Con te Partiro...

A friend is having difficulty in love.. which then makes me a not very right person giving her a piece of advice..
But yet, I did..
Well, you know.. as Rossa said 'Tak semua laki2 busuk.." but most of it yea..
Busuk as in not in its real meaning la.. then u hv to find out what the hell 'busuk' meant in her song.
Seeing her crying over one stupid.. damn stupid guy, gv some ache in my heart. Somehow, I saw myself in her. When I was so fuckin stupid back then. Yet, I've all the friends in the world by my side, yet she's alone.
What we did? A little drama here n there which then every single drama strangle myself to death. Hurt me even worst but guess what, no regret. All of it.. a very precious experience in life to be remembered.

The same whole things repeated here.. hohoho..


Went to Medan Ikan Bakar Jeram, last nite. It was on my request.. but the food wasn't as our expectation. Papa said it was wayyyyy to far to reach his satisfaction. Memang tak sedap. Wonder how Kak Yana can say, the place is good. Well, no more after this.. not good for me, not good for my family. The price can be considered cheap la..but the taste.. I'm sorry, very bad!

Eika is taking her driving license class starting today. She get excited over having license soon. So pasni she can drive like crazy la.. Looking at her, in her 40kg body, trust me she even had drive lorry. So, shame on those big guys whom still don't know how to drive. Get yourself a license soon!! Will ya!

My updates? Having an on and off affairs with ppl. Yea bitching around like usual. Yet, only those who can stand me and my way will stay.. the rest just jump away. Likely, I'm into chinese nowadays.. tell me why?? I guess because of my childhood dreams kot.. I always wanted to have chinese boyfriend.. ahakss.. sampai kata, if say I can't marry one, jadi bf pun is more than enoff.. ahakss.. N, this chinese guy is from Sarawak.. that's not the funny part! Hell yeah.. I started speaking S'wak somehow, though byk giler words I haven't heard. Blom gik ngan chinese term nyak. Haiyahhh... (btw, Mal sorry.. I was really forgot that u r S'wakian.. huhuuu)
Most likely, I can see Papa is holding parang if he ever heard about this chinese guy thingy.. hoohoohooo...

Takpela, tak dapat real chinese, chinese look pun ok pa.. Any1?? hahaaa

# Poster conference tak wat lagi.. Malas gilak aritok..
Internet slow gilak sampei rasa nk nyumpah jak... Sabar jaklah.. huhuuu


NANA.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!!

Kembali ke alam kenangan...

Tatau nk tulis aper..
Idea.. Lost..
Just now, aku bukak blog lama aku.. zaman2 aku baru putus ngan 1st love.. cheitt..
Zaman2 aku baru berhubungan ngan 'bestfriend' aku..
Zaman2 aku rasa aku jatuh cinta buat kali kedua..
Zaman2 aku rasa somebody betul2 da buat aku get over 1st love..
Zaman2 yg aku rasa sangat happy sekali..
Aku rindu sangat zaman tu..

Tapi bila2 da tua ni, kenangan tu jadi sesuatu yg sangat berharga..
Aii love it..
All the terms..
Teng-teng..
Orang tuh..
Mr X..

Whatever..
When there were times, Mr Orenz asik bagi komen..
Mr A.. Mr N.. Mr S.. Mr I..
Akak.. Ady.. Yazi.. Awin..
Thoseever... whoever..

Weh... the blog is still exist...
Conversation ngan Mr S..
Argument ngan Mr Orenz..
Hahaa..

Aku cam tak caya je.. it's all there..
So there it is.. Aku sangat malas arini..
kenangan2 ni buat aku rasa sangat malas.. hehee

Mentally, Emotionally and Physically Exhausted...

It wasn't pass a week after coming back from notsolong holiday, yet I had myself a stress all over again. Geezzz..

Well, this is expected from the very beginning but never in mind had I ever imagine it will be this worst. The first day in work, I was given a new task and it was like repeating the whole fucking series of work which has been damnly repeated before. Hell, life was like in hell!!

Tuesday, I ran for the animal handling training, which me, myself had killed 3 cute little mice for the bleeding purposes. Yea, after cardiac puncture, the mice still alive and I had to purposely kill them by break their neck. I was sinfully cruel.. Damn me!!

