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I thought I'll never be able to come back home safely...

I was so sick last nite.. The same feeling I had when I was on the way to reach Mt. Stong peak. Pain all over the body, in fact I went to bed a bit early n woke up kinda late this morning. I hd the strange feeling last nite, feeling like dying.. I called Mom n ask for her forgiveness.. I heard her worried sound when she heard me crying.. Then call Papa n do the same thing. Well, I never been sick this bad n my bad thinking keep leading me to death thingy kind of thought. Yea.. I seriously think I’ll die. Alhamdulillah I’m still strong enoff, May Allah gv me a chance to repent all the sins I’ve done through out this life..

Maybe that’s the good sight of this Mt Stong trip. Allah shows me HIS Mighty.. Alhamdulillah..

Hmm.. since I am a very ‘manja’ person… n I used to be ‘dimanjakan’ when I was sick.. I kinda not get to used to this lonely feeling when I’m sick. Of course, I’ve great roommates who excellently has highly concern over her room partner.. ehehe.. but a girl is still a girl, no matter how strong she claims she is.. I need attention.. I need careness.. I need loves.. huh..

My bad that I think about someone who really care about me back then.. the only person who shows his concern in his own way which nobody yet to reach his way of concern.. I’m sorry that I’ve this feeling.. but I do miss the way he taking care of me when I was sick back then.. I’m seriously fucking miss him..

I’m wondering how could u claim u love some1 but u dun gv a damn on what actually happen to him/her. Well, u may said.. u hv ur own way of showing ur attention or concern... but hell show it to tree which don’t hv feeling like human being do!.

#Thanks for the concern.. I do appreciate it..