Pissed off...

I cried myself out yesterday. All d way from campus to the house.
I cried like a baby. I cried with sounds which never happened before.
Whenever I cry, sob is the only sound will be heard.
Yesterday, was the worst cry ever..

I didn't cry that way when my first love breaks my heart.
I didn't cry that way when the person I love wants us to be apart.
I didn't cry that way when being scolded for going to Bangkok on my own.

But I cried like hell bcoz of that SOB.
I can never keep everything on my own. Was really disappointed and need some 1 to talk to.
I don't really need a boyfriend for that. All I need is an understanding parents.
I know, each time my dad sees me cry, he cries himself inside too..
But I need him to know my situation.. my hardness.. my life..
Family is important to him..
But not when his own family treating his daughter real bad.
How dare that 'Sob' treated me the way that Papa couldn't even imagine.
If he can turn back time.. for sure Papa will never pay a penny for dat 'Sob' studies expenses.

Now, let me finish my things.. n then you and you family can go to HELLLL!!!
I may don't have uncle to pay my expenses but I hv a FATHER who are willing to do that for me.
If my dad can pay an expenses throughout 4 years study time, he much more willing to pay for my expenses double of the time.

I really need a break. I'm going to Kuantan tonight. Need a refresh. Perhaps tomorrow we'll go to Perhentian again.

Mencari kenangan yg masih tersisa....