Down!

When it comes to my things, they never fail me..
I know how hard for them to see me sad..
Yet, one by one let me down..

It's not the first time..
Since I was a kid..
I should be able to understand stuffs..
But I just can't take it anymore..
Why it has always to be me??

Its not that, I'm the only person who ever did sin in life..
Its not that, I'm the only person who experience such thing in life..
Its not that, I'm the only person who holding the same stat..
But why it's only me??

I'm not questioning YOU, GOD..
How could I question YOU..
I just don't understand my ownself..
Show me the right path, YA ALLAH..
I think, I almost losing my mind.

~~Tears is no longer a solution~~

Be patience Cici...

I'm kinda out of my mind rite now..
So many things at one time.. I'm not blaming anyone.. but last nite I was so down that i almost put the blame on.... but then I realize this is all the test I've got from Allah. I gotta be patience and face it wisely..

My lpc was jahanam n asked nahar to at least retrieve some document for me but unluckily, he couldnt save a thing. Not even that F hard disk. I don't bother about the hard disk. I can buy the new one, or the better one.. but the files i got in there.. My 3 months masters material. Everything is gone. I did a copy on my thumb drive but it was affected by virus n I lost everything. Not a thing is retrieved n I'm really out of my mind. I wish this trip will wash away all the problems and I'll feel better.. I hope.. I really hope.. God help me on this please...

I'm having class this thursday and not much to prepare as we've prepared most of the things earlier. But still feel guilty leave the class on Dr Raj alone. Sorry Sir. i really need a break!!

Some of it, i rather not to expose it here.. I'll take care of it myself.

This morning, when I'm about to get my ass out of d house, I couldn't find the key. Sorry, I was really pissed off coz there's no key left n how on earth I'm gonna get out of that house.. Keep cursing all the way looking for that F key. Since I was so late.. I went out thru back door! Found my key at the backseat of my car. Damn irritated.. I was so freaking mad!! Bengang tahap dewa19 da tau tak!!!!

Once I reach campus, straight to Dr Jalal room but he's not around. Damn I'm late. Warghhh sangat tersiksa arini.. I wanna send the lpc to the town of they can retrieve the documents in there.. Pray for me guys!!


#Going back this evening with full of stone on my head..

Kehilangan...

My laptop dah jahanam..




I'm so tensed!!!! Adakah dia merajuk sebab aku ngan nana gurau2 nk beli laptop kaler2?? huhuuu

Nway.. get away with the laptop thingy fer a while.. I need a break!!!

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Husni, aru n their fren ( I couldn't recall his name) were visiting me last monday. I wasn't well remember.. so they just pay a visit for a 'sick' fren. I guess Aru is getting hotter each time I meet him.. hohooo.. (Papa sangat melarang aku meminati kaum India) hehee.. Anyway, nice meeting plus knowing the other guy who turn to be personal trainer kinda exciting a bit. I need his help to reduce the spare tyre I got here n there.. hohooo..

Last nite, prepare media for class until almost 2am. I left those guys to do the rest. My eyes are hardly open. Seyes yesterday kinda hard day. Plus ptg tu i was preparing so much thing which make me so tired like hell..

Okla.. mite prop I wont b able to update the blog frequently coz my laptop is JAHANAM!! Any1 nk belikan laptop baru?? huwaaa.. i need my laptop!!


# Rasa sangat tertekan tanpa kehadiran laptop tercinta.. huhuhhh