Another loss in February

In the middle of the night on Feb 15, my housemate burst into tears. Then Eka came to me n tell me Putri is gone. She had an accident few weeks back n was in the coma state until last friday when her dad flew all the way from Jakarta to see her. When the girls went to visit her on Sunday, she even can hold Echa's hand. We were praying hard so that she can survive the misery. Got swollen all over the face, they hardly recognized her. Tears flow when they see the picture.

Obviously, we can't really hv a sleep for the whole night, and early in the morning I need to get up n go to the lab. Headache due to not enoff sleep. Waiting for the call from the family. Arwah died at Melaka Hospital and need to be taken down to Subang Bestari (her brother's house). We were expecting the arrival should be around 2pm but due to complication here and there, the deceased only reach the house at 5.30pm. The face is still bleeding so we can't see her face.

It was kinda flash back. If only I was there at Iwan's when he left.. I don't know how am I going to be very strong. The future MIL n FIL of Putri were there all along. Their son couldn't come due to exam he's having at the moment. Gosh.. though I don't know her well but I do feel the sadness inside me. I don't wanna cry. Never want to cry but the tears never compromise. I had it all the way till to the grave. Yea, I went to the grave site with more than 100 others.. 2 buses were provided by UiTM for the students. What a loss.. But we always expecting the best for her. Perhaps, this is the best for her. Allah loves her more..

To add the sadness, it almost 2 years Iwan went to see Allah. And in that 2 years, I can't really see what I want in life. Relationship is out of topic. Seeing the deceased being put in the grave, make me realize on my reason to be in this world. What I'm become? What I wanna be? What is going on with me?? I'm tired with all this play around thingy. I never expect the best but at least I could have a better life. Pray to Allah, that I can survive this test. I wanna stop my bad side of life.. Wish me luck.

Al-Fatihah for both of my friends..
My Do'a with you, love one.. I will always love you n always do...