2nd day of training, I had to kill another 3 mice and 2 rats. Test was performed in the evening and I failed my first paper.. hahaa.. for a RM1600 course, it was a shame to fail..

Yet, I failed 3 papers. Huhuu... :p Like I say.. who cares??

OK, done with the training..

Saturday n Sunday, another training and got to finish some unfinish stuffs. So stay in the lab till 9pm on sat and 8pm on Sunday. What a pity life!!

Today, I kinda MALASSSSSS giler to do anything.. So I'll be walking around to do stuffs.. for relaxing.. huhuu..

Guys, check the Perhentian Pics @ my FACEBOOK

Till then.. I need a break again.. after 1 week stressful working day.. Ahakss

Pissed off...

I cried myself out yesterday. All d way from campus to the house.
I cried like a baby. I cried with sounds which never happened before.
Whenever I cry, sob is the only sound will be heard.
Yesterday, was the worst cry ever..

I didn't cry that way when my first love breaks my heart.
I didn't cry that way when the person I love wants us to be apart.
I didn't cry that way when being scolded for going to Bangkok on my own.

But I cried like hell bcoz of that SOB.
I can never keep everything on my own. Was really disappointed and need some 1 to talk to.
I don't really need a boyfriend for that. All I need is an understanding parents.
I know, each time my dad sees me cry, he cries himself inside too..
But I need him to know my situation.. my hardness.. my life..
Family is important to him..
But not when his own family treating his daughter real bad.
How dare that 'Sob' treated me the way that Papa couldn't even imagine.
If he can turn back time.. for sure Papa will never pay a penny for dat 'Sob' studies expenses.

Now, let me finish my things.. n then you and you family can go to HELLLL!!!
I may don't have uncle to pay my expenses but I hv a FATHER who are willing to do that for me.
If my dad can pay an expenses throughout 4 years study time, he much more willing to pay for my expenses double of the time.

I really need a break. I'm going to Kuantan tonight. Need a refresh. Perhaps tomorrow we'll go to Perhentian again.

Mencari kenangan yg masih tersisa....

Si Penjaga Parking..

Actually, aii kinda mad at him. Obviously, tenggelam timbul as he wish..
Sapa tak bengang kan?

Ermm, it has been what eh yang? more than 2 weeks kot he's not around. I mean we were not in touch. As I fully understood his business as "Penjaga Parking", I don't really give so much damn for the first one week. But then, on the second week, I started to feel uncomfortable. U know, who knows something might have happened and yet I don't know. So, I try to call him.. UNREACHABLE..
Again, I try to sms.. my 1st sms was delivered with no reply. The second one failed. So, again I had this good thinking perhaps his phone MIA or whatever good reason I can think of. Oh ya, it's a millenium era, so I left him a message in whatever media I might be able to.. YM, Email, FB, FS.. whatever..
No reply..
After two weeks, I had this feeling. Owh.. he's no longer available.. Die?? I can't think the worst..
Sorry yayang.. u started first.. :p

This afternoon, when I was having headache with LC (chromatography always gv ppl headache.. trust me!), heard an sms beep from my old, cheap nokia phone.
"Hello, hehe yayangku. Baru balik dari Afganistan. How are u yang?"
Who on earth will still smile receiving such msg? You tell me??
So aii reply with not really friendly msg.. huhuu..
"Owh hidup gik. All this while u kat afgan? What r u doing there? Kejar Osama laden?I'm sulking! Not talking! Btw, u ok ke?"
See.. girls no matter how mad they are still concern tau tak!!
Well the rest of the conversation is history.. :p
Btw, did I tell you my headache not getting any better?? huhuu (although i know he's fine & alive)

But still yayangku si penjaga parking.. I'm mad as hell..
Not talking.. Still sulking..
Glad, u r fine n able to find ur way back here.. :p

So.. the mystery is no longer mystery
My yayangku still alive and kicking.. :D

Oh ya, how about friends who are sick?
Have you been well? Going to Subang again tomorow..
Hope you are doing well friend. Miss your smile n laugh..
Lets enjoy the life to the fullest!!