Life is so unexpected 5

My usedtobe bestfriend told me, it is normal for any guy to get turn on/hard on with any girl. (tp depends on tahap keimanan la) Iman? I mean like wtf?? Owh sorry, maybe betul kot.. org yg beriman blh control nafsu. Yet I'm talking about normal man. So it is bullshit about love, about happily everafter stuffs.. It is merely s**. So, if you cannot make guys turn on.. u r not attractive. Hell no. let me come to this conclusion.. If you are hot enof to caused other guys hard on but not ur boy.. something wrong with him, not you. Say, he's a gay. Well, this is my own conclusion ok. So you need to ask the right person about this.

I'm not oppose gay. I've few boyfriends who are gay. They are cool and I love them for being cool. That is their lifestyle. I used to hate them but somehow, when I was in a bad condition not so long time ago.. they were lending hand to help me. They just like my other friends despite that unnatural behavior??.

Does it really true about love? or it just a bullshit and no such thing as making love but it is all s**. Love got nothing to do with turn some1 on or cause hard on to some1. love is pure. love is kind. love never lead to making love. love is union of two heart. Lust lead to s**. Lust lead to other bad things, bad affair, cheating, betrayal n etc etc.

I don't know. I still feel the pain. I know how those ppl feel. I know the pain. It even painful whenever I think he's having fun with some1. It's so faking hurt.
If marriage is just a matter of having s** or making love.. better go and fuck bitches out there rather than turning their life upside down by a license called marriage!

Futnot: Ya Allah, I'm really fakap at the moment. Can't think straight. Help me Ya Allah..