topic in papa's family side. Sometimes I just wonder, can we just get married n get rid of these other family claimed like members.. Damn.. like they ever help if we needs help n now they r trying to create another stupid fucking problem.. can u just stay ur ass away from my family.. I'm starting to hate this so called big family thingy.. go to hell all of u bitches!! May all members of grandma's younger sista go to helllllllllll..........


# I'm pissed off... Sorry of my language..

Lautan 13..

Nadal remain undefeated..

I've made the right decision to drive all the way from KL to Kuantan yesterday. There were pretty much car on the road, so it's just fine with me who driving all alone. Got myself a bottle of 100+, Livita and sunflower seeds (kuaci) to ensure my eyes open all the way.. hehe..

The driving was ok till I reach Lanchang. I was stucked in the heavy rain, I dun hv gut to drive coz I can barely see the car in front of me. So I just slowly drive my car till R&R. It was a hell frightened experience especially when I'm all alone.

Arrived safely @ Kuantan on 7.04pm, which took me around 3 hours.

Then, went out with the girls to watch Ocean 13. It's a hell great. I would suggest u guys to watch it. Hehee.. especially when U've watched Ocean 11 n 12. If the previous 2 movies were all about own benefit, this time u'll see how they put sum1 down over revenge. Hahaa.. just nice. Really enjoy this movie compared to Spiderman 3.


# Teringat kat Nadal.. hehee n bowling.. hahaaa

What hurt the most...??

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do


#It's so fucking hurt..

Real bad...

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever


I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Ok, lemme start this entry with this song. Especially after having a quite bad cry over an old movie which I dun get an oppurtunity to watch earlier. It took me almost a day to watch Armageddon since I had a quite busy day today. Got to do lot of things and went to few places to get few things done.

Went to Klang to withdraw some money for insurance fee, then send the kancil to get new plate no, then hv a good time at Kapar with few friends, then company papa to get the sunwisor DVD player for his car n fetch Nurul from her tuition.

Erm, back to the movie. Its Armageddon actually. Kinda funny huh I haven't watch it? I tot it merely about war n I dun like anything about war or anything alike so I kinda dun gv any damn about that movie. Then come, these djc-ian who were saying its a great movie to watch n bla bla bla.. (well u know how promoter promotes :p )

So, get myself a time to watch the movie ol.

Hmm.. well, I didn't cry.. i didn't cry for the first 3/4 of the storyline.. hehe.. but at the end.. my tears came down very bad. Such a sad movie. I couldn't hold my tears .. i cry real bad. Damn movie! hahaa..

Anyway, I love 2 parts in this movie. 1- the moment, harry pulls AJ's air hose out and pushes AJ back into the hatch (sedih giler part ni..) 2- the moment, harry has his last words with grace. And exchange their last, emotional goodbye.

# I got few forums to watch movie ol and easy n faster.. I like it..

Wuteva

Cinta akan hadir....
Bila sesuatu telah hilang...


# I got this from a movie I just watched.

Sumtime, siblings pun kt tak blh percaya. My parents da byk kali tertipu ngan my aunty n sorang ni n yet still nk trust her with hope.. she'll change!. This morning, with the news nenek sakit, then money yg mom wire 4 her, was taken by sedara mara dia.. my mom sakit jiwa ngan berita she was like kene tipu for almost 20juta. Which is around 7ribu duit malaysia la. Its quite a lot la..

The money was wire to tine kaki tipu tu tuk setelkan hal rumah sewa. Nk renovate rumah sewa kat sana.. alih2 kene tipu lak.. my dad da bengang giler. Now kat rumah ni rasa cam evryone moody je. Aku plak asik kene keja ngan Dr Raj n im running away.. dem!!

Won't be around.. aku lari dari diri sendiri...

About the 'past'..

I was writing about som1 'quote' in the prev. entry n some ppl think, i wrote about one particular person. Kejadahnye aku nk tls sal dia??

Okla, that one, kira under consideration lg la.. but then.. come the new issue, its all about that particular person.. hmm.. Im tiredla ok.. it got nothing to do with any1 or anything. I write what I want, copy n paste whatever I like.. Do I make myself clear??

Ohya, so dat some of u wont get confused, the person I missed to talk to was my used to be honey. So tlgla paham ye..

