Breakin up..

I got this from The Hustler's, and I can say.. it's quite great n somehow, reflects what actually happened to me.. :p what actually I felt.. long time ago.. long time ago darl.. it was back then..
change it to the 'him' version.. obviously bcoz I'm a gurl.. :p

“Well, what can I say dude? What can I say?”

“If I have learned anything from this, it’s that the most intense part of being in love is the falling in love bit (start) and the break up phase (end) – that’s when your guts get wrenched and you feel like your heart is being ripped out and chopped violently into a thousand pieces.”

“And you know what? That’s the best parts of the time you spend being in love. It’s like you watch these romantic series – Winter Sonata and all, and the main lead actors/actresses falling in love and the yearning and missing-each-other shit kinda makes you feel like shit and on top of the world all over again. That’s the best part of being in love dude.”

“Lately, since my breakup with the guy, I have had flashbacks on how fantastic it was when we met, how our first kiss felt, the exquisite moments of our first time making love to each other and how his face lighted up when I bought him present and stuff…”

“It’s like our whole time together flashed right before my eyes. I started to remember everything and reminiscing about it brought a fresh wave of pain in my heart. Hell, even if I had to do it all over again, I will go ahead and share those experiences with him. It’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved before. Sure, it hurts like so damn painful but I never regretted knowing him and sharing those moments with him.”

“Something I never told you dude… The last time we met about some months back, he just held me in his arms for 10 minutes, put his head against mine and just hugged him silently, not a word exchanged between us. And as I held him, I prayed for his happiness and God’s peace to come upon him that he may continue his life well.”

“Raising my head, I looked down at him and saw his smile. I really knew then that he loved me. And that comforted me a lot even though he had wanted to break up with me. It comforted me that he was fine and I could see in his face that he loved me so much but yet, he wanted to live right and so I reluctantly let him go.”

“My heart was at peace, knowing that I did not lose him because he didn’t love me. In spite of it all, he still loved me and knowing that was enough for me. I guess after all that time, investment and heartfelt effort in our relationship – just knowing that he loved me gave me strength to let him go…”

“Sometimes, when you love someone so much, you let him go because you love him and you want him to be happy. Even if you are crying deep inside and even if you are hurting so damn badly, you just pick yourself up and move on. Because I feel if you love someone, you shouldn’t force him to be with you. Love is about giving freely and receiving freely the love from another….”

“I will always love you… Be happy and be free, my love…”

Yea.. I will always love you...