I love you Ma..

Mama pengsan lagi this evening. I didn't go to work as aku not feeling well. Pewot still buat hal lg. Maybe bcoz eat too much.

Since, I'm off from working today so I spent time for rest as I've been so busy n tired for the fast few days. While Mom, not having enof rest bcoz of the kenduri thingy fainted again in the afternoon and evening. She's too weak. I kinda worried. Dad sent her to clinic, got her medicine n all the supplements.Tp still Mom tak larat nk bangun from bed. N me need to be by her side... urut2 her hand b4 they bcome cramp. It's always like that, if Mom pengsan or not very well or get shocked with notsogood news, nanti kejang belilang satu badan. At that moment, all of us will burst into tears. So usually, bila jd camni.. each one of us will amik sblh tangan or kaki n urut2 to make sure tak kejang. Otherwise, it will takes hours b4 Mom gain her conscious.

Me pun not feeling very good today so once Mom getting better as her body response well bla dipanggil n she started to open her eyes.. Dad take over the taking care thingy. N me get my rest n tdo. I'm really tired ok. Dad woke me up afta Asar n ask me to make some porridge for mom as she keeps vomiting. Whatever she ate, will be out after a while. She's too weak. N I'm so fucking worry. Plus, my bro didn't call or answer call. She must be worried bout that. My bro went to get his motorcycle from police station sbb my cozin nye case arituh. Mom taknak makan bubur, she teringin nk mkn yong taufu. N where on earth aku nk cari benda tuh.. Today no night market around.. so after calling2 few friends (thanks guys... really appreciate it) yg aku baru kenal2 ol nih.. ada yg offer to get it for me. So aku p amik kat Meru. Sometimes, orang yg kita tak kenal pun can be so good.. Especially, bila aku da takde phone ni.. so net frens jela yg bleh nk harap pun.

Lepas Mom makan (sgt sikit ye), we all ajak lepak baring kat living hall n sumer start urut2 tangan n kaki. Bila time2 camni, I can't tell how I feel. I'm so scared.. I'm afraid of losing her. It's hurt.. I can't stop the flow of my tears. She's my mom.. My only mom. I love her so much.. Try to call the bro again.. tp still tak dapat. Mom getting worry.. hard to breath..we hv to keep her awake.. otherwise she'll pengsan n kejang2 lagi. Then, dad call n pretend as my bro answer the call. Kalau tak something bad mite happen to MOm. N where on earth tah budak bertuah tu g. Hantu sungguh!!

After magrib td, Kak Ida (our helper) ajak bw g urut.. perhaps lepas urut bleh longgar whatever urat2 ke aper ke.. So Dad sent MOm n Kak Ida kat umah sorang makcik tu. Mom da bleh jalan on her own.. Alhamdulillah..

Plz pray for my Mom's wellness.