Nway, this is my blog so up to mela.. nk tulis sal aper.. huh

Life is still a life..

Life, no matter how hard.. live on..
Learnt something today, when u were not in ur habitat, get to know the rules n regulation of the new habitat.
That is rule of life..
It is so simple but yet, ppl always forget.
I did that mistake which I unintentionally forgot..
I'm sorry..
I forgot that I'm no longer belong to d community..
I forgot the rule of life..


Do u know how great it feels to talk with the person u used to love? I kinda miss to talk with him rite now.. hehee..

"The height of pain in life is to sit near the person u love d most .....
but you never told here how much you love her !!!!! "


#CInta tak harus memiliki..

Bagi sesetengah orang, terminologi “Cinta itu tak harus memiliki” adalah kata-kata bagi orang yang telah kalah dan bagi kaum yang cintanya ditolak. Yeah, suka atau tidak, itu memang milik orang yang telah mengalami kasih tak sampai. Tapi, kali ini, marilah kita merenungkan terminologi itu dengan agak sedikit dewasa (halah.. sok bijak.. sok dewasa).

Apakah benar, rasa sayang dan cinta itu harus memiliki? Apakah untuk menyayangi orang yang kita cintai, maka kita harus menjadi kekasihnya? Jika perasaan ketika menjadi kekasih, sewaktu masih dalam waktu perkenalan dengan perasaan ketika kita disakiti kerana cinta ditolak berbeza, itu adalah kasih sayang TIPU. Rasa sayang itu hanyalah diadakan agar kita mendapatkan balasan sayang juga. Dan secara hukum, itu bisa dikategorikan sebagai penipuan terencana (halah, sok serius pulah).

Cinta dan sayang yang ideal tentunya adalah ikhlas. Cinta adalah memberi dan berkorban tanpa mengharapkan balas apapun dari sang kekasih. Pengorbanan, tentu saja bukan hanya pengorbanan waktu, tenaga, dan material, namun seringkali yang terasa sangat sakit adalah korban perasaan. Bayangkan, mampukah engkau tersenyum bahagia di saat sang kekasih memperkenalkan kekasihnya kepadamu, menjabat tangannya dengan hangat dan berkata, “Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullah…“, semoga rahmat Allah tetap ada padamu! Mampukah engkau merasa bahagia melihatnya berbahagia bersama orang pilihannya?

Ah, tentu saja hal itu amat sulit dilakukan. Kita hanyalah manusia biasa yang punya cita2 dan motivasi. Apapun yang kita lakukan, tentu ada upah meskipun sekecil pasir. Jika tak ada upah, lalu apa motivasi kita melakukan itu? Hanya karena sayang? Yakin? Apakah benar kita tidak mengharapkan untuk kembali kepada kita suatu hari nanti? Apakah benar kita tidak mengharapkan untuk mendapatkan senyum manisnya? Karena senyum manis itulah yang rasanya bisa mengobati luka-luka meskipun sebentar….

Namun demikian, aku tetap yakin bahwa cinta yang ikhlas itu tetap ada. Parameternya, jika kamu tetap menyayanginya, tetap baik padanya, tetap membantunya ketika ia memerlukan pertolongan, itu artinya kamu bisa dikatakan telah ikhlas. Lepas dari berapa besar korban perasaan yang kamu derita. Terlepas berapa lebar luka yang terkoyak di hatimu. Namun jika engkau telah tersenyum tatkala melihat orang yang kau cintai itu berbahagia, aku yakin, itulah cinta tanpa balasan itu.

Nah, setelah ini, akan muncul pertanyaan, apakah dengan kita tetap menyayanginya, itu berarti dia tetap ada di hati? Dan itu artinya tidak adil untuk seorang yang baru masuk ke dalam kehidupan? Karena cinta kepadanya akan terbagi dengan cinta masa lalu?

100 days

Genap 100 hari arwah 'pergi' menemui Allah..
Al- Fatihah..
Always miss u dude..

" kau terindah di hati ku..
mungkin aku..tak mampu untuk meraihmu.."

For you..

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indah
kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujimu
Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku
I would never get some1 like u.. Thanks for evrything.. U just make me feel so great n I always do.. tho u r no longer around...

#Shrek sangat tak best..