Rojaks...semua bergaul menjadi satu...

We had Biotech BBQ last wednesday. The preparation was made @ our house..These are some stuffs for BBQ..

The chefs were busy with their lambs and chickens..

Maka bertaburanla kalian dimuka bumi yg luas ini untuk makan... hehe

The girls on d way to Mengabang Talipot, T'ganu..

Owh.. there were 4 of us actually..hehe

30th August 2007

It’s my 2^nd break-up anniversary with Mr. S. Out of sudden, I chat with him yesterday without realizing that, the nite would be our 2^nd break-up anniversary. Hohohooo..

He seems very well now, and again just breaks up with his Gen1 girlfriend. See the things, each time he breaks up with someone, he always looking for me.. hehee.. It doesn’t mean anything by this statement but all I can see is, he may think that I’m a person he can always easily dealt with.. N he is so wrong…

Noi, Onah n me went to Megamall to get Pizza for dinner but unluckily we were late n they already closed that day business. So we decided to get McD instead of trying our luck at Pizza Giant. So we went straight to TC and had our dinner overthere. While eating, we were kinda discussing things about past love, guys, boyfriend and etc, which then gv me an idea to send the sms to Mr. S. Wishing him Happy 2^nd Breakup anniversary. I did n I feel so like MERDEKA.. hehee..

Met yo n odah with their army.. hehe.. learning to be parents.. :D

31st August 2007

Head up to Mengabang Telipot the next day. Attending 'Kenduri Arwah' held by Nahar's family. We were late .. in fact sooooo late.. Nway.. thanks 2 d family.. hehe

Wut else ehh?? Nothing much.. The Merdeka really mean a lot to me.. Every single merdeka, bring sort of new things to me..

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I was being so fucking rude n I wanna post my apologize here.. I'm sorry that I treated u badly, I'm sorry that I said nasty words to you, I'm sorry I called you names, I'm sorry that I've never respect you, I'm sorry for everything..

I never ask you to wait for me, as I always want you to have your own good life. Me will always be like this as I ain't get over the things that I should have let go. Life is not complicated if we treat it easily.. Somehow, someday.. we might appreciate the decision we've made today. But maybe we gonna regret it.. whatever it is d decision has been made wisely..

Pray for your happiness as I always pray for everyone happiness...

Breakin up..

I got this from The Hustler's, and I can say.. it's quite great n somehow, reflects what actually happened to me.. :p what actually I felt.. long time ago.. long time ago darl.. it was back then..
change it to the 'him' version.. obviously bcoz I'm a gurl.. :p

“Well, what can I say dude? What can I say?”

“If I have learned anything from this, it’s that the most intense part of being in love is the falling in love bit (start) and the break up phase (end) – that’s when your guts get wrenched and you feel like your heart is being ripped out and chopped violently into a thousand pieces.”

“And you know what? That’s the best parts of the time you spend being in love. It’s like you watch these romantic series – Winter Sonata and all, and the main lead actors/actresses falling in love and the yearning and missing-each-other shit kinda makes you feel like shit and on top of the world all over again. That’s the best part of being in love dude.”

“Lately, since my breakup with the guy, I have had flashbacks on how fantastic it was when we met, how our first kiss felt, the exquisite moments of our first time making love to each other and how his face lighted up when I bought him present and stuff…”

“It’s like our whole time together flashed right before my eyes. I started to remember everything and reminiscing about it brought a fresh wave of pain in my heart. Hell, even if I had to do it all over again, I will go ahead and share those experiences with him. It’s better to have loved and lost than never to have loved before. Sure, it hurts like so damn painful but I never regretted knowing him and sharing those moments with him.”

“Something I never told you dude… The last time we met about some months back, he just held me in his arms for 10 minutes, put his head against mine and just hugged him silently, not a word exchanged between us. And as I held him, I prayed for his happiness and God’s peace to come upon him that he may continue his life well.”

“Raising my head, I looked down at him and saw his smile. I really knew then that he loved me. And that comforted me a lot even though he had wanted to break up with me. It comforted me that he was fine and I could see in his face that he loved me so much but yet, he wanted to live right and so I reluctantly let him go.”

“My heart was at peace, knowing that I did not lose him because he didn’t love me. In spite of it all, he still loved me and knowing that was enough for me. I guess after all that time, investment and heartfelt effort in our relationship – just knowing that he loved me gave me strength to let him go…”

“Sometimes, when you love someone so much, you let him go because you love him and you want him to be happy. Even if you are crying deep inside and even if you are hurting so damn badly, you just pick yourself up and move on. Because I feel if you love someone, you shouldn’t force him to be with you. Love is about giving freely and receiving freely the love from another….”

“I will always love you… Be happy and be free, my love…”

Yea.. I will always love you...