It's not easy...

It's not easy to be parents..
It's not easy to be guardian..
U need to be prepared..

Today, early in the morning.. I got a call..
Telling me about what she saw..
About my youngest sista...
She's 15... still underage..
I can't accept if she went out with guy..
I may sound conservative but yea.. I'm..
I used to be teenager..
I've gone thru all the shit n farkap life..
I've been there..
I don't want my sis step into such life yet..
She still young, still not able to decide what rite n what is wrong..

I almost had heart attack..
It's my fault to let her stay at my aunt's house..
It's my fault I didn't gv much attention to her..
It's my fault if something happened to her..

Where should I go?
Who should I talk to?
Hell yes.. I've uncles.. I've aunties but do they care?
They don't fucking care..
Since mom n dad away not once they call or ask if we r ok..
I'm not asking much.. I dun gv a damn bout them.. Let them be..
Afterall, not a single day.. I let my siblings hungry.. as I still hv my money.. I'll make sure they get what they want..

I tell you..
I feel burden with such responsibilities.. but I've to..
And it's hard to control a teenager.. especially girl..
Luckily, my bro didn't get his max anger n find the boy..
It was almost up to that point..
I still had my heart ache..
It's not easy to be parents..
Especially when U've grown up children..
ur children will always in ur mind..

Can't concentrate on my job..
Thinking to much bout my sis..
I gotta bring her back home..
She'll be grounded for 2 weeks..
No internet.. no phone.. a big NO NO for every aid of communication..
I wish I'm strong enof to be strict!!

#Sometimes, it is great to hv nobody rather than having somebody who doesn't care.. It's better not to hv relatives rather than having those who'll be by urside when u r some1.. Hell..I hate to hv this feeling.. but I wish they are not my relatives... WTF!!