Unanswered called, Unreplied message..

I know it's gone and there's gonna be violence
(Want you to love me)
I've taken as much as I'm willing to take
(Want you to be)
Why do you think we should suffer in silence
(The heavens above me)
When a heart is broken, there's nothing to break
(Eternally)

Last nite.. after wut happened.. I got a call.. from the screen I knew the caller and I decided not to answer his call. Few times gak he called me. Aku buat bodoh je.. its almost 11.30pm,, bior dia pk aku dah tdo..

But then, ada sms masuk. Satu dari kawan yg suh tgk DEWA kat Astro Ria. Aku pedulikkan.. aku tgh ol :p maleh nak layan dewa time2 camtu.. ada rasa cam sedih skit.. yer arr baru lepas kene marah kan. Aku cuma tgk tyo dari you tube je..Satu lagi dari Mr H. Mula2 aku balas ok je..

Sampai satu tahap soalan2 cepumas dia.. aku cam lemas sekejap. I do expect he will ask me such question but I dun expect that soon. Anyway.. msg tu aku malas nak jawab.. then he called me again n aku tak answer pun dat phone call.. coz I know wut he will ask n I;ve no answer for his Q.

"I honestly hope you can answer me. Coz I really hope that you can be the suitable gurl 4me @ my soulmate.."

The whole nite cam takleh nak tdo. Padahal I can always say.. 'I'm sorry' or anything yg suitable la.. but I kinda lost last nite. I was wondering why he likes me in d 1st place and I'm after som1 else.. You see thats the problem here.. when I never be thankful (as sum1 mentioned..). He such a nice guy la.. (selama aku kenal dia la..) but the fact that I'm afraid will torn his heart into pieces is my biggest problem. In fact, no one pun will be okay with that matter.. tapi nak wat camne...

Though I don't know y I'm doin all this n that.. but the temporary satisfaction is enough.. maybe thats the price I've to pay for wut I've done. I've no regret on that coz, I learned from my mistakes.. Wish I will be forgiven by whoever he mite be..

What did they say again ? something like if u love an eagle let it free, if it comes back it was meant to be?

Well its very true.. I did it twice, n they come back.. but @ the moment they came back.. I'm no longer hv heart for them.. for what they've done.. n wut I've done.. so I've decided to stick with whoever I want.. no matter wut.. but then.. I just realize.. If I dun like sum1, I tried my best to show rejection in the very nicest way.. n perhaps I'm facing one right now.. hehe..

Tak kisahla apa2 pun.. lagi 2 minggu aku akan tinggalkan KL.. I'm gonna miss KL.. hehe.. tapi raya haji nanti aku blk lagi..ihikss.. So far aku belom bosan lagi dok KL.. hehe. lainla kalo orang dari mana2 ke kan.. tu sure bosan kalo dok KL lama2.. :p